Sunday, 13 July 2025

5 COLLECTIONS





FOREWORD


I have done this for my brother James; but when I say ‘I’ it is a co-imaginative multiplicity of which he is himself a part. Only a few days ago I sat with but one collection on my screen – the book about music that contains my brother’s design of the new da Vinci circle. Then my other brother Dr. Robert over the phone said to precede it with the love poem batch. That means How To Be Free As A New Beat which was organised a while back now to replace my now-retracted first adult collection Rose Petals In The Ashtray and which is way better than that. As I was preceding the music with the love poetry, James suggested to augment the text with the collection of new poems I largely wrote for the webzine Snakeskin. So that became another; and then when that was done, voices, but who were they – my sister Hannah? – I think so – suggested to augment the text again with the collection I wrote when I was but seven, so that we had four. Finally, tonight my mother got me to go fishing for the book-length poem about walking my dog, as a fifth collection to add on the end, even saying it was my best work. So while I take care of the words themselves, the over-arching infra-structure or even exo-skeleton has been the gift of the whole family. I should be happy with it too because for a long time I flailed around complaining that I was unable to create a foundational collection for an eventual Collected Poems, like Allen Ginsberg or Norman Nicholson have, which I have both read and admired; and now I have the makings of such an eventual Collected Poems at the age of only 43. As stated How To Be Free As A New Beat was organised to replace Rose Petals In The Ashtray when the latter was cancelled. The Night The Bat Got Back From The Curfew is a correction on my book of music, or our book of music, Soundcloud Rain. Then we’re into the third collection which is comprised largely of poems I actually had individually formally published in a monthly webzine called Snakeskin – and that third collection is called Full, partly because the webzine in question likes poems that are full and rich. My early boyhood work I cannot ignore, furthermore, and that comes in at number four, still called The Sunset Child like when I first brought it out. Fifthly comes Chocolate Dog, which is a single book-length poem. So I went from a slim file to a fat file rather quickly and sit here nursing a whole career under my fingerpads.

























I


HOW TO BE FREE AS A NEW BEAT


















































I KNEW THAT SHE LOVED ME


I escaped last night

into a heightened dream

from a dull and longing sleep


and the stars murmured

their cool ballad

to the approaching sky.


Secrets hung like ghosts

in the corner of my wanton world

all blurred and drugged too deep


and I knew that she loved me

from her invisible motions

and the dagger in her soft reply.


The questions concealed in her eye.


Her smile a luring prison.

Her blink a beautiful danger.

Her breath a poisonous magic.


And I knew that silence

would soon let slip its whisper,

knew that fantasy

had never been so real

and I knew that she loved me

because I knew everything.


I knew.





















LE LITTLE LAPIN ON LE LAWN


Le little lapin on le lawn,

trembling in the dusky dawn,


forlorn as fallen autumn leaves

is the wave that misbehaves,


it makes you melancholy-mad,

where the wave-forms terminate,


mind the gap, wet, spastic mirrors clap,

you don’t need meaning on a plate,


you’re dying slowly as the light

pours forth from the glowing East,


the sun a hedgehog in the air but

slow and Bible-black the beast,


O little lapin on le lawn,

who sheds a secret tear for us all,


sup the flowers like a cup

before the rusty Autumn falls.




























HELIUM AUBADE


Tit butter moat brink notes sprinkle

outside open Darwin window down.

The pulleys are not for bullies.

Unbidden comes the light of dawn.

Birds are smuggling supercars to

an Iranian overlord through

Persia and over the mnts. Listen.

Tin is their usual merchandise.

The sun is a hedgehog’s defensive

needle spill all over the garden.

I watch through the old, Victorian,

stained-glass window on the

creaky mezzanine. I feel I

should be smashing a trashcan in

a back alley full of well-groomed cats…

gold, frankincense and myrrh

are purring in this Holy shine.

I am exalting the senses this dawn,

propagating my love of life.

Earlier on, there was a numinous

alien spaceship hovering in

pre-dawn dark to the East; then

the horizon became a bandwidth

like a petrol-coloured negative;

then colour erupted, plasmatoidal

resolution, but colour is not enough.

Description is not enough when

birds play laser-flute in the trees!

The mind’s ear lies beyond its eye!

This Age could be one of Re-enchantment,

which is en echo of The Enlightenment

which itself is the simultaneous

astrological and sociological de-centering

of Man – but what do I know?

I am just a man in the middle of

things. A poet stranded in medias

res as the magic of dawn fades.














FISH


When synapses die, then it’s a case of seeing

if there’s a glint of life left in the eyes of fish being


eaten by the seagulls, then empty Unreality

grows a tint of menace, in all probability -


but not forlorn is this wave where angels descend

and clap at the trains that pass near the end


for I smell redolent flowers at the kitchen door

as I make myself a tea that’s not against the law


merrily merrily merrily we have run out of cream

to sweeten the humour that has the logic of a dream


as it breaks apart, widening in connection

between the expected and the unexpected direction


musical chairs it isn’t, but it could be a game

remembering how inside the flame there is no blame


in love that stuck like glue true bubblegum was perceived

until there was nothing to do, so in love we believed


we believed in the sea shore as a kind of horse

where of course waves have sexual intercourse


it hurts to work for sadness, that mother of dreams

whom it seems is beautiful, too beautiful for seams


but beauty bursts forth, with bounteous breasts

that amplify and emolliate sensation’s quests


such treasure as this should be sacrosanct in days

when the new contenders have also lost their ways
















AN INWARD PRAYER


The initial task was to widen the area of consciousness” - Allen Ginsberg


Blessed are all these miles of madness

bumbling around us


Blessed is Night w/ its centuries

of bright, burning eyes


Blessed is the secret of an inward prayer,

whispered to your soul,

disguised w/ shadow


Blessed is the joy

when tears break from their blue chains

and shatter from your eyes


Blessed is Brahman

and the holiness of Things


O Brahman! Regard me

w/ mine own eyes!


(Atman is Brahman

as the sun its light

cursed the wiseman to God

w/ his final breath)


Blessed is Buddha & Samadhi & Christ

and blessed am I for blessing them


Blessed is connecting to the

Big White Dream

in moments of vast, empty enlightenment


when suddenly wakened

you open reception

to Dark Dream Radio & the Infinite Broadcast


and blessed are its electric currents

(the channels of rhythmic ecstasy)

for Music, Sex and Idea

are the elements of miracle


& grasping your mind

in instant static pain

the sudden rush of apocalypse

like the visitation of God

or the angel in your eyelid


Blessed is falling through leering madness

& waking again a naked boy


Blessed is the sadness in things

and blessed also its joy


Blessed may be the end at last

under the sea

below the soul

in the upside-down

Oceans above us


(all that heaven sends is rain)


& blessed is the rain that heaven sends

it is the life for the poems around us


Blessed are the Four Pillars of Time

Milk Water Whisky Wine


milk is the silver semen of birth

water is the heavenly liquor

whisky is embedded in the soul of the poet

& wine swims through the heart of the gods -


O drown me in the heavenly fluids!


Blessed is the poet

struggling through headache

strung out in harmonious rhythm

like a chain of music from star to star,

beating to joy in a New Beat heart


Blessed is sin if it kills Ignorance


Blessed is the redness of blood,

The madness of kissing,

The promise of moments


Blessed is the wavering emergence of Now


The friendliness of meeting a stranger

The strangeness of meeting a friend


Blessed is the promise of words

That someday I may dispose of language


Blessed is peace

as blessed is 'FUCK!'


Blessed is the miracle of life

Atheist and holy in one


Blessed is choice and every decision

And choosing never to choose at all


Blessed is the rapture of the slender moon

And the danger in her wanton thigh

And blessed are we for our daring tongues

For being in love w/ being in love


Blessed is our small advance

beneath an ocean of weeping stars

for time is all that time can prove


Blessed is Discovery, Invocation and the dark

Blessed is pain for it shows you can feel

And blessed is death for it means you’re alive


Blessed is wandering the cruel edge

and seeming a fool in quest for height 


Blessed is the rambling bardic child

Who never strays from his heart

But on vast miniature journeys through space

He arrives at Conclusion

W/out even thinking


Blessed is thought as absence of thought


So in the great, dark Over-soul of night

Above us all and counting time,

That thought behind

The back of your mind…


Let’s just say you looked into my eyes

And saw the scars of dreams had opened

And saw the glimmer of the gates unlocking

And saw the nobleman nod his assent


Tell the master calling for me

The servant shall not be disturbed

He is drowning himself in the laughing sea

And has seen the snake slowly recoiling

And has felt the womb of conception calling

And has found the Sea of Words


No let’s just say

I came and saw

And you almost heard

My soundless word


Blessed is word as absence of word


Last words change all the rest

And last longest,

Last word

Death.


















































AURORA FLOREALIS


Gilly flowers curtsey, not off the sound-map.

To make a flower-press would be womanly.

When our days still ended on cannabis

we would bemoan that flowers were legal.

To the tune of the wind I sink, then swim.

I no longer puff the evil weed these days.

It would be a reward, a kind of dialysis,

that separates the murk from the excellence.

I would need it to balance out my mind,

one homeostatic device for another one.

Now I worry that I am hurried and florid.

I hear an A. E. I. O. U. bird toot its long,

hollow horn out on the A595 and relax.

I hear its wheels go round, that it’s heavy.


*ketamineguitar*



































AWAY WITH THE FAIRY LIQUID


As if even Natural things are given over once again to a Barthesian world of product placement, it might be instructive to consider the healing of my busted, dusty Hooverbag lungs… once I was away with the Fairy Liquid. I became interested in the switch thrown. There were new maps sprawled on the point of a pin. I hungered after The Snowbell Prize. My brief fling with the politics of flight kept me up all through the Ancient Night. Another high-powered dawn was born but what was the WATTAGE? Well, I felt a leaf, I fell out of life, probably no-one else knew, but then there may be some. I wallowed in my lazy swamp, languishing, lizarding, long. Interstellar Artois was the effect of fat, planetary raindrops beating down on sad, Lucozade lights, lying lambent on the paving stones. DogMuckels was not what it seemed. Quantity Streets were typical of consumer culture. By now, the National Hypochondriac Service have sorted me out. My mood is made stable on a sterilised table. Fakeazade does not come free from the kitchen Tap as yet, but we are working on it. Savlon is wrong. Erase the Dettol. There’s no such thing as cinnamon, but then again that is not strictly true. Well-weird this ward: words woke it: walls broke it: Weirds walk it: or they should, break it open to the light of day, straight away. There’s little to do except listen to the snap, crackle and pop of the cereal, cereal in the morning after a dark night of the soul in winter.




































THE NEW MOON BEAM


O Flo’, O woe, O what am I ever going to do now?


As if to make sure I am still a nutter

the kind people of the intercom have asked the poet

to redo for you what I did for Nathalia


which is to climb on to the roof at sunset


here where the stars re-align


even though it is long past sunset


and write a series of strictly 12 love poems


out there, lying back on the roof at Cumpstones

which is as I say where the Plough alignment lives…


sooooooooooo within moments

of the kind people suggesting I remake them

just for you whom it would seem

is still to be my lifelong dream,


I found a pen, some paper, a buttercup-torch

and made my way to the play room in the attic

through whose Velux I used to climb


and O woe is me! The Velux no longer opens!


What am I ever going to do?


Instead I sit at this flat, anti-Romantic screen,

venting my spleen, my mood made stable

on a sterilised table far away…


gone is the day, and gone the day when

daring teenagers would smoke on the roof.


I guess the Velux must’ve sealed shut!


So no longer can you see love

as a search for much small proof!


I would be out under the stars, saying

it is dawn, and by dawn I would say

it is night, and you wouldn’t know.


I might’ve been in the city for all I let on!


It would’ve been interesting to see

if by now I had become the new Einstein,


and if the new, synchronised word stretched out there,

where I lay back in warm, altruistic night air,

under what Jim called a placenta of stars…


I would talk of the dawn in the dark.


Lament for the death of that lark.


It’s still not too late to separate

the wend from the stain, dream one.


Into the miracle-movie I try and move now.


Into the flow of words I go,

after the alphabet dancing again,

investing my mind, knowing

it takes passion to reignite

the long gone song in the heart.


Courteous blandishments and platitudes,

cruciform shapes of longitudes and latitudes,

all prior armour, can be gone,

as through love the switch is thrown…


needing to move for the retirement of my mum,

I think back to the bats in the attic,

and all that has gone on, and how

I would weep to leave, really grieve,

and lose my bond with the stars.


When I let you know what went on

in terms of certain Naturalistic Observations,

attestations, weird specimens, even

you had to deal with it and heal with it


and I regret ever letting anyone else in


but at least by now my main concerns


are all you whom it seems

is not smitten with the horseman

who’ll only let you down.


Out on the roof meanwhile where

flat, blank, Skiddaw slates are lying,

there is no-one to capture the rapture,

to see how far they can see,

to contemplate Infinity, if

the universe goes on forever,


how there’s no such thing as “almost infinite,”


how there needed to be everything

in order for there to be anything at all.


So although it was a brilliant idea

of mine originally, to write up there,

and now again of whomsoever it is

that feeds us, whom I hear call,


alas, O woe is me, O Flo’, O no,

the best work of a generation is impossible


and with that we land quite flat

as a screen, as a mental patient’s mood,

back in the posh, coffee-cake dining room


where I have made my bed underneath

a large, pastoral painting which seems

to smuggle God’s nostril into the cloud…


by now when I talk of wandering

lonely in the cloud, there is new meaning,

but all I do is sit here pondering,

who is calling, and writing…


I would like to liken your blink

to the fluttering of the butterfly,

like I did last time when this went on.


By now you might be starting to doubt

whether I am even dressed, and

what it is that I test, and which

exiled world is the best at every wrong decision….


At least we still seem to have some purple,

even when the people call out of fever,

at the radical, recalcitrant renegade in the middle,

grown repentant for all that’s gone wrong.


I would be calibrating a new, musical scale by now


had that window opened, and truly

am only starting to see that

it’s become a bit like us


who did not sieze the chance…


by now this rewrite of my first collection is getting full.


By night I write but am not on the pull.


I might be out there inventing a new force,

spelling “entropy” backwards as if to

frame the first, unformulated spark

of appetence in Nothingness preceding

Creation, but instead pleasure is fleeting -


a callous colour of mind overcomes me.


How I would wash you, anatomise you,

take you to the zoo, hold your hand,

oversee the growth of your dreaming gland,

expand your horizons – all gone.


Now my brother’s love is what I cherish.








































WIRED TEETH


I watch her walk along on the other side of the street.

She parades the black panther’s nonchalant strut.

She wears blue jeans and black leather boots.

She takes some chewing gum out of her bag.

She slides the stick of it out of the pack.

She puts the stick of it into her mouth.

She loves to chew and suck the taste.

She loves to chew and suck the taste.

She puts the packet back in her bag.

She swings the bag about a little bit.

She walks past a little pub long shut.

She might go check out a flower shop.

She loves to chew and to suck the taste.

She enjoys it, chewing and sucking the taste.


(Kilburn, 1997)



































ON 4CMC


I've got a new plot,” thought the dullard.

Literature has started to release serotonin.”

He was on the new designer drug, a cathinone and

NPS called “4CMC” when he dreamed up the plot.

There was an holographic bike out the back

all through the Night. The dark was glittering

with tinsel. Mangled love was the overall effect.

He saw the world through the frame of angel

hair, there were weird, Escherian shapes in

the air, there was light deep inside the dark.

Yes,” he thought, “Literature. Serotonin.”

For once you remove the inner monologue

you can become an open energy conduit.

Question the comfort and see for yourself.

At times it seems to be all just tall and telepathic

telegraph poles telling you what and what not to do!



































READING MATERIAL


If there were paper under my heart there would

be writing on it and at last it would be red

like the blood-orange warning of dawn-burst

or nuclear-fall-out-in-reverse-of-dusk, whose

scattered, tattered-knicker clouds conceal

real live U.F.O's, and non-exchangeable

for a bus-ticket when the fiver-river drones.

That page, my wage, an underground organ,

with its meta-fictional shorthand and triplicate, 

something like the opposite of a bus ticket,

in taking you on an inward journey forever:

surely it would feel shocked not to be legal tender?


[Silecroft Beach]





































INVINCIBLE LOVERS


I’ll tell you how strange and wild

With wanton promise comes she

On an unknown hour

Like an uninvited guest

You’ve somehow brought to bed.


All night we’d

Sit and think of history

As if it hadn’t passed,

The great wars and the ancient peoples

And all the silly fears.


We’d think of how much we’ve changed

And how much we’ve remained the same.


We’d think of moments of mine

We somehow shared and how I longed to live

In circling illumination of all those moments,

Fragments gone.


And softly I wished

To expand history back into the past

And never to move again an inch forwards.

And to run through the memory of Time,

Ancient, timeless galleries.


Often we’d sit and think of speaking

Or retiring to bed or even sleeping.

Always we’d realise we never had

Time enough to waste or spend.


So we gloried in ourselves

Like invincible lovers,

Always boundless in new being.


And if I seldom spoke in sad regret,

She would turn and smile

As if to boldly offer


Come take my hand,

And we’ll wander across no-man’s land.'


(1997)








ON HEARTBOOK


[warning: contains voices]


Up all night working the guy who said he would plug his senses in the mains


incoming voices seem to be Smart-talking


Simon says fragmented for reasons of solidarity with the dispossessed of the world


feeling the Age of Communication = the Age of Alienation I am


chivvying words in different orders recalling the machine in Gulliver’s Travels that precedes the computer whom it seems might have destroyed the spirituality of Cabalistic permutation games of heart-purifying nature based on quest not arrival but whom it seems might not


sharing secrets on Facebook as if it were Heartbook


can’t upload spittle to philosophy chatroom


can’t pass the gravy over Facebook enough


started out writing a good book but laptop became huge container for storing the sum of all knowledge


thinking the surface area on which I write being infinite the story is now infinite, the content gone endless


still like Gulliver’s Travels and ‘Goodbye Ruby Tuesday’ – goodbye


still think if the windows were washed – every one - I would see nothing, nothing but the white mirrors re-affirming the quiet interior of this solipsistic kitchen of fiction where I write by night furtive in flight with the sprightly hypertext-sniper on Piper At The Gates of Dawn


when I look out of the window at dawn I sometimes see Eden, am like Adam walking in a prelapsarian garden with a bagful of names to scatter freely on things


the ingredients of apple juice might make a found poem called ‘Text Message From An Alien’


seems the internet is to writing as photography was to visual art


seems the on/off switch of the laptop is its clitoris


seems the omnijective interface of random access co-imagination is the new, synchronised word


through the rooms people come and go Smart-talking on magic alphabet radio


when I see the sun in the morning I think it is Holy not just a 2 pence piece


the kettle rises to its silent scream, its steam Ariel returning on Caliban’s chain singing sweet song my one note on hyper-vision this fair dawn


it looks like a good book is on the cards


it looks like Heartbook might’ve fled away with the Smartpoem


it looks like mutation in consciousness, truth too simple to understand, these are gesture without motion bones like sadness gene and dreaming gland and the pollen has gone under Gondwanaland and the ecstasy pill gone under the green hill and we are hiding from The Waste Land in The Waste Land still


was remembering recently the time my friend sent a text saying LIQUID CRYSTAL METH into space, and I was the one underneath it, the one to catch it


think it might be a psycho-technological post-poem pertaining maybe to replace the archaic sense of ‘gay’ gone to apathy, barrage and detachment


reminds me love is a choice of words


was WH Auden that said that not me


I still think love is the hope the heart literally needs in order for it to survive without which it can stop
































PROSPERO IN AMSTERDAM


First time I smoked a bifter

it was like the sea

was set alight to

with petrol

and burned.


We were in the den

by the beck in

the Combe field

when we smoked it.


My bros seemed alright

as if it were banal,

trite, not the sheer,

cold terror I felt.


I went up

to the attic to play

guitar, and still felt

so paranoid, as the steal

strings of the guitar

were strummed

and the world

went round

and round the sun

that I had to stop.


I went for a shower

to wash off the paranoia,

masturbated in there,

and orgasm was

so long, so prolonged

it changed my perception…


I was suddenly absolved

in warm, soapy

bubbles. Supper

was called. I went

to eat spaghetti

bolognese with my

family. The threat

of my parents knowing

diminished to nothing

around the table;

I was sold on the

green stuff, suddenly.


So began a Romance

that I would say

was a Holy sacrament.


So began the self-legitimising

pact of the stoner

circle too: how

we smoked to get

sober from the

advertising trance.


How we wished to abjure

temporal wealth, bondage

to surface Gods of

illusion; renounce

worthless dogma

to consumerism

that only robs us

of our bodies; touch

the texture not

name side of life;

turn life into love.


We used to discuss

casual, embedded

drug references in culture:

Mario mushrooms

conferring energy;

Tinkerbell’s dust

that makes you fly;

the field of poppies

in the Wizard of Oz

that makes them see

the Emerald City.


As I say this

was part of the

self-legitimising pact.


By now I’ve

packed it in. By now

I know the brain releases

cannabinoids naturally

for moments of

Signification, like

reaching the top

of a mountain; and

if you flood your brain

with cannabinoids

un-naturally, meaning

and signification

become aleatory,

become a mess: there

is suddenly meaning

at every point of

intersection in the

crazy palimpsest of memory.


Wishing to still have

a good short-term

memory, wishing

to not break the Hollow

Claw, wishing to

still be a poet, I

don’t wish to

smoke cannabis anymore.










































SAFE FROM HARM


Fleeing the scene of the smoking crime

my shadow legs were failing falling

decided to run forever but fell

the cops were swift on my slow back

& slow to follow my swift soul

which grinning escaped through some hole

& down a road safe from

Ignorance perfectly un-noticed and perfect


The cell was hard like white bone

& naked like something blind and ugly

I slumped & swayed in openly stonedness

& opened my black, silken shirt

the silent one” sulking & moaning

in hooded prayer to an inward God


The cells were sick & blind

some people advertised their Ignorance

in graffiti screaming from the walls

FUCK THE PIGS” someone had scratched

I would have told him to fuck himself

for what worse is a pig than a sheep?


& so it appeared that Ignorance wins

only over Ignorance again

& I was thankful for this thought

& thankful that I felt wise

& winked eye to my mind

thankful that though I know my judgment

really judges deeper and wider,

unlike the pigs and sheep I don’t

insist my judgement is better



____________________
















A TRANCE OF STALKS


I love the day the first, fresh scents of spring

suffuse the air and pervade the senses.


An AEIOU bird

toots its hollow horn

outside on the A595.


A celebratory genesis is everywhere.


Mother earth

is giving birth,

menstruating season

and ovulating dawn.


Fresh lovers maunder

hand in hand and

knee-deep in redolent flowers

into shade to take repose

by cool, running waters.


Sybaritic sylphs swoop in sentient air.


The blue sky arches and swoons,

I bridle the mind and

race apace to the shore

where seabirds scream

from the ragged rocks,

O is it their love-song or elegy?


Waves make gentle love to the shore.


In alchemy a galaxy

of stars exploding

into being above is perceived

as an orgasm, is perceived,

that is, in an erotic sense.


Liquid night arrives too soon,

O moon, O beautiful,

sleepless omen moon,

who shines like an

electric coin and seems

to be in love with the sea

or at least her own

shattered reflection:

she scatters her jewellery box all around.


Homework tonight

is to remember your dreams.


I prefer telepathy to 10p.




















































THE INDIVISIBLE KING


(a psych-trance number written on returning from The Secret Garden Party)


Who do you think’s the indivisible king?

His name is writ on a butterfly wing


A fireface moon and a frozen rock sun

Collide in a dream and the dyes start to run


But Hamlet’s been healed by a shaman with spells

And vowels are our souls and words can be cells


You are who you love and not who you are

So set the controls for the prettiest star


The wings of a butterfly will bear my weight

One can be savage and one can be great


My temple is simple it’s inside your brow

Each day is a new religion now


To sleep on the ceiling w/ feelings of love

Or sleep on the feeling w/ star-tracks above


Say is the wick worthy of the flame

And as play dies and becomes the Game


Is ecstasy mc squared or a dove

Is numbness to love just as painful as love


And while I’m uttering crushed butterflies

If you ask no questions you’ll hear no lies




















ERASING THE DEBT


My father told me he smuggled fine art,

told me adult things way back near the start

of my life and I was surprised – but it didn’t hurt.

He told me he smuggled art over the Berlin Wall,

sold his business when the Berlin Wall fell,

told me he donned faux Australian accent

and code name “Blue” – but in time I went


and found out that (as I had suspected)

it was pollen he smuggled. The story he told -

it was to keep his young family protected! -

art was but recourse to euphemism for pollen!

He didn’t charge the Germans for the return

of Russian-plundered, pastoral paintings

but had a pollen farm high in the Moroccan mountains.


My private schooling was funded that way.

Now I’m trying to think of something bright to say!

Blue was his nickname, Blue as the sky today,

through which a docile cloud-change migrates -

and he shipped tonnes of pollen to the States!

Now that he’s gone I can, yes, I can impart

what my father really smuggled when he said art:


tonnes of pollen, containing mascara bruise,

peacock feather, velvet flare, butterfly wing, whose

effects make me laugh at Flarf, snooze to News…

inducing tangential-thinking and demotivation,

it’s non-conducive to old-fashioned concentration.

We dreamed we could legalise it, make it free,

use it as currency or to cross the Irish Sea,


but came across the wall, the wall we adorned

instead of breaking down and soon it dawned

on me that like Michael Hofmann I mourned

my father before he even went and died,

which is called proleptic mourning, then he did,

left me remembering him saying “life is one”

under a bleached, wide, tired, madding, English sun.


[reconstructed]










THE NEW BOX


Il faut que je m’en aille.










Sometimes you’ve just got to hit the road and.


Start learning the basics of a strange, unseen vernacular arrowed down from some lost, mad Godhead within. Pass the fallen road sign saying THINK! in the nettles and the mystery of the single shoe beside the road, in a fast Subaru Impreza with Paul and the gang, the Beatles’ back catalogue tumbling from the speaker, the open window a roaring lion, late birds singing in trees, birds that are intelligent, trees that are our friends, on a smouldering evening in Cambridgeshire, when nothing really matters.

































WHEN THE BECK TURNS TO ICE CUBES


On our first night up my dad took me out

In the back and asked me what I could hear,

And I did not know, so he showed me the beck,

Showed me the beck to open my ear,

Showed me the beck to open my ear.


/////////////////


We traced its source up the fell one day,

But found only bog and marsh, no fountain,

And the fell itself I should say by the way

Is twelve feet short of being a mountain,

Is twelve feet short of being a mountain.


/////////////


Down as gravity and katabasis require,

Beckwater travels, always choosing the course

Of least resistance, scentless and cold,

Bold to be long, as long as a horse,

Bold to be long, as long as a horse.


//////////


It's laced with ecstasia, the bright, deadly beck

That flows down from the fell’s striated way,

Underlaid with Technicolour unicorn hooves,

Brackish to Blue and dimpling to me,

Brackish to Blue and dimpling to me.


//////////


Paul Farley would pee in it like a punk,

But I like to stomp in leaking welly boots,

On a trance of green, THC-free stalks,

And let the wet water get in at my roots,

And let the wet water get in at my roots.


//////////


It’s like a long necklace of notes and stones,

Laid over a lucky lady’s milkwhite neck,

And whatever the southerners say of a stream,

It’s also the truth for a bright, northern beck,

It’s also the truth for a bright, northern beck.


//////////


Singing with longkissing sweet-throat BBC birds,

It falls two feet into a sound as sweet

As a kettle drum’s metal petals of silver bliss

That tinkle mellifluous on the carnival's street,

That tinkle mellifluous on the carnival's street.


//////////


It babbles down into a double-barrelled tunnel,

And disappears for a mile or more underground,

And bubbles up singing in a farmer's field,

For all the world a round map of sound,

For all the world, a round map of sound.


//////////


Optimus Prime leaves once blocked the tunnel

And water leaked in under the back door

To float a massive, abstract archipelago

Of our tasteful vinyl on the black-flagged floor,

Of our tasteful vinyl on the black-flagged floor.


//////////


Poor Ossie the dog was marooned in his basket,

Barking on the store sign for a gone HMV,

And record stores close and folk heroes pass

But the beck still lucid dreams down to the sea,

And by the BBC tears we do mean the sea.


//////////


So it laughs to itself, over what we don’t know,

As it makes that tear-clear journey down,

A fountain pen for all to write with – O! -

And sometimes gets so swollen in the rain,

And sometimes gets so swollen in the rain.


//////////
















THE IDEA OF ORDER AT THE FOOT OF SEA NESS


Let us have a go then, you and I -

when we are tired of getting high -

when the note-well is filled with stars that swap

places when no-one is looking, let us kindly lie

down on the top of the oldest fell,

one midsummer night on the heather,

and munch our popcorn in front of the cinema.


Let us travel by xylophone up there, predictive

text, Robin Hood arrow, fountain pen,

or even better, to use imagination,

as the poet must again and again,

let’s travel by bullet up the top of a

telegraph pole opening piratical CD shops

at all the local telegraph pole tops.


Let us bypass normal societal procedure,

and stay there until we yawn at the dawn

and emerge from dreams as if from water,

brush the crumbs of sleep from our clicked-on

eyes, befuddled, encrusted with glue…


For up the fell no cars come and go

with backbeats blaring on the stereo;

and no go faster stripes of booze

are streaming on the unicorn’s side.


Ha, let us open a Burger King joint

at the top, not so much to reappoint

the pantheon of Greco-Roman gods

whom it seems disintegrate under their sods,

but to allow a new sense of archaic gay,

replace that emotion now gone astray

with gun and bud and band and butter:

let it be like writing a long letter

either to or maybe from a higher self

whose brain sits upon a Waterstones shelf.


Let us first dare the darkness to insist

we sip our flasks at night and get pissed

on firewater whisky – let us turn

to God and see what we might learn.


If dog still equals pi times mc squared,

because you want to think Him round,

and O is still the key of water, be assured,

and its most soul-assuring sound,

let us babble down in the morning,

all the way, heeding the warning,

to make as mezzanine our science,

in an increasingly competitive world…


already the elements have nettle stings for names.

The deep, green lane leads you home,

but first you must launch your song

into the blue ether like a Timeshare salesman

sizzling the dream of a plate of roast beef.


Draw on this dystrophy of darkness

soon coming to your cinema screen

now that we’re at the summit and can glean

honed alertness, awareness, from a purpose

achieved over a long afternoon of walking,

walking side by side and even talking

on telepathic walkie talkies of how no,

there’s no such thing as the Nirvana barcode,

how maybe in very Heaven every step

we’ve taken up the fell will be kept

in a pile for us to count and compare -

only to find no statistics up there!


Ah, I forget if we are up or down -

let us fetch the wines of the wise men -

it seems planes are the shoes of clowns -

but forgetting is part of escape and return…

there is only loss of self and recollection,

which templates over life and writing,

which templates over experience and data,

which templates over the now and the after.


Let us phone a supernatural female deity

on collect call, and find that she

never hangs up, after a prayer,

let us pray to the closing of the door,

the ordeal of the seer may well soon be over,

the on and off at once invention is far too clever,

let be the beck as it rambles and falls,

let know the flowing of dry stone walls,

let over be under and all be at one,

let the land of flying fairy cakes be fun.


Already the yellow DogMuckels M

atop the pole in the industrial park in town

is the postmodern churchspire, in

the spiritual vacuum, post-modernism

theme dissolved into message, and

semantics is a road sign not a place.


Already margins are centres, centres margins,

surface is depth, and distortion

clarity, and there is a ream of cheap tea

from Africa in among the supermarket bargains…


Hell, we’ll have another game of cards.

We’ll link to the internet in actual clouds.

Yes chink pelvises like champagne flutes

atop the fell wearing leather walking boots.


Sometimes in dreams I find an organisational system

for the organic whole of the magnum

opus, that living work of art

I might call Gondwanaland and

which is a living thing, which I should leave long,

not try and make cohere like Pound,

but when I wake and press my feet to the ground,

the Order I dreamed, the scheme, is gone -

and Truman speakers wake me like a gong

augmenting the end of ‘The Lemon Song.’


Who will renew the morning dew

that music has moved the green grass to?

All the birds have gone south by now.

I heard that they sing with their wings.
































SYSTEMS


If you should not trust systems for they rule with fear

not love, fear would appear an epiphany of Hell

in the self, love Man’s highest emotion here

where the dream of love meets the oldest fell...

to engender an aesthetic anti-system like the

colours of the vowels in English you can

find pasta, tea, air, hair, water, clothes, that your ordinary

speech is surreal enough to qualify as an open-

air poem – quick get it down, get it down! -

your notes on hyper-vision dissipate in the air!

What wisdom you speak! Like Blake for the modern

ear… you remember when you had brains to spare?

For chatting in philosophy chat rooms all Night!

For writing in a secret, alchemical alphabet or not!





































MUM’S COFFEE BOX


The lid is on mum’s coffee box and

that is a good thing seeing

as coffee goes stale sooooooo quickly -

reacts to the air; and she

loves our ground coffee to be fresh.

It loses all its coffee-ness

if you leave off the lid -

even for a few seconds.

Everyone here loves their coffee.

We have an instant coffee machine.

It makes espressos: usually

we make a double and add

warm milk from the AGA.

Sometimes I wish to plug

my senses in the instant espresso

machine. Sometimes I wish

for instant travel. Usually though

I’m content to just have coffee

and the place where I’m free.

It is far better than instant

coffee and Monopoly Jail.

It is midnight on a warm, summer

night; and I might have a coffee.

Then I might have a flashback

to a bad, vampiric, anti-social

Gap Year rhythm, needing

cashback to perpetuate an

adolescent fantasy world.























COTERMINOUS ORBIT


She does not know firking from fire,

logopoeia from logs for the log-box,

Negative Capability from negative equity,

bonmots from pink, French confectionery,

the colours of the vowels from alphabet spaghetti,

the Objective Correlative from ironic self-distance,

sprechstimme from the kettle rising to its

silent scream, its steam Ariel returning on Caliban's

leash, my one note on hyper-vision this dawn,

chiasmus from napkin-kissing-gates silting

their electron-haired dandelion-puff,

nano-language from the Nanny State,

hypertext poetry from notes on hyper-vision,

Aurora Florealis from Flora Borealis,

the derangement of the senses to attain

the unknown from the derangement of

the senses to attain the Eartoon, Eartoons 

bloomed from barbecued tunes, the anti-

dactylus from the talking pterodactyl, the 

psycho-sensitive flower – talkative and invisible-

from the psycho-technological error, but oh my,

pneumatic woman, aren't you a beautiful one?





























AT INSANE MATE


At Insane Mate I lost my queen

whose eyes it seems were Gondwanaland-green.


We walked to the top of the Pompidou

to read JE DOUBTE DONC JE SUIS,


and in dreams ski down too fast

and get our dreams in plaster cast.


We married already in a pagan way

in a dusky playground scattered with hay


but I went down south to cross the border,

left good love in a state of disorder.


Now love works high up in the Tate,

selling great paintings over a plate….


and if she said she is in love with me

I wouldn’t go taking it personally.































A FROND OF BRACKEN


[with apologies to Brian Patten]


You ask me for a poem.

I offer you a frond of bracken.

You say that’s not good enough.

You’re not buying it.

I say how mood

Is also a bracken frond

Drooping down and

That is why I chose it –

To represent ‘mood’

This mundane Monday morning.

You’re not buying it.

You want something textual.

I say I plucked it from the fell

Which turns in summer

From russet to green

Like an homicidal machine.

I plucked it at random at dawn.

You’re still not buying it.

I seem to remember a time,

Taking the old bramble road

At the Augustan/ Romantic

Crucifix w/ you

Where a frond

Of bracken

Would do.
























GO MY SONGS!


Go my songs into the ballad-murmuring breeze!

Go and be well-equipped with a

toothbrush in your inside pocket!

Go and be not afear’d of the sounds

of the crowded supermarket aisle -

sprinkled as they are with pheramone sprays!

Go disturb the comfortable

and comfort the disturbed.

Go dislodge the algebra from

the brains of mathematicians

and replace it with timeless

ideas transmitted across Time.

Go melt death and attain perfect listening

and not remove the key from life;

go calibrate the key of telepathic grammar;

go walk down the ocular nerve.

Go escape the shape of the paper -

go from me like newborn

spirits of the dead released.
































PURPLE


Voices also told me to write of the

colour purple. In Steiner homes for autists,

rational but socially inept, the corners

of the rooms are round and purple

because it's less threatening than the geometry

of rightangled corners. My room

turned out a little like that when,

as my dying father lay in the attic,

my screen bloomed a numinous purple

light daubing the walls until the

bedroom, an anagram of boredom,

seemed like a featherlite love poem shop:

a little girl's lava lamp of a room!

Sometimes the seeping foxglove aura

vacillated back and forth between

purple and its normal screen light,

refusing to settle for any long period of time.

My bro said I'd caught some virus;

the computer programmer down the pub

just said dying, and he was right,

for by the time Blue passed away,

Blue being the art-smuggling codename

dad used in his shady occupation,

the computer broke down. R.I.P. data-tree,

and farewell luminous dark of half Denmark!

Now all I can think to say on purple

is this: I would put it in my mouth.

And I would chew on it like a cow

grazes on grass, mulchy and blind.

And I would ingurgitate it fully

not spit it out like a child his dummy.

I would taste it like her name. It's

the colour of mystery and sex and

saudade and longing and shame. And

it's the colour we associate with depth.

When I first looked at the colours of the vowels

I noticed the presence of its absence,

as if you'd expect it there because

it's the colour of deep things.












POINTLESS ACTIVITY


Now that University is long out

I wonder what it is I am to do.

Now that I know, say, The Great

Gatsby is an infradiegetic heterotopia

pertaining to panchronic and

panoramic overview, like

a chronotope turned euchronia,

or else a word-world gone

polysemic with the multifarious

possibilities of hermeneutic autonomy

through whom the esemplastic has fled

away with the quadlibetical -

now that I know the lesson

of post-structuralism is twofold,

meaning a) the condition of being

a text can extend to any object,

any quotidian ephemera and b)

the condition of being a language

unto itself can extend to any

text – I wonder what it is I am

to do. My father, after his PPE degree,

under Karl Popper at the LSE, learning

of things like falsifiability and

of P1 to TT to EE to P2, well,

he turned back to Winnie the Pooh.


























HYPERTEXT


No fear, lost lover,

Science has the answer,

all wrapped up in its

rubber-gloved hand

and they’re soon

abolishing altogether

sadness gene and

dreaming gland -

for Science has told us

many of the stars

you gaze at tonight

are not really there

but illusions of the

light that takes so long

to reach the beams

of our glistening eyes

that for centuries

after the star has died

it still appears to

be hanging there,

a little, glimmering

crystal tear, in

love with the dark,

as bright and beautiful

as it would be if

it were really there.

























THE READING


On the train to Simon Pomery’s birthday party in Leeds I wrote in my notebook, all the way there. I wrote the whole alphabet out:


ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ.


Then I went on a bit about ancient alchemy – about how to alchemise the alphabet into something good, transmogrifying lead into gold. It was going to be a reading at the party – but despite all that I had written, when it came to pass I had nothing left except


I felt a leaf,

I fell out of life.”








































WHICHAM VALLEY AS A SCRATCH ON A CD


If a place is still its own mind,

this one quietly dreams to itself

and falls ever further behind.


No, there is no Tourist sign to tell

how rich in natural and human history

is this valley by the oldest fell.


I heard the church is built on the foundations

of the oldest stone built monastery

in the whole of this fair nation.


Black Combe’s foothill Sea Ness (I hear)

was once named Seer Ness after

the trance of some kind of mystic seer.


Nature’s scales are all diatonic

and from all background static depression

here is her sonic, spiritual tonic.


The beck runs its hand smooth through

an angel’s hair in the garden and

assuages the soul when you’re blue.


On Sunday the posse of motorbikes

come for the valley’s sweet curves,

the flowing of troughs and spikes.


I could report on more, much more,

but shall just impart that down the beach,

waves still make gentle love to the shore.




















POSTCARD FROM SILECROFT BEACH


The accents of the waves were Seamus Heaney

the clouds did not move for hours they hung

like search-engines in the big glass day I found 

pink in the shadows and splashed and played 

in the shallows the plush, corrugated, velvet 

sands stretched out like a woman's thighs the

kites in the sky were fishing without capture

or video games of rapture in the window of

wind the stone thrown rearranged God I waved

a wand for the dog to chase the dropped icecream

melted under the tired, madding, bleached, wide,

English sun and the man at the van gave the

unlucky kid another one, a round cone, gratis.






































LOVE ON SICKNESS BENEFITS


You'll bet I say this to all the fit girls

but I look at you and see only purple, silken swirls

I'd buy you troves of redolent flowers

the useless proof of a thousand hours


get out of my head, get into my bed, (baby)


To word/ hope/ dream you is not enough

you hit me w/ the pollen it has to be the real stuff

I'd sip from your eyes and taste your very name

like mother's home-made strawberry jam


get out of my head, get into my bed, [baby]


and we can chink pelvises like champagne flutes

atop the fell wearing leather walking boots

I see that your eyes are under-sea green

and dream I'm on some yellow submarine


get out of my head, get into my bed, [baby]


If love on sickness benefits can be done

it requires I imagine more co-imagination

and while I heard a poem is the opposite of bling

I don't need power just reasons to sing


get out of my head, get into my bed, [baby]
























THE WAKE UP CALL


It has taken sooooooo long for me to see

that this has been just a heightened dream;

that you shouldn’t take your whole life

to click awake on a gone Paradise;

that there’s something Oedipal going on

that I have tried and failed to lick;

that a rose would smell as sweet if it

were called barmy as the army of

the new England cricket captain…

by now I see you and I may never be;

that I may never wear your sucrose garment;

that I must abjure nursing the suffering

of my ideals and get pragmatic; that

a poet is about as welcome on a creative

writing course as a cow in the Dairy

Farm’s Head Office; and yet that it’s all

good and I needn’t renew my taste for

waste ahead of fresh, minty, Colgate

toothpaste. In my dream I dreamed

that we would be the new Adam and

Eve in the prelapsarian garden with

a bag of Names to scatter freely on things.





























THE COLOURS OF THE DAWN AFTER A MIDNIGHT VOYAGE


I see you in the luminescence of the dawn,

when dawn is a salmon ovulating in the sky,

when all night I have walked

in your general direction, and, fatigued,


stopped to make a fire of my poems in a lay-by…

like John Clare, I drift madly to you,

only to find my physical capacities

limited where my dreams are not.


My philosophy is ragged as when Rimbaud

lay down in the Green Inn and let

roads go through his head. My powers

that be are but clouds, floating by


on their sky-blue roads, wearing ripped,

blue genes adorned with peace, love

and anarchy symbols, also DM’s

on their protest march high up above.


Knowing that the dialysis in your pretext

extends beyond the end of the world

I find very comforting, and think

in an alchemical sense about it too


but who am I to hold you prisoner,

like a daisy sellotaped in the back of a note book?

I deem you free as the weed should’ve been,

back when the plan was Amsterdam.






















FORGERY


The mustard has to be English,

in the Grand-dad Special,

there is just one rule:

the mustard has to be English;

and blowing outside in the wild.


My mother’s got a peace lilly

but it might have died,

crossed to the Other Side...

my mother’s got a peace lilly,

waiting in the water in the sink.


We’ll leave it for half an hour,

to consume a drink

in the kitchen sink…

we’ll leave it for half an hour,

then hopefully it will be revived.


I love the fragrance emanating,

I love the silken folds,

the peace it holds.

I love the fragrance emanating

and wish peace everywhere in the world.




























THE SONG




Sooooooooooo in the end the guys want me to rewrite the one about the time we smoked a joint, Dr. Calculator Ptom and I, before the rugby match.









I was playing full-back.








The ball went up high in the air and I was underneath it.









I was underneath it and dropped the ball.







It wasn’t like me at all.







I dropped it because I was still so befuddled from the joint.








The dads on the touchline were tutting, asking who was this inept player.








It was me; and my dad was also there.









He was embarrassed by me that day

because he was captain of rugby at his own school

and in every way the star player of the team.













So the lesson is not to get high before the Game.













Suddenly I remember that God is a game, that the game is based on permutation, that even a game of cards can be a rehearsal for death. That The Lords And The New You Know Who is also a game, a wide, yellow circle with death the pinpoint centre and the circumference closing in. Yet this is not a media-compression experiment dreamed up on LSD under a hot, Californian sun. This is not to say “he who controls the media controls evolution.” This is not about chance collocations churning up evidence through the operation of a game.









I seem to remember we lost the match.








I seem to remember I was dropped from the team.




































A MATHEMATICAL GAME


I imagine you would need a knife

to chop your spring onion into two

then three, standing at the chopping

board of beech, which has known

the chopping of flowers before.

I imagine you standing there chopping.

You – mother of all horticultural things,

might understand that I meant chives,

not spring onion, but am just, how

shall I say it, outside my territory.

Yes I imagine you standing there chopping

chives, much like I chivvy words

into different shapes and orders.

The knife itself would have to be sharp

and precise not lugubrious or soft.

It would shine there in your left hand.

That would be your creative hand;

except the knife a thing of destruction.

Well, I guess they are inextricably linked.

So with post-Eliotious gloom I declare

that death is birth or rather birth death.

On a long enough timeline it is thus.

But what of pretty plants? I sometimes

read the writing on the wall, or the floor,

and remark at a saint’s diary left alone.

The words themselves are not very good,

but it’s the places it gets to that amazes.

And I imagine that the knife blazes!























POTTERING AROUND


I potter round the kitchen, find strawberries,

meringue and cream. It must be mum’s -

her idea of a paradaisical dish. So

I crumble some meringue into a bowl,

find it soft and wet in the middle;

slice some strawberries; pour some cream.

It makes a delicious dessert. I can’t

find the right words to advertise it.


The beef soup or stew left to rot

must also be mum’s. Her values are

organic. Her cooking home-made.

There never was any Bisto in the kitchen.

Her vegetable plot was the plot.

No weed-killer was allowed anywhere near.

She always says there are nutrients

in the soil, melatonin, good for the soul.


She wrote the gardening column

for the local mag, Around The Combe.

I proof read it for her, made it grammatically

correct. The way she writes, you can

tell she was once a rally driver, and

knows hand-brake turns in the car.

Sometimes I locate the perfect judge

within and find its concerns grammatical.


That’s when I am reading philosophy

and turn inward my eye to investigate.

I think the mind separate from the physical

world, because there is no such thing

as mind cancer, and that my position:

Cartesian, in line with the Ontological

Argument. But this has strayed from

flowers, which mum puts in salad.


To decorate and brighten it up I suppose.

There are some after all that are edible.

Some are poisonous though, so you’d

have to know your stuff to be like that.

I guess she’s just an ageing hippy,

and though not as old, I am one too.

I was brought up by hippies to not be a hippy, but

all told, it isn’t such a bad thing to be.







ANALOGUE POEM


The fire in my heart

has not gone out.

There is no smoke

without fire; but

still I seem to be

sitting here, without

you, hoping for the

electricity to come back on.

It’s a grey, wishy-

washy day. It’s

Hamlet weather here in

Whicham Valley. Raindrops

plop in puddles on the drive.

I’ve gone analogue and

am glad the laptop’s

off too. Puddles can

form on the floor of

their own accord. Maybe

our dead dog’s up in

Heaven. Maybe philosophy

is just pasta; or maybe

an abstract prison.

It could be what TS

Eliot means by “garlic

and sapphires in the mud.”

I don’t like Nietzsche

but think energy can cleanse.

It’s still raining outside

and inside mum is drinking

gin, making bacon and

vegetable stew. The Lords

And The New You Know

Who is evil if talking

about it with a pregnant

woman affects her child.

That’s my new philosophy.

I needn’t go there, then,

with Cartesian doubt,

applied to the position

of being scripted witness, with

Kant, with empirical

and a priori knowledge

demarcated, with a paper

aimed at a foreseen

human repository

from the antique future.

So it is that one

door closes and another

opens. So it is a new

chapter begins and

happens to be a better

read than the one before.

With toenails in an apple core.


















































INFANT JAZZ POEM


Sometimes perhaps 

down opening quiet

I am drawn down 

long and alone

and my friend and 

my foe recede 

into deep sleep

sudden and still 

like a dawn behind a 

screaming veil 

where silence

is born and all that's 

loose and tight and 

all that's light is light 

like first morning 

with no night

and wend my way 

so slow to Freedom

and soft Infancy-lunacy 

with harp-sure eyes

so I can live 

the last poet's 

last poem.




























LOST MINIATURE DREAMS


This text is painstakingly transcribed from defaced bank notes. Some of the bank notes are damaged, illegible, others ‘missing.’ Efforts have been made to order the bank notes but were not always successful. No efforts were made to authorial-fingerprint the voice or psychoanalyse the handwriting. The text is not necessarily a critical indictment of embedded liberal capitalism of whom we are liberal, human subjects and where money, formerly neutral means of exchange, is becoming a flying, white, electrical spark passing through borders of osmotic porosity in the dark. Nor is the text necessarily about an imaginary designer drug called Strictly Free that does exactly what it says on the tin, is and makes you “strictly free” to consume. It is but an open-air poem, comprised of torn and bleeding snapshot-fragments that are given artificial insemination. Inherent in it is a notion that money is an Ode to Death, that a fiver is cheese and onion flavour, that work sets you free.










Sullen, silken sulks,

we drink the same rain,

spit is clean

and so is dirt.










Necklace noose,

reckless truce,

drooling before


wet, electric eyes










My name is David Bonky,

I’m a knock-kneed hummingbird,

there’s a tear up my jacket.


(1998)















I’m the only one left,

left to shoot my own gun,

this is the dead land,

crack a smile and curse the sun.















There is joy in things

and smiles not grins like butter

but like butterflies.


















Waves


[squiggle]


crossed the FTSE


[squiggle]


and the Helter-Skelter


[squiggle]


crashed in the electric-sea…
















Blessed may be the end at last,

under the sea,

below the soul,

in the upside-down

Oceans above us


(all that heaven sends is rain.)





















Down

down

down

down

down

deep

blue

below

eh, up

mate,”

says my

mate

and is

it safe

to say

hello?















To plug my senses in the mains

might engage !00% of my brains,

but it’s gone wrong at the plug,

just a dream on a drug.
















I felt a leaf,

I fell out of life,

probably no-one else knew.


















A trance of stalks walks on stilts

like a stance on talks only to the toilet

then back to bed to rest its head

under the soft, Pink Panther blanket.


















She blows a poisonous magic

searched the corridor for a

crash had no survivors in Soviet

be weed

























Il faut que je m’en aille.

Sometimes you’ve just

got to hit the road and

















Colour circles red. How many circles?

Colour triangles blue. How many squares?

Colour oblongs orange. How many triangles?


















Leaves that played on the surface of the water,

these are the leaves they have in Heaven,

these are the leaves of love.


















Signed by everwell,

she couldn’t hit it sideways

or maybe a soothsaying Spiderman

with the hairgel of Dracula,

Atlantis, Aquarius, the 60’s.














Is there anything I can do to help?

Looks like I’m on washing up duty.

It’s fine I don’t mind washing up.

It won’t take long then I’ll be free.”




















£34. 84 at the Take-away joint

can get you quite bloated,

not just quench’d and sated;

and by now I sit here wondering

just how much it cost.
















My fingers have crashed,

my fingers have crashed

and my mad, crashed

fingers have connected.
















A thesis as thin as the Rizla it’s in

can lead all the way to the loony bin,

can make you forget how to spell

Winnie the Pooh at the gates of Hell.

















The day is a dream’s balcony around mellow me.

I remember when banks let pens go free.

Art gets to its feet like a cartoon Bambi.


























Love has gone veggie for reasons of Disney!

The future is no longer what it used to be!

I still crave a greedy DogMuckels when

the plush seat gets a hard-on at the end.


















When Paul was talking of “McTruth”

I noticed a swarm of flies in the house.

Nobody else could even see them but me.












My mother calls the pills I pop “poetry

buttons” in motley conglomerations

like pool balls or songcells and

their names should not appear in poems.


















Caroline is the last yellow crayon.

This could be the door to telepathy.

My granny and grand-dad were in the R. A. F.
















Under a blanket in the back of a car -

I think of it now I’ve got this far.

Alone in the solipsistic kitchen

whom it would seem is un-war-ful.















Walking slowly down to the Irish Sea

to see if my place in life is lowly

a dying animal goes much faster.

















In the picture of the airport

I can see… a runway,

two planes, a cloud,

a control tower

and the ire ii net.

















Hot July brings cooling showers,

straw berries and gilly flowers,

miles away from paper powers.






















He found himself on a plane.

He found himself on a.

He found himself on.

He found himself.

He found.

P.















If dog = pi times MC squared

it is because you wish to think him round

while O is the key of water shared

when rolling round on the ground.

















O for a Muse of fire that descends

from the brightest Heaven of invention;

Rintrah roars and shakes his icy fires

into the burdened air, breathing.














One night, Jim Morrison pointed up

at the night sky on LSD and said “look!

It’s the infinite cocks fucking the infinite cunts!”





















Barnes’s goal against Brazil,

it was was not born under a hill,

it is the best goal I’ve seen still,

Barnes’s goal against Brazil.

























If the windows were washed – every one -

we’d see nothing through them ‘cept

the white mirrors reaffirming the quiet

interior of this solipsistic kitchen of fiction.


















Bart Simpson’s yellow zigzag hair apostrophe d

@ Van Goghian black border sun

heard James Joyce would just use |||| 4

ROYGBIV in Fibonacci sequence barcode smile















I’ve been writing about bifters.


Hello my name is Pirripa.


[sound of sucking in of smoke.)


That’s my boyfriend.”


















Now we are gathered to appoint the Gods,

now we are gathered to consecrate ourselves,

now we are gathered to ordain this dust,

we are gathered to live and to dream.

















If you believe it, it is there,

naked under nearer stars,

softly swashing, backwashing music,

music in a room with no door.






















A

A Yellow

A Yellow Pages

May dawn behead me

A Yellow Pages will suffice

A Yellow Pages will

Farewell my life

A Yellow

A

















I. T. might stand for Instant Travel too,

NHS for Lucy in the Soul w/ Demons,

H20 for hypothalamus tattoo,

ESA for extra sensory allowance

but I for one still don’t really know

if Lucy even happens to be an actual substance.




















I remember happy, sunny days,

days when we scored some weed and went

out in the meadows, when Paul

would turn to me and say

wear an emotional condom

before you fuck my mind, man.”

















Wouldn’t it be pollen

if Barnes has scored a chicken

and spring is a red horse?


















Enough is the hope the heart

literally needs in order for it to survive

without which it can stop, meaning

Duff, which is H suspended in deafness















I cannot tell if sipping sugarless tea

or stretching honesty is the more easy

an encryption for the future that

ain’t what it used to be but I still

await the future with rapt uncertainty

and cannot stand the suspense.


















We are the velvet e’s,

we’re shitting in Cuntington’s letterbox,

the Roman Rd below,

beneath us as we fly.


[enter bass organ of ‘The End’]


















Butter is good when you’re a nutter,

but I can think of something that’s better,

so had better write her a letter.













Opened unto the gloom under

sliver moon I slide her over.

Semen spills like silver water.

We’re soon enough in the flotsam ether.












Forlorn as fallen autumn leaves,

is the wave that misbehaves,

goes out taking E at raves,

and soon enough no more believes.















One thing I learned I shouldn’t say too soon,

underneath this new moon,

but might instead just impart,

it is because I have a heart.













What actually happened was, I ended up robbing a bank, with a banana smuggled under a tea cloth and a balaclava on my head and face…there was a get-away car outside, and we went far and to a separate country too. We started to loan the money out and thus made money off it which meant we had plenty with which to use for a blank canvas. We had to be concise, when writing our contract on the money. The police were onto us, so what we did was wait until we had disseminated our message, and earned more money off the loaning of it than we stole in the first place, and quietly stormed into the bank with a banana openly protruding from a balaclava in my hand, and h-a-n-d-e-d the money – and the extra too – back to the bank. The police then let us off the crime and we went home, knowing our nodes were encrypted.











Of all the work I had achieved, be it before or after my mental illness, I still think of the binaural earphone album and the defaced bank note text as being among the best. I think if you remain on the left it’s alright but only when it’s phoney, for defacing actual bank notes is against the law. I think if you have to read Homer in order to be a philosopher everyone should get that opportunity should they choose and probably for free too. I think that is my philosophy and even more so, yours.

















































































































II


THE NIGHT THE BAT GOT BACK FROM THE CURFEW


















































FOREWORD


I think looking back to days when my pants and top and leather jacket were often black I had a happy knack with musical concepts in my youth – for instance one was to do with Nirvana…


Sullen, silken sulks,

we drink the same rain,

spit is clean

and so is dirt.


Another was when I came into possession of a Pearl Jam ‘VS’ cassette tape that was cut in the reel. After a delicate operation to reseal the reel it had a small pause in the music, so the ideal was to do away with the small pause, by methods which included rhythmically chanting the mantra “another, another, another f**king joint.”


My mnemonic for the strings became Even A Dick Gets Big Erections. With friends I recorded a little album on binaural earphones, said on the record I would “plug my senses in the mains.” At Warwick University, I wrote a paper about whether or not Lucy in the soul w/ demons happens to be an actual substance but it got lost, maybe in the void!


My first mobile started to reverberate the rhythm of ‘William Tell’ through every technological inlet in the room before it rang from home. The air, the telly, the stereo, the laptop, would all start bleeping the monochrome and drone version of ‘William Tell’ then you’d hear my phone go in my pocket. There was also a movement to tattoo someone’s name on Piper At The Gates of Dawn, and finally the one that takes the biscuit is when I discovered my brother’s sheet where pictures grew.


The pictures it would seem do depict the lyric to a song I wrote back when I was trying to be Kurt Cobain in Oedipus Wrecks - but still it wasn’t mine because I didn’t lay it down. Anyhow that pretty much sums up what I was doing with my musical youth - and now here I sit ( ) striving not for effect but still struggling to just talk.


After garage and house comes library. Voices could be quavers, could be onjects, could be syllabubbles, could be sonic machinations at the periphery of sound and most importantly the colours of the vowels. They ask you to increase your threshold of Negative Capability. Meanwhile there’s something I think I know and shouldn’t impart but it’s because I have a heart; and writing a letter Dear Music could be instructive in mental health in the future; and putting Paradise Lost to music shouldn’t be done unless it’s going to be amazing, so it’s an aesthetic not moral question.


I also remember, when Aphex Twin’s new double album came out around the Millennium, it was comparable to Stravinsky’s The Rite of Spring. I failed to make an essay of that moment, while my brother-poet Dedalus was writing of how Autechre is the heir to Wagner in the use of rhythm.


Sometimes, I look back and consider the road of rock n roll cliché as leading only to badness, madness and sadness. I hear the voice of my father saying “it’s alright if you’re especially musically talented but with you it’s just a vapid fashion statement suitable only for the rebellion of youth.” Well, I would say the music world is largely a wankered planetarium of ego – but then again at other times only picking up a guitar and playing a song seems to survive the shipwreck of the soul because songs are Portable.


Music is not just shaken air; it is also penetration of is-ness. It renews sensation’s quest. Meaning in music is solipsistic: it is faces in the fire or Hamlet’s three creatures in a cloud-change. The bands I have been in amount to five, like the Glastonburies I have been to, and the number of Lucies it takes to be clinically insane. The first album I wrote was The Road To Heaven by Noj And The Mob but it was only a family album done by young kids singing of the dog going round and round chasing his own tail and recorded on a ghetto blaster. Then at 15 or 16 Oedipus Wrecks formed and gigged in London and foreshadowed doom. Moving schools I then formed Secret Chord H with the best drummer of his generation Zach Lait. It wasn’t until my Gap Year though that I formed the Flood and we started to properly record, on earphones as I say.


By now I am in Black Hole Myths – an art therapy/ outsider art two-piece with Grant Aspinall. I am past 40 and genuinely don’t know off the top of my head if it’s 42 or 43 because of the way things have gone. This book contains only the recorded material that is available to listen to online. It doesn’t include instrumentals from the various albums – like putting in a note on a musical piece – but only the lyrics. It proceeds through the recorded albums with a chapter for each album.









































CHAPTER ONE: THE FLOOD


Music went from black and white to colour for me when in my Gap year in Cambridge I formed The Flood who only recorded on binaural earphones. My brothers both assure me that the earphones were my idea to invent in a very prophetic speech I made in the barn in Cumbria before I ever set foot in Cambridge; but I did not implement the idea. I went down south and someone else implemented the idea. In around 2000, maybe 2001, we started to record on the earphones. You can hear it to this day as a play-list on Soundcloud. There are only six songs, and only two with a long enough lyric to warrant inclusion in a songbook but I would say it is a fine piece of work. We noticed that even the background static and feedback from an amp, when recorded on the earphones, as in ‘Voodoo Echo,’ makes a tone-poem in a neo-Classical sense.


The overall picture is more of a dark CD, dark in the sense of dark matter. I, who said I would plug my senses in the mains on the album, still hear the dark CD when I put on the dishwasher and the waves are accentuated into words! It can crop up all over the place! The actual play-list itself contains instrumentals such as ‘The Blasts’ and ‘F Sharp Minor’ that I am very pleased to have been a part of. ‘The Blasts’ is a math-rock number which I wrote when living in the shed in the band commune towards the end of my stay. ‘F Sharp Minor’ came together one night previously when we were at Agent G’s house and he h-a-n-d-e-d me a guitar in F sharp minor de-tunings. I think the idea is that when you detune the strings all the way down the streetname for E becomes “F sharp minor.” The guitar part I came up with in that one I would say was as good as the psychedelic guitar solo in the long version of ‘Light My Fire’ by The Doors.


We all met when Paul and I were busking in my Gap Year. Mark Velarde, a fellow musician and Beatnik was walking past with Tom and they stopped and asked for a song. I was singing one that went: “I confess my open heart/ is lying with her legs apart.” They invited Paul and I for a beer then we went back to their student digs, for they were at Anglia Polytechnic (APU). That was the start of the scene for me. When in time to come I was kicked out of Paul’s house by his mum, I moved in with the Anglia Polytechnic students, and was sofa-surfing. That was when The Flood formed with Paul and myself, with Niki who also attended Paul’s school and lived in the area, with Tom from APU and Steve too.


I took the name for the band from a quote from Rimbaud’s Les Illuminations, the first line: “when the idea of the flood had subsided, the rabbit, in among the flowers, said a prayer to the rainbow through the spider’s web.” There’s also the Biblical event, serotonin disinhibition, proximity to the Pink Floyd, and the fact that there was a literal flood at the foot of the oldest fell where my parents’ house is, where water seeped in from the overflowing beck in the back and turned my dad’s vinyl into an archipelago. When we woke that morning the dog was marooned in his basket and the vinyl scattered all over the floor!


I remember sleeping on sofas a lot, in those nomadic days, the extended Gap Year, not eating very well, deeming pot more important than possessions – and how much I loved my friend Paul who was on bass. If you listen to the Playlist on rhythm guitarist Tom Woodhall’s Soundcloud page you find one song called ‘Mantra of a Madman’ where Paul and I are singing major harmonies: I inverted the Great “I Can, I Am” from Venice Beach, 1967 into the mantra “I am, I can,” because things had to be back to front for the earphones. You also find that my Floyd was very Freud.


When Paul and Niki went off to Leeds University and when I went to my own University, Warwick, in 2002, we would all still reconvene in the holidays in Cambridge. Mark Velarde, at some point, dropped out of APU and formed his own band with Jez. When I left Warwick with no degree I went back to live in Cambridge and that was the time of the school – a time when the youth artists commandeered an old, abandoned Primary School due to be torn down as a venue, a reading room, a rehearsal studio, a gallery, and a home. Some said it was like Warhol’s Factory. We loved it. I played an acoustic gig there one night, and the Flood also supported Mark’s band on another occasion.


So there was a period where I lived in the shed in the garden of The Flood’s commune (nicer than you’d have thought) and only down the road the School was going on. This was a time of road trips as well, for I seem to remember we were practising for Berlin. For our band or some of us and Mark’s band Tea With The Behemoth both went to Europe towards the end of the School. We went to Brussels, Paris, Berlin and then at some point The Flood came back via Amsterdam. I was eventually kicked out of the Flood and came home to the north to attend University a second time but still took holidays down there for a while.


I did after I left The Flood continue to have bright ideas for the earphones: one was to incorporate the theme tune from Withnail And I into a jam; another to put words lamenting the cricket being sold to Sky to the tune of ‘Greensleeves’; another was to put words to ‘The Firebird’ by Stravinsky, which seems to be “containment” of Grieg. When I came home circa 2003 or 2004 from Cambridge, where I’d been living in the shed in the commune towards the end, I wrote a poem starting:


The train of my thought is the 19. 30,

in one ear and out the other.


I later found out Syd Barrett himself, when he was going through his mental breakdown at the end of his time in the Pink Floyd, drew a picture of a face with a train going in one ear and out the other. During my time in the Flood in his hometown, he was rumoured to have been seen walking round with a fish strapped to his head. There was a lamp-post called “Reality Check Point,” where one night I spoke to some strangers about the possibility of injecting smack into the Universal Mind through the agency of snowfall.


Our little 6-song album wasn’t supposed to ape or mimic the Floyd: it was nearer the opulent light sabre fizz of Nirvana. Still it was said that in the song ‘F Sharp Minor’ we got the cat from Piper At The Gates of Dawn just right. That means ‘Lucifer Sam’ – that we got the slinky feel of it right on the guitar. The binaural album is best to listen to when high and up loud too. As I say there are only really two lyrics which are as follows...



















THE WARNING


Going to meet with the Otherness,

best go get a party dress,

play a stone, live in the wilderness,

I'm going to beat with the Otherness.


Suddenly their brain is an alien visitation,

suddenly I am the imposter againe,

lying in secret wait of myself,

knife ready to treat the pain.”










































HUNGER


I e I e I e have I e I e I e have

I e I e I e have I have Hunger

I'm a sick magnet I e I e I e I'm in want

maybe all I need is a new pair of shades

I'm a craving slave for you

your pleasure's dust your pleasure's just

your pleasure's just your suffering's bait

it's a sucker's fate for you

escape escape escape escape

your home your clothes and all you know

leave no footprint in the snow it's just a photo

escape escape escape your name

your stain your skin your dead routine

for the pristine dream for her

I'm going to get your freshness back

plug my senses in the mains

it's just a bloodrush to my brains

I'm going to get pretty much f***ed up

flee this world on a midnight plane

dance with the aliens and the insane.































CHAPTER TWO: THE FIRST SOLO ALBUM


Well, when I was kicked out of the Flood I returned to University, my local in the north, Lancaster; and when I had got my First Class Honours degree I got together with a fine musician called Grant Aspinall who helped me make a solo album. I don’t know what to say when it comes to Grant. At the moment I have a solo album he recorded for me on Soundcloud under the name John F B Tucker but there’s also an album of spoken word pieces called ‘Eternal Full Moon’ by Black Hole Myths (which is our band name as a duo) that has been recorded but which isn’t yet online. On the former there are a handful of interesting lyrics; on the latter I only contributed one lyric, a spoken word narrative, while playing guitar, and narrating Grant’s spoken word pieces. So I’m going to give you the lyrics to the solo album first. The album is called ‘Songs To Record With Earphones’ [Demo 3]. It isn’t actually recorded on earphones but in a more normal studio set up, in a secret location in Disneyland, Paris. Grant was really cool in allowing it to happen – he says things like “it doesn’t matter how old you are unless you’re in a boyband.” Also “you don’t have to be Syd Barrett, anyone can do it.” My mother’s generation, he likes Bob Dylan and the Pink Floyd.






































GROG LADETTE IN G


Baby we create the dawn

behind a veil where silence is born

and dawn conspires with the sea

and everything untrue recedes

and down into sleep with no dreams

and all that’s left is you and me

and all that’s left is you and me


no-one knows how to free you

eeeeeeeeeeexcept for meyou

no one knows how to free you

eeeeeeeeeeexcept for meyou

horserace books in traffic light

colours through the ancient night

in the end it’s all white

in the end it’s alright



































ONTIMEY


If this thing were a woman

I’d be in trouble by now

and if it wasn’t I’d

be in double by now

like a witch she says

take FACE instead of fags

and then I put my

wounds up on bright flags











































READING THE LESSON FROM JOHN IN ETON COLLEGE CHAPEL


Once upon a time there was an acid-rainbow

that struggled from a black hole and smashed through a window

of a big cathedral and landed on a page

and rearranged the sermon the vicar was enraged


O but then he found it bore a strange notation

and it was so profound he needed medication

and then the paper bread turned to acid which was nice

and everyone was singing music from a black hole by Jesus Christ


all the congregation gave their neighbours a nudge

and asked if every good boy still deserveth fudge

the wine it came in buckets through the back of the song

and even the vicar too, he started to sing along


3484, 3484, what do you need one of those for?


I was at the beach I threw a stone to the sea

to rearrange the day and the deity

no-one was beside me except the pretty dog

oozing and exuding uncomplicated love


voices from the city they were heard between the waves

like lost souls trapped in the cracks between the paves

then I saw the mystery of the single shoe

and knew that it was time to drop a line to you


you were off your face on something by this stage

said there’d been an accident and were hiding in the cage

and Barnes has scored a chicken and blanes is a liquid knife

and wingers are allowed bikes in the afterlife


3484, 3484, what do you need one of those for?


















IN A FIELD KNEE-DEEP IN GRASS


Lovers and tools are breaking their own rules in the game

mad children play unaware of the guilt and the shame

pirates are looting the world and riding the breeze

angels and thieves are kissing at the tips of the trees


and I’m in bed against you

wouldn’t bet against you

I’m in bed against you

shouldn’t bet against you


if all that I’ve loved is a bunch of telly snow

still you can’t take away the afterglow

Science says don’t touch your dreaming gland

it’s all Thumper to you VS Edward Scissorhands


and I’m in bed against you

I wouldn’t bet against you -

I’m in bed against you

shouldn’t bet against you


and I’m in bed against you

I wouldn’t bet against you

I’m in bed against you

and b equals d



[Note: this song seems to be concerned in part with a tape of Pearl Jam ‘VS’ that has a pause where cut and stuck together in the reel.]























CHAPTER THREE: THE NEW DA VINCI CIRCLE


Well, the next phase of recordings is the most recent, when Dr. Robert urged me to purchase Ableton Live and gave me some equipment, a Soundcard and a compressor. He gave me a crash course in recording which took half an hour and left me to record. A few weeks later I had recorded much of my back catalogue and that was then structured according to my brother James’s design of the new da Vinci circle.


James (because he’s a genius) designed the new da Vinci circle as a discrete system containing the international language alphabet in 4 points of difference, namely



@




<BEE> [long squiggle]




Infinity Symbol



which not only suggests <BEE> might soon ensue from @ in the international language alphabet but by including a long squiggle might even simultaneously situate itself outside of the totalitarian machination of every word, book, sentence, paragraph, letter in every order which a new super-computer can organise.


James had also made another sheet to the <BEE> one that contained Badly Drawn Boy lyrics slightly imperfectly quoted and rendered as an anti-clockwise spiral that looks like a word-sunflower, a sunflower made of words –



sunshine inside of you

old sun warm sun

spreads over you

soliel all over you…



So I turned up to the barn where they were both left to rot; and I read them; and on the second-made document (the <BEE> one) saw a tabular arrangement of signs in boxes! There was no new da Vinci circle! I assumed the tabular arrangement of signs in boxes – which seemed like the international language alphabet laid bare – to be permanently available to sensory perception, and left it alone.


A further visit to the barn proved that it had gone – on that particular sheet, only the <BEE> diagram remained. Then when our father passed, a further visit to the den in the barn was when I discovered the Badly Drawn Boy sheet had bloomed or grown pictures – pictures that seem to depict the lyric to one of my old songs! This came at the end of a long chain of events that increased in numinosity according to the number of items in the series.


James says to design the sheet where pictures grew took a deft left hand born of another deft left hand (meaning my mum) and I can believe it. So eventually I structured four solo albums according to the new da Vinci circle.


The material was well-written but the recordings are not that great: they are all an unchanging processed beat overlaid with a couple of guitars and a vocal, leaving a big, bass-shaped hole. I would say they are quite poor but at the same time they are part of the new da Vinci circle, and even have things like the sheet where pictures grew for a cover. So between book, record and photograph there is a kind of un-categorisable machine going on where the songs are as much scans or even scones as songs! So I am going to give you the lyrics to those four albums, album by album.











































CHAPTER FOUR: ‘THE NEW BEAT’


What is the cover of The New Beat? It’s a picture of me looking good at Glastonbury at 16 with Dr. Calculator Ptom. Dr. Calculator Ptom actually named my second band Oedipus Wrecks, from way before The Flood, and we were quite good – some of our songs have been infiltrated into the circle. It’s the same with Secret Chord H who came after Oedipus Wrecks and only really had one or two songs: the material has been infiltrated into the new da Vinci circle. A Secret Chord H number is the first song as a matter of fact. It’s just a shame that the renditions are not good and the songs not meant for the tron set up. A tron would be a point of intersection between technology and art or a post-poetic experiment with a psycho-technological edge. ‘Dream With Open Eyes’ is a good song but with an unchanging processed beat for a backing and no bass it suffers a bit. I think this first in the cycle, The New Beat, is supposed to showcase me as a new Syd Barrett character and to be fair I have had issues with drugs. The production, orchestration, depth and arrangement is nowhere near Piper standard but I think the songwriting itself okay.







































DREAM WITH OPEN EYES


(by Secret Chord H originally and used as radio jingle circa 1999)


Last night it seemed we couldn't

sleep but maybe I was dreaming.

The world expands inside my

hands it's getting heavy.


Of all the treasures I could

choose I can't seem to decide.

Today the shade was washed

away where I would hide.


Dream with open eyes, come

below and we can fantasise.

Now that I’ve stopped telling lies, come

below and we can fantasise.


Last night it seemed we nearly

died but maybe I was dreaming.

It made me feel sooooooooooooo

alive and soooooooo in love.


Dream with open eyes, come

below and we can fantasise.

Now that I’ve stopped telling lies, come

below and we can fantasise.

























CHOCOLATE DOG


MY DOG HAS GOT NO BRAIN,

MY DOG IS A TOTAL PAIN,

HE'S GOT THREE EYES

AND A BIG FAT NOSE

AND GETS HIMSELF TANGLED

WITH THE GARDEN HOSE,

HE ONCE TOOK A PILL

THAT MADE HIM ILL

AND EVER SINCE THEN

HE'S BEEN STANDING VERY STILL


(aged 8)







































BAD DAY AT THE OFFICE


Such a bad day at the office

down the pub to get pissed

though I can't afford it

we'll never get a pay rise


stay up till sunrise

call in sick in the morning

spend the whole day mourning

underneath the covers


where the fuck is Batman

Sugar Candy Mountain

waiting for some action

heard it brings good fortune


papers want a scandal

tell them the truth

if you can handle

what a fucking headline


where in Hell is Tinkerbell

somewhere alone and dying

dawn calls in sick in the morning

what's the use in trying


don't believe in dying

it's shocking and appalling

it's four o'clock in the morning

and Paradise is boring.






















CHIEF OF THE BLACKBIRD SPIES


Well I fell up a sycamore tree

and nearly spilled my glass of wine,

and though nobody came for me

I didn't mind it I felt fine,


for I was trading stories

w/ the chief of the black bird spies

amongst new leaves and old branches

that don't know how to tell lies...


He said to forget the job,

sack the boss, and hang the cage

which containeth all your rage

for but the minimum wage.


I said it's easy for you

in your neighbouring Otherness -

be Nature custodial or frightening? -

to avoid the mad enemy Stress.


He said he finds it fun-loving

to tense-hop all around

for cataclysm is catalyst for the cat

that sat on the map of sound.


Quite soon he spread his wings

until his wings were spread

and flew to Morrisons supermarket

for a tamed and manner'd head.


He’d said he thinks privation

is the mother of imagery,

and inconsiderate violation

at the root of the creation of beauty.


We’d bemoaned a lost society

w/ all its malaise and cheap talk,

its word-ways no better than

cheep cheep squawk squawk.


We’d spoken in no uncertain terms

and out in the great outdoors

where Mother Nature operates

according to her natural laws.


When he left it grew quite quiet

for he was a tremendous talker

and had a way with words

and had said I would go far…


when I left his sycamore tree

I was glad to see my own home

and return to my own kind

near the beach that’s good to roam


but I remembered that black bird

and his eloquent influence

performing from the end of a branch

in ways that just made sense.












































SYMMETRY LIPS


Symmetry lips   symmetry lips

kiss me quicks  need a fix

make me feel  natural and real

cuts heal  with a plastic seal

I’ve been in your heart  and danced in hot rain

I've been in your heart  and danced in hot rain

now consciousness  is everywhere

now consciousness  is sentient air

the sky falls  apart into place

I crave to sleep  behind your face

everything in its  proper place

live where the sky  and the river freely give

live where the sky  and the river freely give






































AIR RAID SHELTER


(originally recorded on binaural earphones in The Flood but not used for their record)


Air raid shelter, we're in it together,

let's not get entrenched too deeply,

fear and pain's our only motivation,

got to break free from that habit apathy.


Clinging to loveless, sweaty, rubber limbs

won't cure your heart, it's a painful art,

air-raid shelter, we're in it together now,

wrap me away in your wombs and duvets.


See this world from outer space minor,

saaaaaaaaafe distances have found

all our solid, common ground,

echo grammanon habeo amore.


Won't your spaceships come to find me,

pull myself right back to the centre,

attack on all sides, hold you soooooo tight

now that there is noooooo time.


I’m just trying to forget how to smell acid,

and still it seems acid isn’t flaccid,

but I think that you’ll find I still

got there in the end somehow.

























THE NEW BEAT


Door the case / fluff the line / feel the last / dull the white / hone the drift / dawn the most / deaf the ear / grope the bread / fee the seat / blue the ticket / dream the lemon / boat the weed / I watched myself today in postures of raw decay because there was nothing else to do / mine the brick / dwarf the vote / peace the bull / D the random / renew the two / widen the road / steal the wings / gate the lane / mean the scene / send the head / rend the Hell / roll the ball / I watched myself today in postures of raw decay because there was nothing else to do / visual radio was on in the car and bike and train and bus and lorry and van / visual radio was on in the boat and tractor and plane and train and truck


(C/ Em/ G/ F/ G/ C)









































LUCY IN THE SOUL WITH DEMONS


(warning: contains voices)


I no longer know if Lucy in the soul with demons

even happens to be an actual substance


but I know that acid can alter personality

and when home-made and strong be very scary.


Do not flinch at your own shadow when

you take its dark receipt into the glen


for panic in a wild stallion horse’s eye

can spread like wild-fire across the madding sky


where a digital wind of blue and green

blows in fake and chemical as glycerine


and the derangement of the senses can go

hang its head in shame, dear Master neo-Rimbaud.
































PRIVATE DETECTIVES AND SECRET SPIES


I sleep in a hole for the Hoover tonight

there's always something not quite right

look at a wall it's not too hard to see

all the cracks and flaws beneath the paint

maybe all we need is to decorate the place

private detectives and secret spies

seem to have uncovered all of my lies,

scar sand-birthmarks beneath my skin,

should I sever my face with razor blades

to show you some ugly truth w/in

well maybe I should but I'd prefer to

score your flawless body with sin

like two new humans made for life

with default buttons to wipe any slate clean

and one of them man and one of them wife

in Crufts as it is in the black angel’s death song



































A SMALL ADVERT FOR FREE SEX


My name is David Bonky,

I'm a knock-kneed hummingbird,

there's a tear up my jacket

and I heard a different word:


Trans/ philo/ quis/ ation.

I fly through colours and shapes.

Lightspeed is my passport.

The countries are for apes.


A knock-kneed hummingbird

table on which to land and read

does not seem to me to be

such an unreasonable need.


I'll breakfast on snooker colours,

spark a dullard cigarette,

sail the wind of change and

have no room for regret.


I deem it quite Romantic

to go do the monkey bars 

with my legs into her open

chamber underneath the stars. 


I think love is both the all-

seeing eye and love is blind.

So wear an emotional condom

before you fuck my mind.


For that’s what language is,

the emotional condom of

the world into which we’re

all thrown in search of love.


Soon I must fly on, from

this gnarled treefinger perch,

and heal the glitch in the soul,

and join the Giant Search.


I don’t know what we’re

searching for but it’ll find us first.

Maybe just some peace and

quiet to slake the eternal thirst.


(reconstructed)





THE POWER-BALLAD OF MARTIN VICIOUS


[warning: contains voices]


I can see death and see flippers

coming out of his senses and say

come closer you f***ing terrorist,

come closer you f***ing terrorist,

come closer you f***ing terrorist.”

It's because I live a life of all time leisure,

all drugs pure and the radiance just right.

I might be wrong but then I might.

Score some dodgy crack and die

here alone with nobody for a name.

I can be Proust and fathom ten

or eleven types of ambiguity and

rue them all cantankerously,

rue them all cantankerously,

rue them all cantankerously.

It's because I live a dream of my still

working, all love pure and trust in the night.

I might be wrong but then I might.

Score some dodgy crack and die

here alone with nobody for a name.





























OCEANS SMILE


(originally Oedipus Wrecks)


Oceans smile with liquid eyes

and fill themselves with rain.

The tide goes out and leaves me

lost, the last thing a glass gene.

Follow me to the resurrection

while the blind get crucified.

My weapon’s only loaded in my eyes.


Death will come on silky wings

but I for one will not go.  

A soul is endless, oceans open

and keeeeeeeps a perfect O.

Follow me to the resurrection

while the blind get crucified.

My weapon’s only loaded in my eyes.


Go drink the ocean with your tea

cup, give your heart far out.

If oceans smile with liquid eyes

then they'll give you a shout.

Follow me to the resurrection

while the blind get crucified.

My weapon’s only loaded in my eyes.


Too drunkenly I sail the water

on Rimbaud’s smoking boat.

With whiskygills primed in fire

I sail the waves to Boot.

Follow me to the resurrection

while the blind get crucified.

My weapon’s only loaded in my eyes.


(reconstructed via the new, synchronised word)
















CHAPTER FIVE: ‘SONGS IN G’


This second album in the new da Vinci circle contains only songs in G. It’s not that good, but you have to see the new da Vinci circle as one of the quirks of the net – an un-categorisable machine that includes music, picture and literature.


The cover of ‘Songs in G’ is the melted tape. The tape that had a pause where cut and resealed in the reel was a successful fusion and one of my favourite musical concepts. When it was successfully fused I put it in the oven for a writing experiment. So already the cover is a work of art. Then you’ve got the numbers and two of them are co-authored by my brother James. In fact the one for Flora is “James’s song.” I believe he actually knew her sloppy, angel kiss. She would’ve been the mating queen from the green pages in the flesh in my teenage love poetry, and was – but I never got the girl on that front. I did get other girls but not Flora. That’s why he got to do ‘Flower-press Love Poem Music’. When I say he got to do it, it seemed like I was writing the song, with the guitar in my hand, laying down lyrics, but the music came from James for that one and originally the lyrics were an American guy on live streaming – but I rewrote them.


The song ‘I Knew That She Loved Me,’ meanwhile, was initially written as a poem when I was at Flora’s school (Oundle) and only 16. It lately was put to music to gorgeous, Irish effect and I feel it one of my best numbers.

































BONECHINA


Where has all my washing gone?

Maybe it has gone to Heaven!

Mirrors on the street rebound.

Everyone is happy and free.


My dream-meet experiment tended there.

Not the local DogMuckels.

All walks of life were gathered and one.

To wake from the dream is to die.


That’s when you put on your socks.

Unless they’ve gone into the sock void.

Don’t mind me I’m paranoid.

I’ve got some bizarre ideas.


If a clock is only as fast as a cheetah

I. T. might stand for Instant Travel

but I’ll pad downstairs and drink a cup

only at my own slow speed.
































FLOWER-PRESS LOVE POEM MUSIC


If a flower-press ending on cannabis 

could seem to equal a dialysis 

then a love poem hoping to impress Flora 

could seem to equal more a motor 


but giving up weed in order to be free

I can’t see how this really matters to me

and if it’s a system I just love you still

and love has not gone under the green hill


if all the noise in the world would be quiet

I’d hide in the cupboard during the riot

if systems rule with fear not love

I’d half it and laugh it with an imperfect dove


here I am at the foot of Sea Ness

this anagram of boredom is in a mess

I’m all set up for a walk on the beach

to watch the waves rolling out of my reach


I trust my family and I trust my friends

I hope my dog’s life never quite ends

the kitchen is clean because I cleaned it myself

my father’s philosophy is up on the shelf


if all the greed in the world would go away

I’d still be Bede at the end of the day

if power is wrong at least it’s transient

a birthday came and a birthday went


and this is the me we all want to see

and this is the way I know to be free

and this is the Now that is in Eternity

and this is the leaf that came to the tree


if the wording of this little contract is mine

alas you are not but I’m still feeling fine

I’ve seen the stars that are out tonight

I’ve tried to forget exactly what colour is white


I’m drifting to E on the end of a stick

I’m searching my memory but it’s just a block

if only I could hold you in my arms

I’ve fallen for all your loquacious charms


(co-authored with my brother James P D Tucker)





ICARUS UNBOUND


(a finger-picker in the drone of G)


I really love you my friend Mark,

don’t get me wrong I am not gay,

it’s just a way for me to start,

it’s just something to say…


placing bets on raindrops running

down the opaque window pane,

I have been a melting robot,

then they said I was insane...


there you are across the water,

living on the Isle of Man,

if only my attention-span could

be more like Peter Pan...


you’re the one who taught me de-tunings,

stairs down to The Velvet Underground,

I am the one in love with Flora,

and that fertile map of sound...


you say it’s got too late to make it,

I hear you crawl through new air,

but I was never one to fake it,

I for one don’t really care...


in your room was a very high ceiling

and I remember it was bright,

I can almost taste the loving feeling,

even though now it is Night...


you could not tell if the vocal

in Aphex Twin was a demon

so made us listen to Nick Drake when

on another easy comedown...


lines are blurred in drug-slurred idiom,

lyrical streaks now open up.

I’m thinking of youth which has now flown

but I’ve still got a little plastic cup.










THE FIRE-DANCE


The fire-dance dwelled in electric drums

where ecstasy fell soft fathoms to clap

and bells let peace form in blue notes

and peered at deer in the wood and ate of it

and wet let excellence sound out its criticism

and dawn let sting its unsheathed sting

and chloroform in the heart let see

if only Game Over was seen in nights.











































THE GREEN BLUES 


I read through the news, 

hats off to your blues,

a chimney falls under my head.


I stomach the wood 

that tastes very good, 

better than Jesus’s bread.


I glow for the coal, 

don't bury your soul, 

backwards in spire I get high.


I'd go for the house 

that's quiet as a mouse 

and emblazon my name in the sky.


I'd slip through the skin 

of a thesis as thin 

as the Rizla it's in and be born.


I'd light it and write it,

I’d burn and unlearn,

I’d even hairdress the dawn.


I'd sip on White Russians, 

on white and South African, 

and dance to 360 vision.


To take out my eyes and

see in all directions at once

is but one general direction.




















SONG OF THE NEON DAWN


X-ray specs don’t lead to sex

and mobile phones don’t have gay undertones

and television is a big decision

and the internet can’t just forget


and laser beams are born in dreams

and digital clocks don’t come in flocks

and Ableton Live is my nine to five

and the latest App is an angel’s lap


and I sing for Kate whose always late

and I write the Night until it’s white

and my vertigo lives down below

and my neon dawn will be reborn


and we’ll renew the morning dew

and Google our senses out there like a tide

and dream of love aloft on wings

and try and forget the nights we cried


and the alphabet is the suicide note

of Nelly the Elephant if you deem it true

and love’s gone veggie over Disney again

and the grass is green and the sky is blue


and E is a bet with the myriad mind

and I’ve seen so much I’ve gone blind

and a poem’s a seat where you sit and eat

and a driverless car has gone quite far


and a use for dust is a beautiful bust

and the wheel of a bike is a map of the Lakes

and a rugby match is quite a catch

and an abandoned band is written in the sand


and a red skin cell is a state of Hell

and sadness seems the mother of dreams

but maybe that’s the other way round

and a flower grows just for your nose












BIRTHDAY OF I. A.


You’re not a knock-kneed hummingbird, / you’re not a birthday of I. A, / and who you are I’ll never know now, / and if I did I’d never say… / I am your med-banging elephantine, / and I cry on the windows of trains, / and maybe all I need’s a length of, / need’s a length of metal chain… / and through it all I wish you rainbows, / made for two and very strange, / and somehow what’s most familiar, / is what really can estrange you, / rearrange and slowly derange you, / oh yes it most definitely can. / So don’t run in the corridor / or you’ll sin in the eyes of Santa / as he watches on.













































TELEPATHIC ELEPHANT


Another, another, another fucking joint.

Another, another, another fucking joint.

Another, another, another fucking joint.

Another, another, another fucking joint.

Another, another, another fucking joint.

Another, another, another fucking joint.

Another, another, another fucking joint.

Another, another, another fucking joint.

Another, another, another fucking joint.



[Note: this song which was originally a Secret Chord H B-side concerns a cassette tape with a pause in the opening number where the reel is cut and re-sealed]






































THE SWITCH THROWN


Blessed may be the end at last

under the sea

below the soul

in the upside-down

Oceans above us


(all that heaven sends is rain)


and blessed is the rain that heaven sends

it is the life for the gilly flowers

some might say

it even falls up

and you’re going to have to think againe


for a clock’s only as fast

as a wounded cheetah

who knows how to

get drunk on cold Wifebeater

but gets drunk instead

on the rhythm and metre


O love thanks

for coming round,

O love cherish

your map of sound,

O love I dreamt that

we were drowned


I made such a mess it’s wasn’t cool

but at least I didn’t

give it away

that music is

the sacred pool

or whatever else I had to say


it’s half past four but then again

the Night is young

the switch is thrown

whatever could

the poor boy mean

he means his heart is yours to own


(N. B. co-authored with my bro Mr. James P D)








SAD HYPOCHONDRIAC


I know she's only a phone call away...

maybe she's got something to say?

Anyway by now her number's probably changed...

seems even numbers can't just stay the same.


You always used to say to me

to love someone truly is to set them free” -

you always knew better than me

you always knew better than me.


I know she's only a daydream away -

transient rainbow not made to stay -

only made of sunlight and tears! -

beauty like that should last for years.  


You always used to say to me

to love someone truly is to set them free” -

you always knew better than me

you always knew better than me.


I’m just a sad hypochondriac.

Just another shooting rock star in love with the black.

Don’t want to die of a sudden art attack.

I’m just a sad hypochondriac.


I'm just a sad hypochondriac.

I'm just a sad hypochondriac.

I'm just sorry for everything I lack.

I’m just a sad hypochondriac.






















WE COULD BE SO HAPPY


(played at a gig on a rooftop in London, the last gig by The Flood)


Serotonin dopamine

no Codeine or Diazepam

I got ruin'd you got wrecked

let's just say yes to each other’s plans

we could be so ha ha ha happy

we could be so ha ha ha happy

Buproprion and Fluoxetine

a toooooooootal loss of all

language-is-thought-control

it's just some sedative we'll

hide away under snow

I wake up dying for some

junk food to save my hole

when all the money has run out

and our housing contract expires

and the pigs come to track us down

the night will be filled with burning fires

the night will be filled with screeching tyres

the night will be filled with burning lyres

we could be so ha ha ha happy

in the future that ain’t what it used to be

on a drug called Strictly Free

on the loss of the cannabis battery.


























WICKER CHAIR


Baby I can see the tree kneel down

in Nick Drake’s de-tunings before you

maybe it’s just the germs accrued

upon the windowpane maybe it’s true

love what’s love halved in chaos

love’s the answer love victorious

love’s the hope the heart literally

needs in order to survive without which

it can stop and I love to be alive

so I thank you for bringing us together

everybody loves you between us is the weather

this fair day stay a while and play

trouble’s all gone away love is the only way






































CHAPTER SIX: ‘THE WHITE DOOR


This is the album with the sheet where pictures grew as a cover and we’ve dealt with this by using the songs that are most dud, null and flat. Never before has flatness been so aesthetically accurate! It all contributes to the kind of multi-media that the new da Vinci circle attains. When I say the songs on this album aren’t that great, the first one for instance I decided to write and record for a mate while he was in the air on a plane – from start to finish – and send to him before he landed! It’s for the old drummer from The Flood. Naturally the song we mean when we say the sheet where pictures grew depicts a lyric is also contained.












































HEARTBOOK


We’ll never take E on a green,

Glastonbury hillside ever again,

never see Love playing through dark,

aviator Ray-Bans after the rain,

we’ll never be young as we once were

and looking back I know it’s all gone,

the real E’s a she and she is not free,

but we can converse while you’re on a plane


flying over the Atlantic ocean

you message me online full of emotion

to say new material has emerged


I tell you you’ve never done anything

which you need to apologise to me for,

you kept me in food when in Berlin

I spent my last money on a whore,

Everything happened back in the day

and we isolate bits to form a narrative,

everything that is except for work,

and we used to say live and let live


flying over the Atlantic ocean

you message me online the ball still in motion

to say new evidence has emerged


If work sets you free I will never feel

freedom not like I did back in the day,

the day we were young, you and me

playing in the band, whatever we used to play,

and only the songs seem to survive,

the poems don’t seem to want to last,

and I’m trying to learn Ableton Live,

and get your message like a blast from the past


flying over the Atlantic ocean

you text me online w/ a true notion

to say unheard music by us has emerged













TRUE LOVE DOT COM


Dead clock plodding play a different song // we're waiting for some action and some change to come along // been waiting all night at true love dot com // you're only just starting to notice the mushrooms are still too strong // dead pedestrians thinking fumes stay in and get fat in your new chat rooms // we chase the wave forms of the dusky dawn w/ black shadow cat-prints going backwards on the lawn // and I confess my open heart is lying w/ her legs apart // and if she said she's in love w/ me I wouldn't go taking it personally // for love has no ego as everybody knows  and something inside me she's given me grows // and a playground swing on the vexed edge of life sighs empty and forever and out falls a leaf // and not into love does that green leaf fall where wet Westerly winds swoop and call // we are the glitter on the Christmas trees and not the litter in the filibustering breeze // and the E comedown has no value in maths // and the loonies all walk on the wrong paths // and the grass is green on the Other Side // it pulls the ropes of the evening tide.








































THE SUPERSTRING GUITAR


Cool white is the highnote if it's up to me,

cascading down to the deep blue sea -


will blue trousers over the trouser blues

fall down on the Excellent News?


Music penetrates is-ness,

renovates sensation's quest.


Out in the desert the pigeon-stars

ripe w/ new creatures won't bring out the Tsars.


Water splits but the desert's dry.

Stonemouth silence chewing gums by.


Why the high note seems to be white

is the sideways gravity in the smile of night.


The Super String Guitar was electric and was smashed.

Transcendence is the dream of anything squashed.


You're going to get a dog w/ a laser brain.”

L to the pregnant snorkel = mc squared.


Impairing the wild pear tree to tears.

Impairing the wild pear tree to pears.


Flutter in the sideways gravity of the smile of light.

Phew for a minute there you lost the screen.


E = L to the pregnant snorkel.

E = L to the pregnant snorkel.


L to the pregnant snorkel = mc squared.

Flutter in the sideways gravity of the smile of light.
















BAXTER


I love my dog

he’s barking mad

when he wants to smile

he wags his tail

his uncomplicated love

is healing for the soul

he has seventy words

like the book with smell

I wonder what the others are

maybe later I’ll know

mashed potato and stew

and a Pizza Hut

and the waves of the sea

go round and round

swim in mystery

but do not drown

ice cream is nice

on Freedom’s shore

so is sugar and spice

and more and many more

and so it came to pass

that I sat in a room

with the dog by my side

and the music on

and I’ve got the dog blues

yeah I’ve got the dog blues

which only means

I’ve nothing to lose

and the stream of life

flows on and on

and a cup of tea

awaits in the kitchen

and the dream of love

has not quite died

and I feel assured

deep down inside

because I love my dog

he loves me too

what more do I need

don’t need to sniff glue

to feel all high

when I have fresh air

and the Emperor has

abdicated againe

and a nice long sleep

will reunite me

with planet earth

at the end of the day

what more can I say


FAREWELL TO THE SEER OF SEA NESS


Farewell to the seer of Sea Ness -

see you later when the future is less.

What will you do about your trance?

Will you send a postcard from France?

I hope that you have a lot of fun…

I hope that you may find someone -

and the scenery streams by the train

and the world is small beneath the plane


Farewell to the seer of Sea Ness -

see you in the future when the past is less.

Will the future there be quite cold?

Will you feel sad and feel old?

I hope that your dreams all come true.

I hope that there’s hope for you too -

and the dreams stream beside the car -

and you make it Westwards quite far.


Farewell to the seer of Sea Ness -

see you in the light we might bless.

Will the visual radio still swirl?

Will you still blame it on the girl?

I hope that your heart will beat on…

I hope that your hope’s not all gone -

and the freedom you find is the best,

and the beauty you dream is a quest.


Farewell to the seer of Sea Ness -

see you in the middle released from the stress.

Will the sound of silence be heard?

Will they hide the mystic bird?

I hope that your love arrows down.

I hope that you don’t hit the brown -

and the light will puncture you

and the good life will still be true.
















THE GHOSTS LAMENT (THE GUZZLER MEN)


[originally Oedipus Wrecks]


I'm the only one left, left to shoot my

own gun. This is the dead land. Crack a smile

and curse the sun. Death awaits to fuck me.

Give me bliss and give me kisses. Death a-

waits to save me. The ghosts lament, the ghosts

lament. Come on baaaaaaaaaby, you know it's e-

asy, don't say maaaaaaaaaybe, let's go crazy. Death

awaits to fuck me. Give me bliss and give

me kisses. Death awaits the same me. The

ghosts lament, the ghosts lament, no more ghosts.


||||.


[Note: when years later I discovered the James P D Tucker sheet where pictures grew, and the pictures seemed to depict the lyric to one of my old songs, this is the song.]


































THAT BLACK NATURAL E


[spoken word narrative for B minor]


Where once I wandered far and wide 

on a field-file, a file-field, 

a fenceless farm without 

security alarm where all hearts bleed

and all arts breed, now Hell

is very quiet, unadvertised.


McBreastmilk, 

McBreastmilk, 

don’t feed your kids.


Gentle face erasing cream,

smear it in and let it sink

down through the pores of your skin

to erase your deepest down dirt.


O stars the government

that truly speaks for us!


Get an extra kid for free

when you spend 99p.


Freefall 0800 down

your own black hole pupils.


Maybelline you maybe only make-believe

you may be the true mating queen of the hive,

may mad vampires stalk you,

stalking walls walk through

your vagrant dreams.


I see state of head

is more than Head of State.


Monster Munch can

always gobble up your food.


Cancerel can always 

sweeten the stewed-

carfume coffee we sip in 

this liminal afterlounge.


It’s getting cramped

as a tin of beans in here.


In emergency please 

break glass and exit.


Credits at the end of innocence

are falling like numberless lists

of fallen autumn leaves.


Snatched handfuls of light

come to nothing in the dark room.


There must be a use for 

this dust amounting.


There’s nothing like digging 

a meaningless hole as if to cure the 

spiralling lethargy of Hell...


and when I went into the 

woods to bury my soul, 

all the trees knelt down.


O perpetual orgasm of the sun! 


Privation is the mother of imagery.


Prayers, ghosts and 

e-mails chatter on 

the ego-loss breeze.


The chitchat in the solipsistic

kitchen of fiction is 'phatic'.


My new, motley fridge magnet

letters contain no question 

mark in the pack but the first

qualification of Modernism

is enquiry and furthermore

wilful ignorance is a sin.


Meanwhile outside the 

fallen Autumn leaves 

are where bears have 

dipped their feet in pots of paint 

and danced across the threshold 

of the paving stones.


Water clears its throat from the tap.


Gunpowder was only invented

for fireworks and a firework

is a champion sperm nosing up

blind to explode bright and wonderful

deep-sea creatures in the Ancient Night.


The world is a cool, bejewell'd

marble snug in Holy Orbit

suckling on a mother sun.


Supposedly there is soon

to be New Atlantis on the moon.


The cure for cancer 

sustains your heart.


Robbed by a bastard vending machine,

somewhere a tramp drinks paint-stripper 

to cleanse the doors of perception,

a drunkard attacks a wall

on an otherwise empty street,

a policeman forces himself

to come with a gun.


Hey salesman 

slow down 

with that

fast-food. 


I don't mind

waiting here

for a year. 


(2002)


























WAVETABLE IN C


I remember when my mnemonic for the guitar strings was Even A Dick Gets Big Erections… now I don’t need one, I’ve heard a better one from a fellow autist, high-functioning autist – Even A – no – er - Every Acid Dealer Gets Busted Eventually. At the moment I’m on James’s red electric. I remember when he got it for Christmas and I got an acoustic, a Fender, an expensive one, and I wanted to be Kurt Cobain so I was annoyed that I got an acoustic not an electric. I was upset and offended my parents. And now here I am playing on James’s red electric. As I say my mnemonic used to be Even A Dick Gets Big Erections, but this one’s in C. I’ll leave it up to you to work out what that means. Your guess is as good as mine. It could be for countryside. It could be for court case. It could be for caliphate. It could be for civilisation. It could be for completion of the soul.










































NO DEATH ONLY CHANGE


Don’t be afraid/ there is no death only change/ let’s pretend, let’s pretend/ there is no end of play/ tonight, tonight/ I only believe in tonight / so for once/ throw your cares and travel with me/ travel with me/ travel with me/ travel with me/ I for one/ have long gone/ out the door and far away/ down south/ mouth to mouth/ to exhume a brighter day/ live for this/ chance at bliss/ this kiss that wants to form/ on the air/ everywhere/ as the fungus sun beats down/ on the nervous under-town/ planes are the shoes of clowns/ yeah yeah yeah /













































THE POSTMODERN ID


I’m thinking about the old days,

how the hippies are not ageless as the sun rays,

I’m thinking about the ideals of 60’s,

and though I don’t believe in pixies


the effect of global warming on the unicorn

succeeded Piper At The Gates of Dawn,

the summer rain falls with as many hands,

as there are names for new rock bands...


I’m thinking about the imminent future,

there has to be a place still for Nature,

thinking about the state of poetry,

the young light has dawned on me...


the effect of global warming on the unicorn

succeeded Piper At The Gates of Dawn,

the summer rain falls with as many hands,

as there are names for new rock bands.


I’m trying just to think about the present,

and how my life could be so pleasant,

don’t want to be distracted in daydreams,

by a woman as lovely as the sunbeams...


the effect of global warming on the unicorn

succeeded Piper At The Gates of Dawn,

the summer rain falls with as many hands,

as there are names for new rock bands.


I’m thinking about the doors of perception,

how literature is beautiful deception,

you might find the bedroom is hidden,

you might find the dawn is unbidden...


the effect of global warming on the unicorn

succeeded Piper At The Gates of Dawn,

the summer rain falls with as many hands,

as there are names for new rock bands

so try to pass the gravy over

Facebook now and be free.


Don’t know what a Dorian Mode is,

but I know who Toad of Toad Hall is,

and the lady in my life is all missing,

and the music’s only meant for kissing.





DOWN IN THE PATCH WORK QUILT BELOW


I like the light and the flight of arrows

I also love the sound of running water 

Down in the patch-work quilt below 

Where the river of sadness used to flow


It’s easy to trip up on a daisy 

Lazy of us to let it get this way 

Down in the patch-work quilt below

Where mad children splash and play 


Art gets to its feet like a cartoon Bambi 

She might go veggie for reasons of Disney

Down in the patchwork quilt below 

Where the ego-loss breeze can freely blow 


Heading down to the sea can free you 

No-one knows how to free you but meyou 

Down in the patch-work quilt below

Where we’ll inevitably have to flow


[N. B. co-authored with a little help from my brother Dr. Robert L G Tucker]






























WALKING THE BEAT


(impromptu spoken word piece)


Women can be very beautiful

they can be sharp-elbowed too

they think when we discern their beauty

we are being blinded by love

love is a banana custard to them

man’s highest emotion to me

but single is my jingle these days

I sleep on a single mattress

if I ever do sleep that is

the dog’ll be beside me

he’s a symbol of gravity

and humour and katabasis

it’s been a while since I’ve been in love

and what lovely dresses they can wear in summer

ones with floral patterns on

that come all undone -

it’s winter right now

winter has her compensations

I’m sitting in a coffee-cake dining room

there’s a Christmas tree

adorned with baubles and bright white lights

I suppose they should come down

it’s the 2nd of January

Bertrand Russell’s History of

Western Philosophy is on the table

some chocolate from Finland

some baccy some papers

some of my mother’s driftwood art

Quality Streets which my dad

used to call Quantity Streets

and what else I don’t know

a toothbrush that hasn’t been opened yet

















CHAPTER SEVEN: ‘THE ALARM CLOCK’


This final album in the new da Vinci circle has myself sitting in a room with the numinous, purple-bleeding PC screen for a cover. While my dad was dying my screen just bloomed this numinous, purple light. Its colour was co-aligned with mystery, sex, suadade, longing and shame thus to incorporate every vowel-sound into a feeling. I am holding a guitar, my brother James’s red guitar though Dr. Bob took the photo that forms the cover of the album. The album contains one of my best lyrical pieces – ‘Skunkfoot’ – that reads like a manifesto from my New Beat youth. Indeed there are those from my New Beat youth who would only have kept ‘That Black Natural E’ from the previous album and ‘Skunkfoot’ from this one. I like to think though that the <BEE> thing should contain more information, that it could be about packets of information. It could even be seen as a movie! This then is the final of the four in its cycle. Since the original which is now being remastered, I have had the idea to add a new song on the end, but it’s only an instrumental (‘Black Flake of Infinity’) so you won’t notice unless I tell you.







































A POINT FIVE


I was going to pack it with content… a clock is only as fast as a cheetah. I said that at seven. I got to the end and realised I hadn’t pressed the right buttons on Ableton. You have to press the right buttons in life. That’s more like it. Previously on this program oceans smile with liquid eyes and fill themselves with rain. Also I. T. might stand for Instant Travel too. Lucy in the soul w/ demons might happen to be an actual substance. And if a flower-press ending on cannabis could = a dialysis, a love poem hoping to impress Flora could = more a motor. That was it. Then I realised – see I was trying to put Jimi’s amp guitar on the vocal and it was full of feedback, squealing like an electric donkey. Then I realised the vocal hadn’t gone down at all. I’d pressed the wrong buttons. I am hoping I pressed the right buttons this time. You have to press the right buttons. And now we’re going to have a typing solo. I’m noticing the space bar is like the snare drum. I type with two middle fingers you know, like William Carlos Williams.”








































TEST MONKEY IN B


We’re aliens looking for life on Mars

aliens trying to make life in jars

aliens homesick for the stars

trying to find home in the all-night bars

in a world with no more la di da’s

the sunset silts its knickers and bras

the night is bright with white guitars

the fat cats smoke their fat cigars

the wall inside is still the Tsar’s

I watch the passing of the cars

I’m through with reading inveterate scars

in a room resounding with loud hurrahs







































SKUNKFOOT


(spoken word narrative to go over a drone of E)


Portability still seems the Apotheosis of Form: sometimes I can be walking along on a sunny day when I jump from the jungle to the Arctic to the Sahara. Mutation in consciousness itself, truth too simple to understand, these are gesture-without-motion-bones, like sadness gene and dreaming gland. It's not impossible to write an anti-poem. Love is not a mechanistic set of rules. Love was once aligned with madness, fever and intoxication. Love became grouped with language not God. Love became a tough word-combination. Love has no ego as everyone knows, and so it goes and so it grows. I for one think Lucy in the soul with demons may happen to be an actual substance. Travelling south, as I read Rimbaud, a rainbow smashed a railway train window. A baby cannot trip without memories... I remember “every atom ate our eyes.” Our eyes: they are ingrown in the ocean's bellyful of wine, down in the seabed-orchard. There is angelic music inborn in the inner ear; but those whom the Gods wish to drive mad are sent the end of ‘Bike’ in their heads and madness is not something to be Romanticised as a return to Purity. Impunity seems more what the poet wants. He likes to float on the artifice of organic emotions through synthetic sounds, and is into exploring alternative histories suppressed by the overarching meta-narrative. For plastic surgery of the soul there are libraries. Poetry is the bike riding itself. Monopoly money will get us well, Monopoly money will get us bread, she picks the blue tac off the wall and says “my T-shirt is red”. I put my wounds up on bright flags; I take the angel up the arse. To plug my senses in the mains might engage [!00 %] of my brains. It’s all about a permanent reactivation of the Glastonbury Festival spirit. John Tucker is taking acid again. Money shags in the dark. Thoughts of one’s greatness only diminish one’s greatness. Skunkfoot is putrid demons excreted through stone. Love an army of fire. Fire needs some incentive to rise up. Shall I touch my heart with a red Bic biro? When all the air in outer space is consumed… The bed in the wood, it was definitely a whore’s, with solar spike I can use the Force, with R2D2 I cleanse my doors, I’m just trying to win my Star Wars. I’m starting to think in five musical parts at once. The Anon Throwaway as a new form could become an alternative currency to rival with money for the role of the real. Formal education is not for everyone. The yellow DogMuckels M atop the pole in the industrial park is the postmodern churchspire in the spiritual vacuum. Postmodernism is theme dissolved into message. Giant killers are frozen peas in the microwave. I look into the mirror though I shouldn’t pool my sources. I’m not going to die at the age of twenty seven, watch the dreamtapes on repeat from a golden seat in Heaven. The heart beats to the rhythm of one. A fiver is surely cheese and onion flavour. Cataclysm is catalyst for the old cat that sat on the map of sound, just because the world is very round. If there were paper under my heart there would be writing on it and it would be art. I might ding it in compressed Space Age seconds.


(2002 - 2003)














THE WISH OF NIGHT


Madness swirls deep in the heart

A butterfly resides in you

A tragedy of feelings lost

surrenders to the wish of night


& in this world I can't explain

I know exactly where I am

Inside a crevice of desire

In the dreamy air of a lover's scent


Wherever you take me, that's where I'll be

In the weeping skies my mind gives up

& falls into the arms of sleep

I'd fade to know I thought of you


& the world has risen to my hands

& the earth murmurs beneath my feet

& the light of all that's good is true

if believing is the dawn of dreams


I guess that I'm afraid to tread

The purple skies for the risk of a word

But at least I'm sure of fear

As she gives me the strength to feel afraid


A whisper fathomed deep in mine

Well I don't even care to cry

& I don't care to face the edge

& plunge into the oceans dead


& the flame of love has lit my candle

& the sky has echoed my desire

& all the air is drawn into my lungs

& I know the secrets of the shade


& I know the wars that come from peace

& I know the mystery of love

& I know the resilience of the soul

& I'm sure that knowing you is true...












FIZZY POP


I’m a clown, I’m a clown,

a clown in the circus of death.

I had a mate who sent the words

Liquid Crystal Meth”

into space, into space,

and I was underneath it,

shower down, shower down,

make me feel alright.


No-one knows, no-one knows

what I went through in life.

The sadness shows, the sadness shows,

the trouble and the strife,

but under the stars, under the stars

I dream of love eternal,

shower down, shower down,

make me feel alright.


Fizzy pop, fizzy pop,

gets drunk in Monopoly Jail,

time goes slow, ever so slow,

as slow as a garden snail,

but ecstasy is a teddy bear

back in the garden of Eden,

I don’t mind, I don’t mind,

if you let me off my chains.

























INSTANT TRAVEL


[warning: contains voices]


Not far away in Magic Faraway Land,

there’s poetry written on the bank notes,

sadness gene is smitten with dreaming gland,

the God Particle foreseen in the dust motes...


I. T. might stand for Instant Travel too,

NHS for Lucy in the soul with demons,

H20 stands for your hypothalamus tattoo,

ESA for Extra Sensory Allowance -


so how about we take a long holiday there?

You buy yourself a ticket with the opposite of bling.

You’ll see through the frame of angel hair,

and might just need a love-song to sing.


Yeah yeah yeah, our love is the answer,

spinning in a circle around the tired sun,

waiting for the cure or vaccine for cancer,

seeming to be dreaming of the mid-day moon…






























POETRY BUTTONS


Smart guitars between the stars

allow the ladies burn their bras

I don’t ask for whom the beck

puts a necklace on her neck

let us have a go then, you and I

when we are tired of getting high

piss on the dawn when dad is dead

poetry buttons are in my head


poetry buttons for endless revisions

and helpless self-derisions

got to keep the quavers at bay

got to make the monster go away

the monster is not me

he lives beneath the deep blue sea


when all the air in outer space

is consumed without a trace

through a prodigious systematised

detuning of the strings we rise

would you compare me to a tramp

now my face is on a stamp

the poet makes himself a tea

now he’s a mystic visionary


poetry buttons for endless revisions

and helpless self-derisions

got to keep the quavers at bay

got to make the monster go away

the monster is not me

he lives beneath the deep blue sea


voices voices everywhere

and yet not a drop to think

think of England when you’re on

drink of physical hyperlink

all the world is on a page

where we spend our petty wage

engage with the dark night of the soul

that dreams in meaning like a troll


poetry buttons for endless revisions

and helpless self-derisions

got to keep the quavers at bay

got to make the monster go away

the monster is not me

he lives beneath the deep blue sea




TEACHER OF MY HEART


I have found you you're the Teacher

of my Heart there's only one one

and though my mind is endless old

my tender heart is foolish young

and my timeless impassion'd battles

of emotion have sooooon begun.


You have lost me in a Teachers

whisky bottle drinking down down

down the shipwreck IS the treasure

harboured in my pirate undertown

where visions of the real Unknown

await us there when we drown.


They have told me it's a T-shirt

that's the body worn by the soul

O to have to discorporate and wash

our eyes in the Fairy Liquid bowl

it's good for you to know a goal

there is no music from a black hole.































THE STAIRCASE


Once upon a time I was spiked

and thought I could fly

jumped right out of a window

and fell through the sky

somehow managed to land

on my smelly size 12 feet

seven stories below on

the heaving city street


now I tour the public schools

giving talks to forewarn

all the youths about drugs

in the world where they’re born

taking LSD can change

your innate personality

take it from me please never

take the drug they call LSD


Splinter was the master of

the Turtles in the kids cartoon

and now he’s dead and he’s gone

beneath the morning moon

and I’m so sad to hear of that

for loss is painful in the heart

so may we all remember

him in our chosen art


Sitting at the back was a

boy whom I instantly knew

would do everything which

I had pleaded with him not to do

puffing on a cigarette

making all the others laugh

maybe he’ll grow up to be

a kind of talking giraffe


When I fell I broke both legs

and did some damage to my spine

but I can walk if only slowly

and am in my headspace fine

I can still sing but not dance

which I never did much anyway

and I sing about health over

wealth at the dawn of this day







WHISPER


(originally by Black Hole Myths when we were still called Funnelspirals)


I wanted to hear musac from a black

hole by Judas Priest but the guys

sent a parrot after a carrot and

through the conch to outer space

singing 'I won't always be an orange

just because you've sectioned me,

no I won't always be on Orange

just because you've sectioned me

but at any given time I'm working

in a crane' and Jesus said 'Syd by Ray

in a way Spiderman's handwriting

has been too obscene, I rake the

blade over the wishbone of my

legs Breakfast All Day/ gay

teachers can still lay eggs and

I won't always be a lemon just

because you've sectioned me,

no I won't always be on Lennon

just because you've session'd me

but at any given time Oedipus

is spying me up in the shower,

why I'll break the speed of speed,

rendered squander never priceless,

I'll never speed againe, at any given

time I'm a rare aquatic insect.'


(Hackney)






















CHAPTER EIGHT: THE EFFERVESCENT MOBILE PHONE


If James’s <BEE> presents an hypothesis, I have something that presents a Point of Arrival. This refers to that occasion when I made the Nirvana barcode to be but the beat of ‘Scentless Apprentice’ by Nirvana tapped out in approximate barcode shape using the tool of the qwerty keyboard.


I actually did have a mobile phone that buzzed off before it rang, through every technological inlet in the room, telly, stereo, laptop, air. So I wrote that down – that monochromatic drone – somehow - and it became a song that falsified the Nirvana barcode through bastardisations and mishearings of other people’s songs, that nevertheless worked as a piece of music unto itself, sustaining narrative, meaning and musicality all at once. It has been called as good as Rachmaninov and goes as follows...









































CHEESE DREAMS


Di di dit di di dit di di dit dit dit

Di di dit di di dit di di dit dit dit

Di di dit di di dit di di dit dit dit


Bring bring

bring bring


Hello?”


Gold member, you're the one,

the one with the heart of gold


Vowels, pure vowels 

Immanuel Kant

will come to thee 

with immanence


You come home smacked up you come


d/ d/ d/ down

grooving up slowly


d/ d/ d/ down

grooving up slowly


d/ d/ d/ down

grooving up slowly


yeah yeah yeah

yeah yeah yeah

yeah yeah yeah


boom

boom

boom

boom

boom


how did we get down here from flat-top

wide tunnel cities self driving cars

bears in the moon and liquor and drugs

and whisky baaaaaaaaaaaars


boom shanka, you're the one,

the one with the sonic boom


knickers knickers faster than lightning


skin up fall out of bed


and did those feet

in ancient times


rain down, rain down,

come on raindown

and walk the sun


fatter, hippier, less well connected


always walk the hallways

down to create my own

and in the meantime

and in the meantime

I'll do the monkey bars with my legs


manic depression has enraptured my name

don't know what I want but I just want shame

don't know what I want but I just won't shave


rainy waif, rain always,

lay back and dream

on a rainy waif


now I know how Kurt Cobain sang

oh now I know how Kurt Cobain sang

no more laaaaaaaaaa la's


removal van canes will be turned into furniture

we're thinking of putting Tricky's name on the front sir

you never see me dead near an inch of closure


|| | |||| | || | |||| 909 and 693 are wings


and a record made of sound

goes round and round, conveying

music to the speaker through the stylus,”

says the radio as I turn it on.


Well, although there is no

such thing as the Nirvana barcode

it opens up a discussion about

the Telepathic Walkie Talkie, how

if barcode is rain barcode is phone...


and at least I have

the grace to come

back and say that the

extinction of consciousness

has no monetary value.


It is past dawn

and I see that

that first mobile

phone has gone.


(2015)

















































CHAPTER NINE: AGAINST JEALOUSY


Who knows why your phone goes like that when it does? Imagine if it was a present from someone to reward you for helping invent the net at seven. I don’t wish to enter a trance about my condition or blow my own trumpet. I wish to upload the songs of the new da Vinci circle onto Bandcamp as they are structured in this book, but am reliant on my brother fixing my old computer where the recorded material is stored. Even if it isn’t possible to get the albums back online, it’s still the best book I have done; and I can only blame myself for taking them down in a fit of vanity. My bro is actually in the kitchen with me putting tomatoes in a toastie with cheese right now. Some people might be jealous of what he has done, or I, but the whole point is, there is nothing to be jealous of, it’s not a competition. It’s not about better and worse those vain, materialistic, Western concepts. It’s not about Darwinian values. Poetry is the unique expression of the unique individual. If I felt like I was losing some battle, some race, and if I wanted, I could easily go on about some of the things I have done with my life: at 7 I helped invent the net; at 8 took care of The Lords And The New You Know Who twice; at 11 went through an experiment into the maths of the new colour as a cellular mark; at 15 attained the face of stars; at 18 so many things including speaking against September 11th in 2000 and writing an English Literature A-level exam marked at 100%. After school I recorded an album on earphones, hosted the Plough alignment for a rhythm change in the White House, got a First, built the Tower out of magical books as an instrument of philosophy, worked at a numinous purple bleeding screen, had an experiment into a tape with a pause where resealed in the reel, discovered the sheet where pictures grew, falsified the Nirvana barcode, attained visual radio and more. They have given Nobel Prizes for less; but the point is I still don’t know, or, rather, we still don’t know, quite whose the new da Vinci circle albums are. I (largely) wrote the lyrics, melodies and guitar but there is also the structure being James’s to consider. Not just that but there is an influx of voices in my system plus the help of real people involved in my work of late. If the 4 new da Vinci circle albums go back on my Bandcamp page, because I ostensibly wrote and recorded the songs, I would still feel happier this time round calling it by Various Artists. Then we would have a nice machine, an un-categorisable machine, marrying image, word and sound, into the co-imaginative operation of the new da Vinci circle, online, and I think it would advance the cause of the net too. But after all this, something tells me the dead computer where the songs are stored might not be salvageable, is forever dead – and that this might make me wretch. Even if we can’t get the recorded music back, at least I still have a guitar and a voice and can play the songs. The best ones for a solo acoustic set up are ‘I Knew That She Loved Me,’ ‘Dream With Open Eyes,’ ‘Air Raid Shelter,’ ‘Sad Hypochondriac,’ ‘The Ghosts Lament (The Guzzler Men),’ ‘Oceans Smile,’ and a few others too. I am often to be found playing a gig to no-one at the foot of the oldest fell in the night-time, like a black bird performing from the end of a branch. Sometimes staying up at night takes me back to my Gap Year, occupying a haunted, empty warehouse zone of the psyche, trapped in a bad, anti-social, un-natural, vampiric sleep pattern, sliding out of responsibility, growing dangerously detached. I spent the formative years of my life on drugs and all five minute glimpses of what I wanted to do with my life, for example be a scholar, were ruined by drug-taking. I became a failed musician, like Syd Barrett said of himself. Now it is too late to “make it” for at 42 or 43 I am not likely to be the one to bring the people the new music – but I gave it a good go back in the day. My day was a day when CD shops all closed down on the verge of our potentially making it; my time was a testing and troubled time. It’s why I hope to put it right and further the cause of the net with this present experiment. Back in the days of The Flood I would write the bulk of the material and go on missions to get weed but otherwise didn’t pull my weight so it’s nice to fork out some money to include them in the present textual flourish. I like now to stand at the foot of the oldest fell on a summer night when there is still a remnant, fleeting, evocative evanescence as a backdrop to the darkened fell in the foreground; and to stare at that patch of sky until it is brought home to me how weird everything is, how magical and mysterious the universe. I call it the Silken Veil Effect, that remnant light while the fell has darkened; and it makes me think of aliens, the magic of the 1980’s, how life could be a computer program, and as I say I stare at it until it loses meaning, and life becomes detached, naked, and I remember how weird everything is, how magical and mysterious the universe. Now the stars are out – they sleep in the open like Boyscouts. You see them at the ends of the tree-fingers. The tree-fingers point up to the stars, the heavens, the firmament. I only absorb so much then come back to the kitchen. Right now I have two files open – one the present songbook, the other philosophy. It’s hard to know which one to write in. James has said he’s going to try and save my hard-drive tonight. Mum’s irate with me for letting her vegetables burn still. I’m thinking of picking up a guitar and playing ‘Flower-press Love Poem Music,’ to try and cajole my bro into doing his magic with the hard-drive of the dead computer. Ah, there are other songs, but I might say they got away. So I go and say “goodnight” to James and he says “come in” and shows me a device where he’s captured the hard-drive, says it works, sends me away to plug in and get busy. I have teething troubles so seek his help a few more times but am eventually alone in the solipsistic kitchen of fiction uploading the songs, at last, four albums onto Bandcamp. It takes two hours. I have a cup of tea and a Vape pen. The final, finishing touch is to put “Various Artists” for the band name for the new da Vinci circle albums. Then just like that it’s done. My musical career is complete. Now we just have to wait until someone says the song for Flora was the best, and was James’s even though he wrote it through me; then we’ll have to kick in with the promise that Flora’s pretext is best when nearing endlessness so we’ll put all the other countless songs online as well; but I hope not. I believe in the new da Vinci circle as a unit of four. Otherwise it doesn’t feel like we got it done. The reason it’s so good is that the new da Vinci circle bit is about dissecting a bar of light. Light knows no jealousy, and we would do well to copy it. Quite who is in the band ‘Various Artists’ I am not sure for I hear soooooo many voices that I don’t even know the identity of, but I’d say at least my brother and I, and also my mum. So it is that it’s like a document signed by Einstein’s value for light-speed, c. That could be what Professor David Morley means by the prism on the forest floor. He says we come at words aslant as creative writers. The band Various Artists could be just me, but the Flood were a bunch of other guys as well, and Black Hole Myths is a definite duo. I think I am freer behind the mask, a bit like a timeshare salesman, if I do use Various Artists as the band name, and I take it back – it is honest in that I am not the only one. It shows humanity too. So often I am there trying to remember a line and someone else gets in there before me and something that started as mine becomes ours. So we get the ball wide to the wing – it becomes a team effort and drags us into dreams as well, where many texts are stored. Still, I believe the songs I put in to the <BEE> collective if that’s what is happening are good songs. At least some good songs went in from me. I am being a good comrade. I am showing camaraderie. Mum can still smell burnt soup – a flower-press ending on cannabis was her contribution. Also a line or two. “We’re going to be pissed off for weeks about the burnt smell,” she says. She sends me to bed. It’s past 3 AM. The house is silent, the road outside empty of cars. Soon it will be dawn and I will hear the birds chirruping in the trees. They’re mine. Fly left.

















CHAPTER TEN: A RECAP OF THE BEST BITS SO FAR


As requested by James, a recap of my best bits might run as follows…


I enjoyed the way the earphone album starts, with math-rock written in the garden shed; and also that jam in F sharp minor de-tunings, the latter because we got to encrypt a node in musical truth without words.


It was good when on the binaural earphone album I sang:


Going to meet with the Otherness,

best go get a party dress.”


I also enjoyed including background static and feedback from the amp in ‘Voodoo Echo,’ so in other words not-playing. Of course I still think it good when on the earphone album I climbed up and sang:


I’m going to get your freshness back,

plug my senses in the mains.”


There is still even now the temptation to augment The Flood’s stuff on Soundcloud with a new solo acoustic album. For it was said after the “plug my senses in the mains” episode that (1) it was a good riposte to Jim Morrison’s The Lords And The New Creatures where he talks of 360 vision; (2) I should follow up with just myself and an acoustic – but whilst I may do that, there is a reason why The Flood’s work didn’t move seamlessly on, and that is my mental illness. It would be false to get to the end of the new da Vinci circle and go back and retro-impose a continuity to the Flood from this late vantage point in time.


So it is that our nice machine is still ‘on’ and I am not harbouring ill feeling unto those that robbed me, or cursed me, or blamed me, or hypnotised me, or drove me mad, or operated on me in my sleep, or tried to remove a portion from my brain, or persecuted me, or made me walk naked in the capital, or shopped me for the fire-dance, or dressed me to look like Hitler, nor dwelling on that side of things.


Nevertheless if I am to incorporate my brother he will tell you in the Flood I was robbed: that to invent the binaural earphones was my idea; that they tried to remove a portion of my brain; that the rich man who popped up with the earphones was the true thief, who gave the music I wrote away to another, and swanned off with his inherited wealth; that they treated me like the drugged up brother in the Russian Roulette scene in The Deerhunter; that they pretended the spliff was my willy without letting me know; that I was indeed driven nuts by it all whereupon I was kicked out of the band in a state of disrepair and the rich man swanned off with his wealth. That is what my brother would say was the true story of The Flood; and they even had the cheek to call me an evil Nazi! Me whose idea it was to invent the earphones!


When I came home, and embarked on a program of meditation, dreamwork, detox, reading, self-help and exercise, that was when someone had the vision to place me under a curse, or worse hypnotise me. I can’t imagine someone being so vision-flaccid as I call it that they would dream up an idea like that. This is why there is no seamless continuity between the Flood and the solo album made with Grant. That moment, the result of plugging the senses in the mains, the continuation of it, was all, well, in life not art – all in the hallucinations I went through on the road to becoming diagnosed mentally ill. As I say I am not 100% sure of this but I thiiiiiiiiiink to retro-impose an adjunctivity or continuity to The Flood from all the way in this present tense where I’ve already been through the rest of my career would be false.


So it is that we arrived at the solo album Grant recorded for me: I liked making the first track because it’s beautiful and the second track, which is a dark instrumental, and which Jess, of the Cambridge days, listened to online and declared “amazing.” It was also ingenious to get my bank card number into a song as the chorus and I think I was the first person to do that.


Then the new da Vinci circle.


On this, I liked revamping ‘Air Raid Shelter’. This was initially a song by The Flood, recorded on earphones, but left off the album. I got the idea from the air. At the time I was best mates with Paul. I later found out the actual Beatles themselves had their first rehearsal in an actual air raid shelter! So I am partial to that song. I remember one time I played it at Glastonbury stone circle to Agent G and my second brother Dr. Robert and his mates – they all said I should be doing music professionally, going on tour andcetera. I think that was the year I met Thom Yorke in the queue for a burger van, shook his hand and called him a genius. I think that was also the year I walked past Kate Moss and Pete Doherty while I was on LSD.


Finally putting ‘I Knew That She Loved Me’ to music, on Songs In G, was another breakthrough moment for me, and now when I pick up the guitar in boredom and project myself into the role of an imaginary performance, I have an extra song to play. As stated the lyric to that was written when I was but sweet 16 so it’s been knocking around a while.


On the new da Vinci circle albums, I also liked reworking the old Oedipus Wrecks number ‘The Ghosts Lament (The Guzzler Men)’ which is the one we mean when we say the sheet where pictures grew depicted a lyric. For this number, which has substantially changed since Oedipus Wrecks, I overlaid some haunting and ethereal synth with just one guitar and one vocal, removing the beat. It’s one of the strongest numbers I have done.


In the new da Vinci circle series I especially liked the sprechstimme of ‘That Black Natural E’ and also of ‘Skunkfoot’ which both rewrote poetry from my Warwick University undergraduate days. Two of my old cronies from those days which were mainly Cambridge days, Mark and Jez, who were in “the other band,” Tea With The Behemoth, said they would only keep ‘That Black Natural E’ and ‘Skunkfoot’ of all the recent recordings, but then it wouldn’t be enough for the new da Vinci circle to be real.


Likewise, there is still the matter of the solo acoustic album I could add to this but then we’d have overstepped the mark. We’d have done it good and yet be facing the endlessness of it all. That’s why discipline should be upkept in terms of containment of the new da Vinci circle to four albums, however crap they are.


The best thing about the new da Vinci circle series is the sense of sharing, of being at one with my brother, and my mother is also involved too. Some of my better pieces had to be h-a-n-d-e-d down to James, like ‘The Switch Thrown’ for example, but when you’re together, the sense of collaboration is enough to get high off, and is better than the awful loneliness I would otherwise feel.


So it is that I look forward to meeting my friend Grant tomorrow, and maybe having a jam with him, who has just got back from holiday. We play to an audience of my mum and Grant’s wife in the sitting room at the foot of the oldest fell where the stars re-align. One of our favourites is ‘The Man Who Sold The World’ by David Bowie. We also like to detune the guitar all the way and go astray, have an impromptu jam in de-tunings for half an hour, but the women don’t like it as much.


Grant will tell you it’s better to show yourself striving for the light than struggling with the dark. He’ll tell you all sorts. If you have schizo-affective disorder it means when you’re up it’s symptoms of psychosis associated with schizophrenia and if you’re down mood-based symptoms associated with manic depression and bipolarity. Grant will say open a third category and call it spirituality.


James comes down and gets some cereal, cereal. We speak about him and his writing. It’s not ready to read yet but will be one day. I trust he’ll be good. When I tell him there is no sweet cereal left, he says “Special K’s are alright.” In the context of the conversation about the international language alphabet it seems a great comment to make. He takes a bowl upstairs and eats of the Special K.









































CHAPTER ELEVEN: ‘ETERNAL FULL MOON’ BY BLACK HOLE MYTHS


This is a guess that Grant and I will organise the already-recorded album of spoken word pieces according to the running order we have agreed upon over the phone. This means largely me reciting Grant’s poetry over music we’ve put together. It means spoken word, sprechstimme and twelve-bar rap too, with no melodic singing from me at all. There is a difference after all between an album and a collection of songs; and this album as we have agreed upon it is a proper album, made in a studio, with a spoken word theme that binds it together. Grant’s lyrics are great, and he plays drums and sings too, also plays bass and makes videos and paints.


On the album, which is made under his guidance, he plays to what was one of my strengths as a schoolboy – public speaking. I also do the guitar and there’s an instrumental at the end called ‘Seclusion’ which I wrote and played on the piano. That’s if it all goes ahead. It should go ahead because it’s a fine piece of work. Just look at the song where we put Blake to music for example: it could be the best I’ve done. Grant sent me off to put Blake to music so I married a guitar part I knew with ‘The Laughing Song’ from Songs of Innocence And Experience and it was a perfect match. I recited the poem over the top, and Grant put down some gorgeous vocal harmonies and also sang the poem outright too. It’s a fine piece of work.


So the only lyric I contributed is from a bipolar song called ‘Hope’ that works by presenting my angry, distorted, dissonant guitar to start with, over which I read some of Grant’s fine poetry; and then it finds a second moiety comprised of Grant’s harmonious guitar as the piece journeys from tension to resolution. It’s the second half of the song that I contribute the lyric to. I wrote the lyric in Grant’s living room.


I’ve actually been reading about real black holes, but none of it went in. That’s only tonight, a night after a day when Grant came round. We’re still not sure about the album because a lot of the numbers are integrated into his solo work, and merely feature me. It’s a puzzle, when you have free reign on the net, and with self-production, not to repeat things. Stephen Hawking meanwhile said radiation could escape the event horizon of a black hole which seems an upbeat message but none of our songs are about that. The article I read was about whether or not the universe is a hologram, a simulation. “The implications of the holographic theory are murky at best,” claims the article. It was looking at black holes as evidence for or against a holographic universe. Their surface area is 2D but their volume not.


At the present moment there is a 4-song E. P. version called ‘Eternal Full Moon’ by Black Hole Myths on Grant Aspinall’s Bandcamp page – but as I say the other four songs of the eight we agreed upon are also integrated into his solo career, and I think he’s lost his passwords too, so we may never see the full spoken word album as it should be. Nevertheless the songs are all online, on Grant’s Bandcamp page, just integrated into different projects, like ‘Self-Portrait No 357,’ where you find five songs I am “involved in,” some of which might be transferred to ‘Eternal Full Moon.’


The name ‘Eternal Full Moon’ came from Grant, whose vision the album is. I believe he also made a painting called ‘Eternal Full Moon’ to use for the cover – a massive painting on a massive canvas, depicting a rainbow coming from a black hole (as in a song lyric I had written). Grant is a very skilful and accomplished painter who paints largely the portraits of the faces of the pantheon of rock and jazz musicians, with the music on and in mind. There is something synaesthetic going on w/r/t/ his work that I like, and it seems to blend the emotion of Romanticism with the postmodern readymade (the latter in the fact that he often goes from photos). The painting ‘Eternal Full Moon’ appears to be an exemplum of what they call “the Eschatological Imagination” meaning of or relating to the end of the world. Beneath the rainbow that carries strange notation, you see the sea of the apocalypse, and remember that music is made of waves; and in that sea there is an Evian bottle of water floating around, like saying the apocalypse is man-made, made through Man’s greed, and consumerism. The attention to detail on the Evian bottle is nice, because you can even see the crumples in the plastic. The moon is also present in the painting, which sees Grant graduate from the portraits of faces to doing something more abstract. I am happy to have collaborated with him, and hope that the spoken word album still comes together, even if I only did one of the lyrics this time round. As my mum would say it is a good feeling to be able to share, and Grant says this album is as much about me as it is him.














































HOPE


As I lie around, careless of a map of sound,

I love the lie of the land

where quiet gilly flowers

curtsey like ballerinas.

Streaming is vision.

Bees pollinate the garden,

birds pepper the lawn

where you let your flowery

blouse come all undone,

and a ray of light

soaks us all around.

The sky is a blouse of blue

hanging on the line.

Harmony thrums and

the sentient air is everywhere.

I lie back without a care,

sunlight blowing my hair about,

without a grey shade of doubt,

and deem it lazy of us

to let it get this way,

a day of careless play,

a carelessly radiant day,

all my troubles float away.




























CHAPTER TWELVE: ‘UNPLUGGED AT THE FOOT OF SEA NESS’


Have I not done enough already?


And if so what of my solo acoustic album ‘Unplugged At The Foot of Sea Ness?’


I can know where it goes in the book but not where it goes online… there seem to be three options. (1) If I augment the new da Vinci four on Bandcamp I spoil the fact of there being four. (2) If I go for the same Soundcloud page where my solo album that Grant made for me is, it’s not ideal and messes up the chronology. (3) If I go for the other, empty Soundcloud page, that puts it in a loop with The Flood, then I no longer succeeded the Flood with what I did with James.


So it is that I might need to leave it out!


I would say the best place to leave it online of the three options is Bandcamp, and that by not calling it “Various Artists” I am showing people that it’s a different thing.


So there we were only a minute ago with everything in the right place, and now I’ve gone and put Unplugged At The Foot of Sea Ness on the end of the new da Vinci circle four on Bandcamp.


In a way, I think it might be alright if I do that, now that the 4 are “Various Artists,” and this new one is just me and a guitar. As I have stated, after the “plug my senses in the mains” episode in The Flood it was said that I should do an album of just myself and a steal string acoustic guitar and now I have. I feel it is better placed on Bandcamp than in the loop with the Flood stuff on Soundcloud, because if it was in the loop on Soundcloud I wouldn’t have followed up the Flood with <BEE>. This way, at least I got to follow up <BEE> with an actual album, because the ongoing spoken word album with Grant might never materialise.


























THE NEW SNOWMAN


We are the velvet e’s,

we’re shitting in Cuntington’s letterbox,

the valley road below,

beneath us as we fly.

We are the velvet e’s,

we’re shitting in Cuntington’s letterbox,

the valley road below,

beneath us as we fly.

Blissful Lovingness is

where all religions meet.

On the corner of the street.

I am the Burger King,

I can eat anything.

Especially a Double

Whopper with cheese -

and in reality the killer

stayed up all night.


































STAVING OFF THE WASTED YOUTH


Please wait while you are on hold,

your secret world will not be sold,

and while you work out what’s gone on,

we’ll treat you to a song.


A cow has sat upon the throne,

and said to travel by Smartphone,

for all connection should be long,

and the maths you do is not wrong.


Thank you for waiting while I love you,

thank you for searching for the truth,

there’s only one God above you,

w/ medicine for a wasted youth.


You’ve been placed in a long queue,

but everyone’s in love with you,

procrastinate and find your crest,

I think your love is best.


The mashed potato that you ate

could sell for millions in the Tate,

and London renews sensation’s quest,

to put your mind at rest…


Thank you for waiting while I love you,

thank you for searching for the truth,

there’s only one God above you,

w/ medicine for a broken tooth.






















ECSTASIA


Ecstasia, it will find you,

ecstasia will track you down,

wearing your bro’s blue T-shirt,

somewhere in a different town…


a comedown can be difficult,

a comedown can really hurt,

but it’s going to be easier

in your brother’s blue T-shirt.


Love, it will wound you

then forgive you all the same,

and one day death will find you,

and nobody is to blame...


I’m waiting at the foot of Black Combe,

I’m waiting for my true love,

and E has no value in maths

when you come down from a Dove…
































FULHAM F. C.


Fuck you fuck you

we are the best

we are the best

we are the best


Fuck you fuck you

we are the best

we are the fucking best


Fuck you fuck you

we are the best

we are the best

we are the best


Fuck you fuck you

we are the best

we are the fucking best


Fuck you fuck you

we are the best

we are the best

we are the best


Fuck you fuck you

we are the best

we are the fucking best


Fuck you fuck you

we are the best

we are the best

we are the best


Fuck you fuck you

we are the best

we are the fucking best
















FABLE


How much is that druggie in the window,

he’s washing off Steve’s holographic beard,

in the totally powerless shower,

he’s making me feel pretty weird,


blah blah black sheep

have you any wool?

Yes Sir, yes Sir,

ten fucking kilos…


How much is that druggie in the window,

I think he’s gone beyond the pale,

they made him a living art installation,

and he wishes he’d stuck to the ale,


blah blah black sheep

have you any wool?

Yes Sir, yes Sir,

ten fucking kilos…


How much is that druggie in the window,

the vision I had has grown dim,

I can particle accelerate Nothingness,

but I can’t write a poem like Jim,


blah blah black sheep,

have you any wool?

Yes Sir, yes Sir,

ten fucking kilos.






















HEY MAN HEY


Hey man hey what do you

have to say about today?

These new pube-shaving,

lecky-saving times?

The air seems slightly strange

to me in all honesty,

but I’m just a guy

that plays hide and seek with rhymes.

I lost my teddy in the void

when I was paranoid,

now all I am is all I owe...

at least I dared to dream

unlike a mechanoid

of love the likes of

which we still don’t know…


Well scream is bad,

when you go quite mad

and you lose your dad

and the magpie gets down

into your bones…

and you can’t come down

from the under-town

like a decaying clown

and you know the truth

which nobody owns.

So you must obey the dust

in which you trust

and which lies at

the bottom of everything

and bore the Lord

with your secret chord

and your word-hoard

knowing not just what

tomorrow will bring.
















LIQUID MIRROR


The night is alright under the electric light

and I am thinking of you


how we used to love each other

black and blue forever and ever


how I used to watch over you

while you slept and when you wept and

when we leaped and love was fire


now the light comes fair and even

hyperlink to very Heaven


just like it was when love was open

and it is still full of hoping

full of groping full of dreams


love has not gone stolen pollen

lustful London lips are swollen


and liquid mirrors still run to the sea

where the fish swim without insanity

even though they have fucked eyes


we already went there,

we already did that

sometimes you’re a willing dupe

and sometimes a doormat























PHET ACCOMPLIS


Love, love, good for the brain,

the more you eat them,

the more you go insane.

Love, love, good for the heart,

the more you eat them,

the more you break apart.

They’re dissipating energy

with spiralling entropy,

falsifying vision with

indoctrinated feelings,

colouring perception

with vague mysticism,

you’ve been plugged in

to the mental health system.

Love, love, good for the brain,

the more you eat them,

the more you go insane.

Love, love, good for the heart,

the more you eat them,

the miracle will start.

They’re dissipating energy

with spiralling entropy,

falsifying vision with

indoctrinated feelings,

colouring perception

with vague mysticism,

you’ve been plugged in

to the mental health system.























HIGH, HOW ARE YOU?


Oh high, how are you? I’m high and I’m new.

Oh high, how are you? I’m high, and I’m through.


Here you come with your candle eyes

and your big horizon and your higher skies


here you come with a beautiful smile

I’m going to talk to you for a little while


oh high, how are you? I’m high and I’m new.

Oh high, how are you? I’m high, and I’m through.


Here you are with your hopeful stance

and your lucky star and your backward glance


here you are in the eye of my mind

let’s hope we don’t go completely blind


oh high, how are you? I’m high and I’m new.

Oh high, how are you? I’m high, and I’m through.


There you go, with you angel tear,

and your brand new car getting into gear,


there you go, with your perfect skin,

can’t wait until you come back again


oh high, how are you? I’m high, and I’m new.

Oh high, how are you? I’m high, and I’m through.


[reconstructed]




















SNOWFLAKE SONG


Snowflakes are falling to the ground,

that’s why the door-mouse makes no sound,

I could sing in an imaginary tongue,

but I find Klingon is best for song...

then it’s up to birds to saaaaaaaaaay,

hope you have another blinding day.”


There are no footprints out there yet,

but I might go out and lose a bet.

Sometimes I dream of mapless space,

a little place without X tattooed on its face.

So then it’s up to you to saaaaaaay

hope you have another blinding day…”


snowfall was injecting smack

into the Universal Mind a while back,

and now I’ve nothing left but tea

still I think you’ll find it’s well enough for me...

so now it’s up to me to saaaaaaaaay

hope you have another blinding day.”































I COME FROM THE JUNGLE


I come from the jungle,

I come from the jungle,

I come from the jungle,

I come from the jungle,

I am a giraffe, I am not Bungle,

I come from the jungle,

I come from the jungle,

I come from the jungle,

I come from the jungle,

I come from the jungle,

I come from the jungle,

I am a giraffe, I am not Bungle,

I come from the jungle,

I come from the jungle.





































EVEN A DREAMWOMAN GETS BEAUTIFUL ELECTRICITY


A thesis as thin as the Rizla it’s in

can lead all the way to the loony bin

and make you forget just how to spell

Winnie the Pooh and get unwell...


but even a dreamwoman

gets beautiful electricity -

come with me, come with me.


The way she hugs my myriad mind

I’m flying through colour but colourblind,

I wish to escape the shape of the paper,

I wish to taste the waste of a flower...


for even a dreamwoman

gets beautiful electricity -

come with me, come with me.


Come with me love away from the violence,

I don’t want to take a vow of silence,

don’t want to have to conceal this feeling,

for feelings are not meant for concealing...


and even a dreamwoman

gets beautiful electricity -

come with me, come with me.

























BARNESIE


Barnes’s goal against Brazil

it is the best I have seen still

it was not born under the hill

Barnes’s goal against Brazil


Barnes’s horse got on the course

they said to have more intercourse

so Barnes’s horse flew to the sun

when it got back it was no done


Barnes’s name is not in vain

for I’m the one who gets the blame

inside the flame when the game

has gone insane and is quite lame


Barnes’s nose I don’t suppose

objects to the way her garden grows

and the redolent rose strikes a pose

for the garden hose that no-one knows


Barnes’s wait is just for Kate

whom it would seem is Head of State

went on a date with a mate

and came back home so very late



























CHRYSALIS DAYBED MUSING


If you said to me

I would’ve fancied you

had you not let it be known

that you want to eat my bones


then I’d say back to you

girl I don’t want to eat your bones

but of course all the while

I want to eat your bones


but I’ve not thought it through

for if I’ve eaten your bones

yummy as they may be

then I can’t make love to you


but if I suddenly said

and this is coming from me

I don’t want to eat your bones

it would be the saddest thing


so what I really mean

is you are in my heart

you are in my dreams

where there are no bones


pulchritudinous sylph

you’re the reason to hope

like a primrose in Hell

through whom I would traipse


just to hold you again

in my slender long arms

quench these insatiable

fire alarms


and that’s when we’d kiss

that’s when we’d glow

that’s when we’d shine

that’s when we’d know












HOW TO BREAK THE LIGHT SPEED LAW OF NEUROPLASTICITY


You're The Juggernaut that's what you are

walk like an Egyptian and wriggle your little wing

like a winged chainsaw flying up in the cloud

swoop down and seal my soul and everything


For I'm the witness of this scene

I've read the pages of orange and green

I've got to keep my new yellow T-shirt clean

otherwise I'll offend the mating queen


On Grand-darth's Ship I went off a-sailing

suffice to say your horror-packet is served

and when I get back I think I'll give you a ring

for it's the least that you my demon have deserved


For I'm the witness of this scene

I've read the pages of orange and green

I've got to keep my new yellow T-shirt clean

otherwise I'll offend the mating queen


and when you score such a radical goal

it stays with you in your open, Holy soul

and you get no money and get no headlines too

but you've done what someone's just got to do



























TEAR-JERKING SENTIMENTAL ENDING SCENE


The friends I’ve made

I’d like to keep

and brush their hair when

we get to sleep


I think this illness

is a monster

chill with the stillness

and love yr brother


the severed notebook

went on for ages

with no connection

in all its severed pages


I hate these voices

these infernal voices

I made my choices

they were not James Joyce’s


now I want to stay free

I want to stay me

I stay calm

in all uncertainty


and I want to stay cool

and not be the fool

who was the Smartest

kid in school


O crossroads of

all inward spiral

I hope your smile

does not go viral


the severed notebook

itches with skunkosis

in my back pocket

pre-diagnosis


and I now look back on

youth that’s flown

over the houses

into the unknown


today it’s snowing

there is no knowing

if the creative

juices are flowing


and I want to stay free

and I want to stay me

and I want to stay calm

in all uncertainty


yes I want to stay clear

as a morning beer

now that you know

I’m the ancient seer


and I live for you










































CHAPTER THIRTEEN: CONCLUSION


Without the <BEE> albums my book would be obscurantist and neo-phobic, making me look like a cultural heathen, a remnant, unoriginal hippy lost in the modern, Digital Age; and with the <BEE> albums you might even be forgiven for thinking it is (at least in part) my brother James’s book. It does contain the collaboration of the new da Vinci circle, but it is largely my musical journey that is depicted, in my words and music. Still, the only original idea as such in the whole book appears to be my brother James’s idea: that <BEE> might soon ensue from @ in the international language alphabet. So it’s as if I was, for those four new da Vinci circle albums at least, loaned my brother’s guitar to see what I would do with it. I think it at the moment the best book I have done, proceeding as it does chapter by chapter through the albums I have made that are available to listen to online, which lends the book a sense of order, a sense of organisation that I greatly appreciate. If I had done this and only this I would be happy… one of my old friends, Dr. Calculator Ptom, said of my writing “it should’ve just been one book about the band.” Although I haven’t included much of the material from the band he himself named – Oedipus Wrecks – because it’s not recorded – this would be the book in question, if I had to have done only one. My sister thinks music can be 4D, and prefers song lyrics to the monopolisation of indigenous wisdom in regimented metres. Indeed, my other brother Dr. Robert (who is the truly musical one in the family) says my lyrics are “meant for wiping up semen” and that “art is tending to the Low not High end these days.” So it is that on a sunny morning in Cumbria I feel okay about this venture. I am not claiming to be the new Bob Dylan or John Lennon, though I know someone in the music world that once declared me better than both and the most aloof artist since Nick Drake; I am just setting my lands in order. It is good to sing, masculine even, in the Oral Tradition of the bardic child. I am of the school that says if you belt it out loud enough nobody will care if you can’t really sing. My guitar meanwhile is quite good but they come much better still. I would say the higher you climb in the branches of the tree of academia, researching the maths for the new colour as a cellular mark et al, the more you appreciate music, that universal language, and the less you appreciate academia. Now I would appreciate input from my bro who I think is asleep upstairs, so I can only ad-lib in impromptu fashion while I wait. Now he comes downstairs as if he heard me think! “Thinking?” he asks as he steps in the room; then we speak about the new, glass chopping board I got for mum – that has four bees on it. He asks what I did with the old one, but already I notice that if I try and record everything of our one minute dialogue of only a moment ago, most of it got away! So now he goes back upstairs to his bedroom, and now I think of putting the sausages on, because as James pointed out they go past their sell-by-date soon. Well, we have been called Shaggy and Scoob before, and often talk about food. So I put the sausages in the AGA and realise this book is a correction on a former songbook called Soundcloud Rain that went wrong at some point; for after all Mrs. Zadie Smith says us writers write to correct previous work. Jim Morrison pictured a wall with a scratch on it and said we try to perfect the wall with further scratches. While the sausages sizzle, I reflect on what it means when your work is not your own. One’s work should always be one’s own, not a Communist ego-loss experiment, a poetry hive-mind or an omnijective interface of random access co-imagination. But what when you hear voices? What when you collaborate? What when other people are trying to use you? What when your brother and mother want it to be one pool? What I don’t like, is when I can’t get away from influence. I believe in individual genius, and I believe in my own individual genius too. As I have said I don’t feel like going on about it, but am someone who helped invent the net at 7, took care of The Lords And The New Creatures twice at 8, was marked by an experiment into the maths of the new colour as a cellular mark at 11, attained the face of stars at 15, forewarned of September 11th at 18, in 2000, and also at 18 among other things got 100% in an English Literature A-level examination essay. You also know what I went on to do after leaving school, including recording on earphones, hosting the Plough alignment, getting a renegade First despite mental illness, working at the purple screen, building the Tower, conducting the experiment into the tape with a pause, discovering the sheet where pictures grew and all of it was not for a penny. I think if I was a neutral and someone described someone like that to me I would believe they were one of the main geniuses that had ever lived, and now the sausages are sizzling and I gather the CV is why they had to do <BEE> through me, and so on top of it all, I came out as a fifth rate musician who was completely misguided in going into music. So: that’s why the book is alright: it’s not high and mighty, elitist, exclusive. It’s something any old person can do, and do at least as well as me. It’s egalitarian, it’s Amateur, it’s Hobbyist, it’s D. I. Y. It neglects to turn any situation in my CV to my own personal advantage. So I eat a cooked breakfast and settle on this; and afterwards make mum her morning coffee as I do every day. She wants James to turn the AGA down a bit because it’s so hot; so I go upstairs, see that he’s eaten the full English breakfast I made him, tell him she wants him to turn down the AGA; and he asks why I can’t do it; so supposing it will make no difference if it is me, I turn it down, turning the notch slightly, a CM, clockwise, which might suffice as a whole plot where I am coming from. As my dead dad used to say when he was a kid: “I’ll do it my lone.” So I did it my lone and now here I am, thinking of investing some money into publishing the present text. I rather think it would make me happier. The Flood meanwhile – now that they know it was me that had the idea to invent the binaural earphones – don’t even wish for me to be the “seer” associated with Sea Ness. The locals up here know me as the seer. I was walking past a house once and there were two people in the front garden; and as I walked past, one of them said to the other “that’s the one that’s the seer.” Why The Flood would want to take this away from me as well I have no idea. There were other inventions delimited in the conversation in the barn in 2000 with my brothers. A virtual death machine to wake you up. A word-chord synthesiser at the edge of selection. A drug called “Strictly Free” that does what it says on the tin, is and makes you strictly free to consume. A red-bleeding type-writer inside a ping-pong ball. An holographic horse-cock wheeled in the bedroom. An invisible square of air called ‘Mosaic by Darth Vader’ stroked on telly. A neutraliser drink that sobers you up in one quick instant. The monolith from 2001: A Space Odyssey protruding from the oldest fell at ten to eight. A love-bomb exploding in a Chaos Theatre. Earphones implanted with tiny mics inside them so that you can record on them were in among them. There were also ambitions, loads of them, and prophecies, loads of them too, and aphorisms, as in philosophical points. I think when I mentioned in the Flood song called ‘The Warning’ the line “knife ready to treat the pain,” I wasn’t just being carnivalesque for the sake of earphones but referencing that conversation in the barn as if what it amounted to was that I had designed a pen knife with too many ludicrous tools! I don’t like the way everything I was speaking of came true, and the way I seem to have been the invisible benefactor of culture. I had even spoken of a party in an office block where all the internal walls are removed and every floor represents a decade in music, drugs and fashion. Again a little while after talking of it, I actually attended the thing itself in London. There were several examples including getting the name and classification of my future University tutor’s unpublished paper bang on as an ideal for a book I myself would write. He published it between me speaking of it in the barn and my attending Warwick University two years later. He later conceded yes it was mine, if I was the witness, which I was. The Plough alignment was also one and the God Particle another. Ambitions meanwhile included bringing back the Summer of Love and engendering simultaneous orgasm of Man. I was searching for an aesthetic anti-system like the colours of the vowels in English, looking to replace archaic ‘gay,’ dreaming of conducting an experiment into the international language alphabet, before James made his diagrams. But it’s the uncanny level of prescience that lends me to being the seer. This is why some people think I was raped. I had to attend University as a proven prophet who had foreseen September 11th as a schoolboy and have the staff repeat back to me things I had mentioned in the barn. At the end of it they said if I was on the left I would’ve been paid for what I had done with my life, but I have no allegiance to any known party whatsoever. Some present during my prophetic speeches in 2000 remember that I actually founded a new religion based on the elephant. Some people think to deal with me would require a new Biblical book, as part of the Third Testament, because the face of stars for example was scripted in the Bible. I was even the guy that coined the word “amazeballs” but I’d long since stopped using it by the time it came into fashion. To not have a penny after all this isn’t right, eh? And what is at fault in the system that means I can have no more to give or do or offer or see in the room and yet haven’t earned 1p? This is where I am stuck, because I can’t think of a single governing body in this age that hands out rewards or payment for tasks such as I have achieved. The nearest I can think of is the Nobel Prize but I haven’t deserved one of those for there are others that did more than me when it came to inventing the net; and the mark left by the experiment into the maths of the new colour is private; and the face of stars meanwhile scripted in the Bible. So it is that I find myself – well, a noble servant of the poetry world who carries out amazing tasks for nothing – and I have only just started to entertain that I was raped – and that there was a transmission at the moment the planes hit the Towers as I had foreseen. Come to think of it, if you spoke against September 11th in 2000, in a great, brave speech full of hyper-intelligence, then when the planes still hit the Towers you were indeed raped. I wouldn’t be surprised if the same was also the case for Everything else in the conversation too, because of September 11th. So that is what happened: I evolved, and was raped. Finding out about it at last, coming to terms with it, can not come soon enough. I was talking about gypsy poetry in the English centre, about fire on Tap, about all sorts of amazing things – overthrowing the conscious self-censor – appointing a superhuman narrator called FUCK – and over the next few years would largely hear it all back aimed in my general direction by secondary sources. I was talking about usurping the burning torch of culture. The aphorisms were strong but not worth repeating herein. So it is the day I come to terms with the fact that I was raped. There are those in the poetry business that only want to see things up to a certain age, like 21, cutting the trajectory off before the illness, but then what would happen to the recorded music? Hannah says much of my best material has been written and recorded since then, as does Grant. If we were going by the mental illness rule, we’d only really have the earphone album, plus, arguably, some of the old songs newly recorded if they would be permitted. I have been looking at a previous file since I found out I was raped – a file of early songs and poems mixed – but it doesn’t please me that much. I guess with James’s diagram we find the actualisation and summary of all that Poetic Stuff I was talking about in the barn, and that I must trust others who have said my new songs are quite good, even when the poetry business is baying for me to cut the trajectory decades ago. I guess I had to keep writing to find that moment of self-knowledge: I evolved, and was raped. Smells from tellies, the Age of Enchantment as an echo of the Enlightenment, another immaculate conception now that it’s the year 2000 – you name it, it was in the speech. To start a new religion. Even to make a room made of hash which the audience blow torch as an art installation. I even said my moral hygiene would only endorse real live death in the cinema if it was the euthanasia of some old granny, if she volunteered. There was even something said about the Doors computer game. My philosophy was pacifistic. Then in the middle of it all my bro asked me what I thought of the film Fight Club and I said if it were real someone would fly two planes into the Twin Towers on September 11th and I don’t think it a good idea but someone might. So having spoken against it, and it having still happened, I was therefore raped. So I would like to lighten the mood, but struggle for words, and am thinking of my other brother Dr. Bob and his young family away in Italy. The maths for the new colour as a cellular mark wouldn’t go down very well right now. It’s a good job I kept writing, if it lead me to the truth.















FURTHER LISTENING


To listen to The Flood, visit Tom Woodhall’s page on Soundcloud.


To listen to my first solo album, ‘Songs To Record With Earphones’ [Demo 3], visit John F B Tucker’s Soundcloud page.


To listen to the four albums of the new da Vinci circle, visit John F B Tucker on Bandcamp.


To listen to material by Black Hole Myths and other collaborations, visit Grant Aspinall on Bandcamp.


To listen to ‘Unplugged At The Foot of Sea Ness’ visit John F B Tucker on Bandcamp.








































ABOUT THE AUTHOR


He found himself on a plane.

He found himself on a.

He found himself on.

He found himself.

He found.

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III


FULL


















































TO REDEEM A DREAM OF FREEDOM


Once again it falls on me to be the one to say

that biding my time from here to eternity

to see if the lawn has sprung a flower

watch out for the Honda lawnmower:

for I mow the grass where the Plough aligns.

I try to keep to neat, symmetrical lines.


When the first, fresh, redolent, enervating

scent of change begins its fermenting

on the ego-loss breeze it is my duty

to the Natural World and all her beauty

to mow the grass – a foot high with neglect,

it was today, but owing to my respect


it’s been cut down, mowed over. Well,

I love the smell of petrol more than the smell

of a fresh Christmas tree, and to do

something with my life is also new

reward in itself. It’s not like I get paid -

but it redeems a dream of freedom in my head.


Now when my mother looks out the glass,

she doesn’t have to look at foot-high grass,

but sees her plants in all their little pots,

their little de-institutionalisations and bets,

and the dog rolls around like he’s found

Paradise down there on the ground.


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RANDOM ACCESS CO-IMAGINATION


Simon says The River Goyt

might become the Styx in Heaven.

Will says something about who you

think of touching yourself in the shower.


I say maybe all I need is a length,

need is a length of metal chain.

Dave says it’s rude to repeat

the shift of feet down the corridor.


Raymond says let’s have one more

crumble from your dad’s pollen.

Jesus sits at the right hand

of the Lord God our Father.


Paul asks wear an emotional

condom before you f**k my mind, man.

Mother says imagination is a

muscle and language a creature.


Hal says I know you spoke

against September 11th in 2000.

Mark knows that I said a clock

is only as fast as a cheetah.


Andy says “I know the chords

to this tune by Bob Dylan.”

Dad said Dylan was religion,

to listen to on Sunday when younger.


Mandy says the main attraction

of drug-taking is the connections

you make with other people -

but I for one will just have butter.


Bex says I'm right it's impossible

to remember a new yellow line.

Mother says I must remember

when I go out to shut the door.


Dexter says I was right that

my dad used to smuggle pollen

and that the art smuggling story

was just an elaborate cover.


Mark says something like there

is no virtue beyond fashion -

or was it no vice I cannot

quite remember anymore.


FRAGMENTS TO SCATTER IN THE WIND IN THE COMBE FIELD


For money, you cannot ignore them,

the house-pipes glugging a guilty gulp from

a big, culpable jug of the ug of drug or

smuggle or Ugly Truth Revealed Inside.


*


You wish to make words chime like bells,

reverberating up in the fells and strike

a warm, psychic chord, with a word-hoard

that bores The Lord to cease with the cancer.


*


This time, you hope to note the loose,

Betfair jingle of shingle lifted from

the big, flat bird-table when cars arrive in

Cumpstones drive or if they leave.


*


You intend to twice reference the MacBethian

treeline of windmills, with their Mercedez

Benz sign arms revolving out there

on the vertical wall of the Irish Sea.


*


As a fellwalker you smell a free dream on

the breeze wherever you walk in this

bucolic spot, encouraged by the grizzly

drone of the tractor in the background.


*


You love the fresh, redolent, enervating

scent of change fermenting on the ego-loss breeze,

the ferment of music in your head,

the tidal roar of wind in the trees.


*


The edge of The National Park is only

demarcated by traffic lights, on the

bridge over the trout-brown Duddon,

decorated with appropriate faces for the waiting.


*


How the Plough alignment, holy cow,

that goes by the name of “white eyebrow,”

has only worked for a rhythm change in

the White House in my whole lifetime, I do not know.


*


If literature from the city is of alienation

and born from rootedness, it's just repetitive,

the city's the intellectual breeding ground,

and rural life is closer to how we ought live.


*


It's but a myth that countryfolk are dim

just because the rhythm of life is slower,

and that there are tunnels lined with free beer

dispensers, torches and fruit machines in the fell.


*


You reckon the artistic centre of the universe

is ubiquitous, the same ideas available

everywhere on Tap, and a religion can not

be transplanted from its indigenous landscape.


*


The Enlightenment is still the simultaneous

astrological and sociological de-centering

of Man and the White House its child

in terms of both philosophy and build.


*


A bullet to the top of the telegraph pole

standing in the Combe field before the fell  

will only wed you to the mating queen in dreams

and the pole itself is already Robert Lowell.


*


My brother and I mow the grass here

for nothing, for mother, and we share

the workload, dividing the front and back

and it takes a day, still excluding up the beck.


*


Mrs. Bloggins’ Goldfish Has Just Died!

That is the shocking truth revealed inside,

a burlesque newsprint headline, sending

up the parochialism of the same old situation.


*


The Tower is a mad childishing, containing

the fume of the mating queen, a mystery -

and a vanished line: “history is a way of thinking

about history without thinking about history.”


*


I ignored those shoplifters of the world uniting

in a loose, nerveless ballet of looting,

when weird, sudden giants have knocked a new door

that will not lock for all the docs of the law.


*


It is later that we think said WH Auden,

like meaning comes after in riots and art,

like Rimbaud bemoaning the French peasants only

revolting to loot and burn, no coup d'etat.


*


If liberalism is the allowing of all perceptions

and it leads to Hamlet's harmatia irresolution,

pragmatism can be the reactivation

of an attitudinisation in that situation.

























THE MYSTIC VISIONARY


(For Robert)


The bond between a mother and her son

should be one of unconditional love,

not limited by language barriers,

different appellations for the light.


Under the moon, I love my mother

as I loved my father too, whom

it would seem would deem it jolly good,

the food we ate in Italy recently.


Orange is the sun when it sets there too and

then in the clouds Heaven’s bars

sell upturned jars of sunset, making

you claim that even plastic can grow.


The colour of a red toy car with my

fingerprints on it could then seem to be “detuned”

like a guitar string, and counting numbers

seem steps down into the earth...


I love the bones my mother grew

inside her warm womb long ago now,

before the trauma of birth separated us,

and I face the music, dreaming big.


Wow! I can’t believe the things I’ve

touched with my own fingers but my

fingers have crashed, I type, and my

mad, crashed fingers have connected.




















SQUALIA


These are excellent: Squalia, (as opposed to Qualia),

they could seem the status life details of a katabatic

descent towards Rock Bottom: a bed in a shed;

taking notes on receipts, Rizla papers, train tickets,

the backs of packets; wearing naff tracky bottoms

lifted from ASDA and splattered with white

emulsion paint from doing up the band’s house

like a badge of honour; eating discarded Danish pastries

from the Co-op supermarket bin at the fringes of

society. Still, Squalia could also be revamped with intensity.

For example, what is the street-name for Ecstasy

when the band detune the guitars all the way down?

F sharp minor is the answer and the name of a number

by the band. It being recorded on state-of-the-art,

binaural earphones, earphones I tell you, with

tiny mics implanted inside, on that very weird album on

which I said I would plug my senses in the mains,

may be the reason I now hear soooo many voices.

They may be Squalia re-defined as squatters,

people who pay no rent or electricity as I didn’t

back in the days of said band. I was kicked out

of the band for weird behaviour; for instance I came

home from the pub, intoxicated on a cocktail

of noxious toxins of deleterious self-derision and

launched into a speech in an imaginary language

no-one could understand, keeping it up for half

an hour, ad-libbing it, impromptu while rolling

around like in a neo-shamanic ritual on the ground.

Just when they thought they had lost me forever,

I went and had sex with the shed’s cold, concrete floor

on Ecstasy, and it wasn’t long before I was booted

out of my own band. The Flood we were called

and were a Cambridge-based jam band who only

recorded on binaural earphones. By the time

I got home to the north I was angry and walked

up the fell, ranting in the cassette tape wind. I

did not know who had phoned my mum, concerned,

and had her collect me. I still don’t, but no longer

care, for all I embarked on a program of meditation,

detox, dreamwork, reading and exercise, and

despite a mental illness kicking in, still got

a good degree as if I had wilfully walked away

from music to pursue poetry and become a graduate. -

I conceived of Lancaster University as a type of word-guitar

made by Fender whereupon the voices came to me.

They said among many other things that I should

lose the book or the guitar” which is a very difficult

decision to make and one I still have not made absolutely.



WHEN F LEFT THE ALPHABET


When F left the alphabet albeit temporarily

I got the results of my test, proving

I’m autistic, an high-functioning autist.

My brother then set up a recording studio

in the posh, coffee-cake dining room, whose

digital buttons and layers and codes even

entered my dreams at night after a while.

I recorded many numbers old and new...

when Baxter the dog walks on the laptop

funny things come out, like the names

of electronica numbers; and the sound

of typing can be used as percussion in

non-metred Sound Art, I also found.

There was even brief relief from voices,

onjects,’ quavers, syllabubbles, sonic

machinations at the periphery of sound,

while I faced the music, while I recorded.

Still, I came back to the silence of the

blank page where I might hang life like a coat

in a primary school cloak room, just because.

I wanted to say any word can be spelled in

any way, any guitar solo played any way,

that all discipline boundaries have dissolved,

all the subjects become one thing, life,

whereupon one might turn to philosophy…

but now everything has returned to normal and

I am glad for while F had left the alphabet

there was no longer any word for Freedom.

So to try and write in wrinkled and crinkly

Christmas wrapping paper becomes a good

game all over again, and food for thought

a priority, and the translation of feelings.”



















HALF OF IT


A river running through variegated ages of rock

seems to contain many ages at once

like the books groaning on the shelf.


A rock star meanwhile can change costume

many times during an exciting performance

and still somehow resound as himself.


It isn’t the river or the rock star, changing

gear, that so amazes the soul, though,

but something more globular and holistic.


The Rolling Stones became The Strolling Bones;

and then the art teacher said to put more

pink in the shadow to make it more realistic.




































MY BROTHER’S POEM


I didn’t script the net (and cloud) at seven,

try the maths for the new colour as a skin cell,

separate the pollen from its very name;

didn’t deal with Jim Morrison twice as well.

I didn’t attain the face of stars,

forewarn people of September 11th

in 2000, prophesy the Plough’s

alignment, the God Particle from looking

at dust in a late ray of light angling

in nor get my future tutor-to-be’s

scientific paper just right as an

ideal for a book I might write

before I had even gone and met him.

I didn’t pen the highest-marked A-

level examination essay in the nation.

I didn’t have many arcane musical

experiments on the go all at the same time:

the effervescent mobile, the healing

of the tape that was cut and stuck together

in the flimsy reel, the recording

on binaural earphones, the tattooing

of Piper At The Gates of Dawn. I didn’t

host the alignment of The Plough and

the oldest fell Black Combe upon

Mr. Obama’s democratic election.

I didn’t attest to large-scale skywriting,

find the pint glass exploding from

thin air in the capital to be but a piece

of pollen in the general pollen count.

I didn’t build the Tower, work at a

numinous, purple-bleeding screen.

I didn’t, upon the loss of my father,

make the discovery of a sheet of

paper that bloomed or even grew

pictures probably depicting the lyric of a song

I wrote with my own doing hand.

I didn’t falsify the Nirvana barcode, then;

didn’t do whatever it took to attain

visual radio, broadcasting dreams,

dreams that billow like a weeping

willow in the wind, and swirl in purple,

digital swathes about the head

of the deranged seer; and come down.

I don’t think the “gestation chamber”

T. S. Eliot writes of in which the poem’s

dark embryo” grows has now become

an inbox to empty in the Digital Age.

I don’t find it hard to have my story known.

I don’t hope that through some kind of

irony, some kind of ironic self-

distance, I’ve finally cracked it.




















































TO THE BROS IN THE DEN IN THE WOODS


I imagine now telling the bros in the den

in the woods my theory about the chain


of dark or even anti-evolution, that says

James Joyce, who also saw new creatures,


writing Ulysses is the reason why Ted

saw a monster in the river in childhood


who in turn wrote The Hawk In The Rain

which is then the reason Jim Morrison


saw winged serpents in the desert on acid,

whom we know is never quite flaccid,


and his writing The Lords And The New

Creatures is then why I saw not one but two


which I shall not delve into quite yet

but which I shall never again clean forget -


the bros in the den in the woods might well

fall in with my scoffed at, empurpled Hell -


and with freed minds start to write poetry

to read out under the fallen down tree


in amidst the empty beer cans and ends

of cigarettes dumped there by their friends -


but what their fair maiden female companion

would make of the chain of dark evolution


could be that it's a bundle of fairy tales

unlike the crawling of actual snails


whereas I know the whole thing to be real -

and if I could but show you how I feel -


would have you convinced that I'm right

but not well in the head, at least not quite -


which leaves me standing like a tall tree

in the wood where we used to read our poetry


which did, back when we were young,

and getting a foot on the ladder's first rung.




DEFACED


It’s actually a rather saddening story for now

I’d be in and out of hospital for the rest of my days,

still my father thought it hilarious, how,

when I was first hospitalised I ran away,

on my first escorted walk in the grounds,

through a field and across a busy motorway


and up a serpentine trainline to the station

from which I made it to Scotland by train,

thinking there’d be a different jurisdiction -

but oh how my athletic efforts were in vain!

The cops found me wandering that other nation

and took me south of the border again!


I’d been put under a curse unbeknownst to me...

forced to abide by the stringent rules,

I sat back in hospital writing poetry

in a waiter’s pad, inventing brave new schools,

smoking on the banks of the Styx of sweet tea,

calling the conspiracy of doctors fools!


I scored a question mark on the musical scales

in my writing, in that place so clean,

such a sterile-surfaced Hell, run by females,

while Rachel’s party far away on the green

summit of Parliament Hill went down with pale ales

and left me to dream of the space in-between.


I’ve got a degree since then. My feeling is

that the ill are capable of increased lucidity

but I rue the new remit: not to dream with open eyes,

nor await the future with rapt uncertainty,

not to plug my senses in the mains, but de-stigmatise

mental illness. It doesn’t come naturally.

















TEACHING MY SISTER THE SILENT ALPHABET


In bed, at night, have you ever reached the point

where word and muscle meet – where you

attempt to think in words without moving

a muscle in your mouth and stumble

upon the secret, white, silent alphabet?

There are certain letters, certain sounds

you simply cannot think without

a twitch from your mouth muscles -

so you play dead. You lie there and

try and underwrite the thoughts…

some graphemes, phonemes, plosives

and fricatives are possible in silent,

white and secret thought alone but

no utterance seems completely pronounced.

The silent alphabet thus has several letters

missing; and by dawn you might still

be lying there, awake, trying and trying

to think the word “whisky” without

a movement of the tongue. It can

be done but is found further in

the mind, where hands can not go.

That’s why seeing in the dark is so tough.





























THE LADDER TO THE HAYLOFT


That a clock is only as fast as a cheetah,

running round and round on the stones

seems to be a young kid’s scientific finding.


That a clock is only as fast as a wounded

cheetah, struggling with fifteen balls in

the air, seems more artistic, subjective too.


That oceans smile with liquid eyes and fill

themselves with rain could be hypertext,

hypertext of Verlaine’s famous credo.


That I. T. may stand for Instant Travel too

could be nothing but a bone-idle pipe dream,

dreamed up on pot at a computer screen.


That Lucy in the soul with demons may

be an actual substance is almost chemistry,

almost musicology; and then I’m gone.


That Portability is the Apotheosis of Form

could be nothing but the modern narrative,

and apply across the board when you’re away.


That if flower-press ending on cannabis

could = a dialysis a love poem hoping

to impress poor Flora could = more a motor


seems to be an aesthetic anti-system

and satisfies the desire for something

like the colours of the vowels in English.


That the effect of acid and the effect of acid-rain

on an imaginary species should = the same,

nothing, is not necessarily true if there


can be no more proof of something being

real than saying it was imagined, which

seems both Blake-like and Cartesian too.


That the effect of global warming on the

unicorn is a postmodern id is eco-poetic,

eco-poetry being all about an awareness.


That it’s impossible to remember a new

yellow line, under the madding sun, could

be the Light-speed Law of Neuroplasticity.


That love is the hope the heart literally

needs in order for it to survive without

which it can stop is a stance before life.


That Duff is H suspended in deafness

could be history as much as anything else,

even ‘horse’ or ‘how about the housework?’


That Dog = pi times MC squared could be

the equation for a power-cut at the foot of

Black Combe, three miles from Millom, or


like plugging the senses in the mains; and

that O is the key of the babbling unicorn

is more musical Nature poetry again. Lastly,


that fire’s effect on fire could = nothing

minus nothing could be nothing but mere

speculation and conjecture; or even Nirvana.


Then the Problem 1 in that Popperian,

epistemological sense is how to get down

again, safely, before the wind topples you over.


And so I have invented Backward Liquid

Maths, for my brother and I to share,

and I hope for each a peach in the wheel.




























LOOKING CLEARLY AT MY SADNESS


It goes much faster does a dying animal;

which only reminds me grief does not account

for the kitchen clock’s tick tock panning, bilateral

and moving through the room with no scent


like a Disney animation clock. And so I see

my sadness clearly and sing my heart’s song.

We remediate the immediate predicament with tea.

We dream of a kingdom where nothing’s wrong.


A crow is squawking on a tree in the garden.

Crows, dogs, horses, trees, these are our friends.

To Nature I turn for solace, her truant compensation

while a lonely winter’s new fag-end burns.


Grey like a pencil is the new day dawning

here at the foot of the Lakeland’s oldest fell,

grey like a rabbit, full of puddles blinking,

templates in The Periodic Table starting to swell…


day is an abeyance that dissimulates the vacancy

of fish-eyes sipped on. Monastic mist

flies across the fell. Everything is so watery.

You have to live here and now, not in the past.


I dreamed that we went swimming in eyewash.

Then I ate a breakfast of every snooker ball colour.

To trollop I turned, then to niceness, then balderdash.

As for the poet’s role, nothing could be duller.






















A FACT ON TIME


I know a fact on Time,

but not if it will last:


if we could build a time machine

that equalled light speed,


we could only go back

to resolve the past,


not into the future,

for that has not yet happened.


That was where I was at

back when I was ten.


The science man came

to talk to us at school.


Though I was a poet,

was a poet even then,


I liked the science man,

I thought that he was cool.


From dinosaurs to lightspeed

he showed us the way,


from fossils to the future,

we were instructed,


and everyone paid

special attention that day,


that day that is a fossil

where our futures were constructed.
















THE LOCAL TRAIN LINE


You can go backwards to Christmas on a train

and often I would, and sometimes doze.

Squirrels can fly if perceived in the caravan

of trees sailing past through railway train windows -

windows that taste like an old copper coin.

I remember taking the train on schooldays


from the local village’s request stop station

to the industrial town they call Barrow-in-Furness,

round the estuary which Norman Nicholson

mapped in a poetry that remains matchless.

So many birds can be observed when on

that journey, already feeling semi-famous.


The gentle arrhythmia cajoles you into a lull,

the sound of the wreckety wreckety wreck.

When you get on it’s empty, but it is full

at the end of the journey like a swollen beck.

I would already smoke pollen at school.

At the end of the schoolday I would travel back.


Now as I write I hear the train toot its horn.

I won’t get on it anymore, not since COVID,

and since becoming so paranoid within

that I prefer to not venture all the way outside,

into the town, that is. So here I remain,

survivor of a pathetic attempt at suicide.


Tiny engines may rev up on pellucid glass,

augmenting the sense of cosiness you feel,

when heading for school, for an A-level class

about the meaning of Caliban and Ariel.

The Sixth Form girls would giggle at me as

I sat there reading a book of Robert Lowell.


Going to the private school meant I never

cheered up and joined in with the human race.

If there is a difference between being clever

and having what they call moral compass,

we should all sit together, and endeavour

to unite while keeping intact our difference.


The telegraph poles went flowing past.

Counting them I never picked a favourite.

I’d hope for the flow of the day to go fast.

If the weather was rubbish I’d get used to it.

Achieving my dream of being the best essayist

was easier when I put my sober mind to it.


A boy I was, mewling and puking to school,

feigning High Indifference when there.

Back then the currency was in being cool.

Exciting was the license to scent the air.

The music I collected was the sacred pool.

I was in love with a girl with brown hair.


Sometimes we’d bunk off and go walking

in a kind of pantheistic or animistic trance,

or sleep in caves; or stay up talking -

but never once did she see me dance!

To Amsterdam and Paris we went gallivanting -

to see the museums – to not waste the chance.


At the end of school I went down south

and broke off the relationship in doing so,

started to let ecstasy pills into my mouth,

worked some boring jobs and went with the flow.

The train was a gullet, gulping back and forth.

Sometimes we’d travel under a rainbow.


































FULCRUM


Floating in the quiet of a weightless dawn,

the buzzard is the crux of the flux of time,

the reason the colour of Cumbria is brown;

and his mating call is a primal scream;

and then he swoops, streamlined, down,

far from the world of pretence and dream,

to remind that Creation is a dark machine,

to mug his prey, packed with dynamism.


He knows, that is, how to obviate not titivate,

sate his quest for meat, how to fling

to his bright ring, his peerless orbit,

and like a balancing act to just hang,

in the fire-streaked dawn’s young light,

sensing his prey below, without a pang

of conscience for the inevitable death of it,

free as the air in my self-healing lung…


Imagination, I would reckon, has engendered

this bird, and that faculty can heal the split

in the psyche, duality. Unencumbered

the buzzard is, when he swoops to eat.

The days of his prey below are numbered.

He shows how Creation is no mean feat -

imagined, not observed or remembered,

he has bad manners but is still discrete.

























THE EMOTIONAL CONDOM OF THE WORLD


I heard we grew our great brains by eating meat

and, needing to spread information about it,

about farming, hunting, killing, eating things

developed words for birds that sing with their wings...

now, the pre-verbal, the thought-pattern, translated

into words, via the mechanics of meaning, is diluted.

Language is the emotional condom of the world,

into which we are all so traumatically hurled.

One day we may learn to eat language, but for now

I’ll settle for the rump of the local farmer’s cow.









































CONFESSIONAL POEM


I still think of you, all these years on,

from all those years we had. You

used to make us sleep with the light

on and I still do – for it feels like

switching that switch will flush

the past down the drain. That’s where

years of writing went when at the end

of our time together, you said “I don’t

want to be in it.” So I could only bin it.

All those times we went off exploring

just “to look at trees,” as you put it -

on the premise that “there should

still be room for Nature in the Future...”

I remember that I did document a

lot of it - but it’s gone. There were

inward journeys too, like a poem is the

opposite of a bus ticket - and I remember

when we drove into the Lakes from

some other place and I wrote down

every sign along the way for a poem -

how semantics is a road sign not a place!

Well, that too is gone – all the love

poems gone - and there were, well, poems

born of recreational drug use for

the sake of literary experiment, and it’s

all gone - under Gondwanaland like

the pollen, under the green hill like

the ecstasy pill. For it was all for you,

and you are no longer in my new life.

There was even one about the neo-London

skyline as a part of the Tube service,

but I was with you when I wrote it

so it too is gone. Even the dreamwork

diary I kept won’t work with you gone.

At least some of the melodies remain;

but I’m too old to make it as a pop star,

prance round in a vapid pose suitable

for the rebellion of youth – no, it is

as a poet that I wish to leave my sting.

It seems unfair that I was faithful, and

it’s all my work that’s now destroyed, but

I suppose it could be worse: I could have

grown homosexual through the onslaught.

Maybe I did and just don’t know it yet.







LONDON FLASHBACK


London is a craven haven for corrupting taste.

Police motorbikes were being chased by the waste.

I spent a year down there after my degree -

even slept rough – but didn’t feel that free.

The riots were lootings: Christmas on earth

didn’t follow on in the town of my birth.

I busked for next to nothing, saw old friends

but abandoned ship – my each adventure tends

to me crawling home, puking, apologising profusely

to inward grace – senses broken loosely -

and now I sit sipping tea at the foot of the fell,

in a large country house not ready to sell.

There’s a beck in the back and we’re agreed

I am even allowed to write of it if I need -

no Poetry Police who have never read any

poetry will stop me, although not for a penny

I have worked for them… and I cast my mind back

to the daughters of London. The Plough and Black

Combe had aligned by the time I went down.

I lived in the East, it was like an undertown.

I drifted and loafed and smoked too much.

A Londoner by birth, I still am one as such -

but no longer hang with the cutting edge crowd -

I guess they wander lonely inside the cloud!

And no I didn’t pull when I was on holiday,

except a gay experience, though I walked away...

and soon had a dream bigger than a dream,

for which the gnomic nomenclature is “drum,”

characterised by cosmic freedom, bounding

in circles in space. Already daggers of lightning

in the storm were part of a God Simulation;

and I woke feeling cleansed, with re-aligned perception.

Still, back to the sticks, I came by rattling train

unsure if I will ever make it down there again.

















CUMULO-NIMBUS HAIR


The powers that be could be clouds,

passing by on their sky-blue roads…


today they are sparse and moving East,

not too slowly, and not too fast.


It’s warm outside for Autumn time.

As a child I thought Autumn Optimus Prime -


that Transformer from the kids’ cartoon.

I still think there’s something in


the personification – a triumphant sense -

for Prime is the sum of all difference


connected – that Sigma where everything meets;

and Autumn is likewise a God in Keats.


But speaking of weather only shows I am

amicable as a person. The strawberry jam,


meanwhile, has all run out on scones;

and so as if to blunt, yellow crayons


I return to art at the foot of the fell,

where it might all be “signed by everwell”


but isn’t, for that may be too untrue,

and just for something, anything to do!


If clouds were really in charge above

they’d look down on the world of love


and legalise soft, Moroccan pollen

and make all kinds of English education


the same high standard and free

and as they passed towards the sea,


cancel cuts to benefits and to the tax

on the rich…. they’d encourage sex


instead of war, and keep the room

temperature in the months of gloom


above a certain level for people over

a certain age for free with all their power -


and all their power would still pass,

as we lay out on the back lawn’s grass


and watched them go, wearing ripped genes

adorned with peace and anarchy signs,


and DM boots on the red brick road,

away to dump their wet, rainy load...


with this idea of State I quite agree;

but it would be an Impracticable Democracy!












































A REALIST VISION OF WINTER


If winter has her compensations,

they might be found in the rosy cheek

of the woman waiting at the station’s

tentative platform in the week;


in a layer of frost crisp underfoot;

in the breath making tortuous, iron

statues in the emaciated light;

in the whole gulp of white sun


going blind behind a thorny tree,

splintering into a thousand shards

like a coruscation of divinity;

in staying in and playing cards


beside a roaring sitting room fire;

in chimney smoke against a canvas-sky;

in a little sprinkling of icing sugar

on the tops of fells as we drive by…


soup and hearty stews as well.

If Christmas has become a mad, red

rush of consumerism, such detail

cannot be bought, so I’m not sad -


sad to see the wintry trees all bare,

sad the days are dark and short.

There is no cause for dark despair

when winter’s visions can’t be bought.






















HIGH BROW FARM


There’s no psycho-sensitive fire alarm sounding out

at High brow Farm, full of fear and doubt

but the horses listen to the radio

and the artists say it’s best to aim low.


I went along with a melody sweet

to a fairy-haunted artistic retreat.

The kettle ascended like a cathedral choir

to a silent scream and the host made a fire


whose faces flickered and lithely danced

and left the observer almost entranced…

we piled on the money when it was roaring

and through conversation our spirits were soaring.


We spoke about the art adorning the walls,

how one day there well may be stalls

selling tickets when the place has become

akin to the Northern Tate as a museum!


When I left I was down but soon went back

where names had tastes and Thursday was black

and loafed in the garden drinking tea

in the great, amassing shade of a tree.


I saw lithe spirits flowing from right

to left as I sat there, and O what a sight -

a vision of Nature, and love more holistic,

but I kept it quiet, like a postmodern mystic!






















BREAKFAST


Breakfast today was two fried eggs, sunny side up,

on toast left to cool slightly so the yellow butter

didn’t break the surface, with a pink-rimmed cup

containing black coffee with a lump of brown sugar,

plus streaky bacon turned in the dark-blue AGA

and dipped in red sauce, all on a new, milk-white

plate with green rim, which, when eating was over,

and I was quench’d and sated, feeling alright,

I left to soak in soapy bubbles in the kitchen sink.

I belched quite crudely then, which was my food

popping up to say ‘hello,’ and drank of my drink,

the coffee from its pot, coffee which can be renewed,

and, grateful for plenitude, felt somewhat satisfied,

and took my leisure to the beautiful world outside.





































IN ORDINARY SPEECH


When I was seven I wrote a book

that performed four functions:

to encrypt a scientific node to do

with Gravity; to store the idea

of the internet in writing in the attic

at the foot of Black Combe so that

it was possible for the net to

exist all the way round the world;

to calibrate an algorithm that

sublimates letters and numbers

on a cellular level to see if the

new colour could be rendered

as a cellular mark; and to separate

the object ‘pollen’ from its name.

It was a book with a heartbeat.

It had a heartbeat. It made

the sound of footsteps in the attic.

It’s been stolen by someone.

It was in The Dream Suitcase

along with some other priceless things

like the sheet where pictures grew

and the cassette that was cooked

when its small pause in the song

where the reel was cut and re-

sealed healed and was gone.

I think they were after the sheet

where pictures grew, but by the time

they stole The Dream Suitcase, there

was only my seven year old book in it.

I still have bits of it typed up -

bits of it went into a publication -

but not all of it - and the original,

the handwritten version with

the heartbeat, is now gone.”

















A CONTRAPTION MADE OF WORDS FOR MAKING YOUR OWN EMOTION IN LIFE


What I want could be a contraption

(made of words) for making

your own emotion in life. You do this.

You make your own emotion.


It could be pellucid as a glass phial,

or mystical as an inscape of wings.

I am not fussy, nor think this

reductive dichotomy too meaningful.


What I get instead of what I want,

yes, is to be the neo-Rimbaud

whom it would seem has now bought

and sold a share in silence, white.


The headspace I have been through

is the most interesting in terms

of timbre tenor tone texture tense

timing tensility tenderness since I’ve


dreamed of a forbidden fifth

brain wave category, off the map, knowing

brain waves are angels here and

there are said to be only four types.


At the top of a mountain in a dream

in Italy I saw the contraption around

which we had gathered collapse

and transmit its emotive impact.


I would say it was like a child bursting

into tears, when tears break forth from their

tiny, blue chains and shatter from

your eyes but it was happiness.


The sunset was putting its giant

spliff out in the sea in the background

as the poets stood atop the Italian mnt

regarding the collapse of the contraption.


It’s possible in dreams to make it across

the ocean using only a contraption

you dream up as you go along -

just jump off the cliff like a lemming.







SIX CHILDHOOD MEMORIES


1


When I was a kid and we had two houses,

one in London, one in the Lakes,

we were often found driving up or down

the motorway between them; and

I would be looking at the derelict barns

on the side of the motorway, in

fields, and imagining a nomadic

existence. It seemed to me that

a derelict barn would be enough.


2


On the motorway, I now recall,

I used to imagine snagging my foreskin

on the barbed wire fence as

we sped off at seventy miles an hour.

I guess it was like stretching honesty

to it elastic utmost and further,

pointing the moment to its crisis,

a mixture of cartoons and chewing gum.


3


The only time I ever questioned

my brother’s intelligence as a kid

was when grand-dad asked us

how many beans make five?”

and my brother said “I don’t know.”

I wondered how he had escaped.


4


As a kid I used to picture

a bouncing ball in my head at night

which would only bounce when I said

stop, and only stop when I said

bounce, so only through inverse

logic could I control it. Every

night I would check it was there.


5


I remember also as a child, I used to

repeat the word ‘kangaroo’

over and again in my head

until it went numb, emptied

itself of meaning, hopped off

to become the mad, kangaroo king,

down at the bottom of my ex

English-teaching granny’s garden.


6


For some unknown reason, when

the school bus used to go past

a certain farm contiguous to

the school I used to sit there asking

myself if the farm had a secret

underground lab where unsound

experiments were conducted on animals.

I never got to find out before I left.








































LINES IN THE LITTLE BEDROOM


Earth bounds in circles round the sun.

Breath goes in and out like a tide.

Death sells records to the young and impressionable.

Youth is wasted on the young they say.

Teeth are meant for chewing meat.

Truth probably hurts less than cliché now.

Birth hurts like trauma for all concerned.

Dearth means a scarcity or lack of something.

Darth as in Vader is Luke Skywalker’s father.

North is the rest of The Lakes, then Scotland.

Mirth is my feeling to be released.

Moth wears an off-white wedding dress.

Worth waits for ladies to cross the road.

Bath is not where Jim Morrison died.

Light changes the key in the bathroom.

South is where I originate but not reside.

Mouth to mouth means resuscitation.

Math is American slang for mathematics.

Sloth is my frame as opposed to cowardice.

Broth is good to heat and eat in winter.

Wrath is another one of the Seven Deadly Sins.

Path through the grass leads to the greenhouse.

Plath is a poetess of egoism therefore minor.

Plinth is a platform supporting a statue.

Month is a disciple of Jesus Christ.

Wraith is a flame-point demon, screaming, lithe.

Faith is the right to approval by the supernatural.

Froth is the river at the broken-green-beer-bottle-corners.

Fourth in the Premier League are Newcastle United.

Water should come free from the Tap.

Myth is made by any re-namer of reality.

With me is the opposite of without me.

Vermouth is generally drunk with gin.

Absinth makes the heart grow stronger, actually.

Cloth is laid down on the kitchen table.

Labyrinth, I think the inner ear is a labyrinth, yes.

Mammoth” could describe the great, hulking universe.

Growth begins in Spring with gilly flowers.

Pith is the essence and gist of something.

Strength becomes less important when you’re wise.

Underneath the bridge the Pooh-sticks went.

Wordsmith after wordsmith walked on the wall.

They deem it I am the butt of the joke.

Wreath after wreath is a roundabout-picnic.

Both of our heads are left with tonsures.

Loath to control things, I just let go.





ON THE ROAD IN ENGLAND


Why is this lane stopping and starting?

Stopping and starting uses more fuel than

the blank amnesia of Nirvana, the extinction

of consciousness, and we are travelling south,

all that queue, all that congestion,

(you see I’m in the car), and

not a single person parking,

so we seem to work in shifts,

and the road opens up, clear

of other traffic, and the car

accelerates, and the wall

of Maya now falls down.

Imagine graffiti on the wall

of Maya (whom it seems is

Sanskrit for Goddess of Illusion.) -

I’ve heard of graffiti on the

keel of The Drunken Boat.

Also on the wall going round

the edge of the universe. But not

on the wall of Maya. I don’t know why

I bought my computer, unless to slink

off alone and have a private moment.

We are only going for five days.

The automated conveyor belt

of poesis still flows and

so it goes and so it grows.

























THE MIDNIGHT RAINBOW


My father was not a retired assassin

which he kept secret from us, his own kin;


the Revolution never thrust a big mistake

on me in the wood for that would be sick;


I was not made to see things which

no-one should and Nature’s no bitch;


my lover never slept with my buddy Paul

which is not the sickest thing of all;


they never took the Towers down

because of the verse of Jim Morrison;


I never was placed under a curse

and nothing’s really mending worse;


the dog has not just weed in my bed

and I do not wish that I was dead;


in fact the midnight rainbow shines

and the toilet flushes with fine wines;


I definitely got to sleep with whom

I wanted back in the land of gloom;


my brain has not come under attack

from acid flashbacks trying to flashback;


I’d really mind if they emptied space

of the human form without a trace;


the disappointment which I feel

is not the appearance of an electric eel;


my best ideas were not all stolen;

the front for my art should never be pollen;


I do not hear the myriad of voices

cutting down on my existential choices;


it’s not the case that what can happen to you

may not just be naff but sick too;


desperate for sex with a dream full of ladies

I never had to loot wings from Hades;


so you see I may have it all wrong

and can’t commit to literal things in song;


the sound of sirens is not heard near,

even if only brought on by The Fear;


a love I’d need to blow all this away

never would tell me actually I’m gay:


how dare you treat a human being like this?

The midnight rainbow mixes blood and piss.


Through it we escape from chronic pain,

or not as the case may seem to be again.









































BAT


A bat just appeared in the dining room

as I lay there one night thinking of you.

It flew around, encircling the gloom

and I asked my mother what to do.


She said to get the window open

but I remember Bob’s son’s Christening -

we couldn’t open the window then -

unscrew the bolt that needs unfastening.


So my mother got my other brother down,

told me that I was always bad news -

and my brother took up pliers, to get undone

the too-tightly fastened up screws.


The bat meanwhile flew around

and around, encircling the stale air,

frightening us down on the ground -

and the way it just happened to appear!


It could’ve got down the chimney I suppose,

but it’s not the only possibility.

Bats don’t spontaneously self-organise

like a Strange Attractor from Chaos Theory


but from where it came I do not know

and think of the woods where once I stood

being good and how plastic can grow,

and all that light, evening jazz from childhood…


my bro got the window open with pliers,

even though bats are not dangerous,

because as much as bats are not liars,

we still don’t want one living with us!


We propped the window ajar and I

took my laptop, Vape pen, earphones

and vacated the room, where I used to lie

dreaming of you, here at Cumpstones.


It’s still flying around in there, has not

found its way out of the window so

I’ll have to sleep in the attic, like a bat,

for there were many in the locked attic long ago…


I’d say if the house where the Plough aligns

is cursed then it affects everyone in turn,

but that would be boring, just lines

to elongate this little, midnight yarn.


When there were many in the locked attic,

they escaped through a tiny, little hole

when dad (who slept through radio static)

installed central heating, and even soul.


Now we must wait for this little bat

to be free too, to be out there in the Night,

and it might take a little while longer yet

because of course a bat is devoid of sight!












































GUTTERBY


Nowhere in my knowledge is it any more evident

that Nature is a great love-bomb detonation

than down on Gutterby Beach

where I walked with my love…

there is no map to follow,

from Alex Garland’s famous novel,

for a curved A to B trajectory

will take you down to Silecroft -

but you can follow the procession of natural

monuments of rock as you go:

the first is Dark Fortress Rock,

barnacle-clad and casting a shadow -

for we liked to re-name things

as we wandered in animistic trance,

and booted the bruised football,

and noted the usual, single washed up shoe,

the pebbles gleaming but dull,

the gulls circling overhead,

the driftwood smoothed by hands

of mermaids under the waves,

the way the waves make

gentle love to the shore…

and what scent to the air as well!

The other rocks I cannot recall

the names of, but they were not fixed

and formal, merely impromptu appellations.

If you are lost and need directions,

following the rocks is in order

but I’m sure you’ll know how to navigate

the ragged beauty of the beach.





















NO STARS AND LIGHT RAIN


As suspected and predicted, no stars

and light rain tonight. Not the right time, then,

to factor in the fact that when counting, one star leads

to another star. No, that would be more

for Glastonbury stone circle: to call out

ad-libbed hippy poetry over the stoned

bongo drummers atoned around the fire on

an E come-up as the city lights up.

Still, it’s been said now. Nevermind.

If it makes unseemly collocation so be it.

There’s no such thing as almost infinite.

There had to be everything in order

for there to be even an atom. A drum

is a dream bigger than a dream of bounding

in huge, magic circles in space. Again,

these utterances may have better place. For

I am not out there, under the Ancient Night.

I am in the kitchen, thinking if the windows

were washed, every one, we would see

nothing but the same white mirrors, re-affirming

the quiet interior of this done-up room.






























MY DIAGRAM DIAGRAM


The sheet where pictures brown and blue

simply bloomed or maybe grew

was not the work of Winnie the Pooh…


I discovered it when my father passed.

Down in the smoking den in the barn,

smoke made ancient ghost-faces in the dark.


The pictures themselves seem to depict

the lyric to a song I wrote, way back

in a teenage band called Oedipus Wrecks


but the sheet is not my sheet. I concede

it is my younger brother’s, for he

is the one that laid it down. <BEE>


might well soon ensue from @

in the international language alphabet

according to him and his cutting wit.


The rest for me is but mere consolation

prizes for God’s unwanted children

whom it seems are still glad to be born.




























BECK VARIATION


Standing in my wellies beside the beck,

I note its most mellifluous applause,

how it falls two feet

into a sound as sweet

as a kettle drum’s metal petals

of silver bliss that blossom

on a carnival’s street.


Further to distil the air in the mind,

I wait, to obviate not titivate,

and notice the green kingdom all around.


A squadron of nettles guards the wild.

It must be so different from living

in Norman Nicholson’s Millom,

down the end of Rottington Road.

A lone bird pipes a bar in a tree.


Then I notice I need to pee.

So into the heavenly nectar I do.

H20 might stand for Hypothalamus Tattoo.






























THE DAY I WROTE PHILOSOPHY IN VERSE


The universe in all its ancient mystery

remains indifferent to philosophy.


Still, when I read of Perfection

in Descartes and take no objection


and turn inward mine own eye

to investigate the truth and the lie


I glimpse a Perfect Judge, who’s

awesome and supreme, lose


the room, and notice its concerns

are grammatical, in what it discerns.


I believe there’s no such thing

as mind cancer, which, elongating


my argument, would seem to mean

the mind is indeed separate, clean-


broken from the physical world, as Descartes

believed. It is a decent start


to working out my philosophy;

and when the counter-argument comes to me,


that there is nothing for the term

the human mind” to even name,


just electric impulses in the brain,

the dance of synapses, then again


I’d say that once upon a time

words and things corresponded. I’m


also prone to the Ontological view

that if there is a word for it, you


understand there is such a thing.

Such is the studiousness of which I sing.


I’d even go so far as to say

the mind is “incellular” in a way


but where it meets with the body, I

don’t know any more than I can fly.




THE LIZARD SYD


Do exalt the Lizard Syd -

he took care of Jim Morrison as a kid.

There are all sorts of things he did.

So exalt The Lizard Syd.


Plunge into his dreams too.

A Tourist industry there, you know,

explores by train the strange terrain

of his acid-casualty brain.


He’s famous in his local town,

for his poetry readings brought down

the house. So I say

exalt the Lizard Syd today.


The Lizard Syd won’t keep it hid,

because of the wonderful things he did.

It’s because he also went mad

that he became this hybrid.


A local God, he lives outside

the town in the countryside,

in a house that’s bigger than the rest

because the Lizard Syd’s the best.


So exalt the Lizard Syd,

even though he is but a flid,

in fact you could say invalid,

who seems to have gone off the grid


or else the day will go to waste

quicker than you can say “toothpaste,”

and never make that sea-change

into something rich and strange.

















A DALLIANCE WITH PLACE


The powers that be could be clouds

roving overhead on their sky blue roads,

the mood a bracken frond drooping down,

the beck a fountain pen, miles from town -

for Nature is the true architecture of Kate;

and everything in Nature only semi-state:

even the fell is mutable on a long

enough timeline in this northern song.

I suppose I should endeavour to invent

a Beautometer for time well spent:

for Nature is a great art exhibition,

separate here from the human condition;

and writing of the Lakes could be

refining a drug called “Strictly Free”

that does exactly what it says on the tin,

showing how consciousness is no sin.

Well, nothing has changed to the map

apart from the wind-farm beyond the lap

of the tide, revolving its Mercedez Benz arms

to make electricity for the farms -

and also the cafe down the beach -

since Norman Nicholson neglected to preach. -

Changes to the place have been the net,

global warming let’s not forget,

the advent of the mobile phone

and increased opportunities for vice in town.

Now the tree outside the window strokes

a cat while the present poet tokes

his Vape pen, insufflating the fume,

not out there walking but in his room...

some say I am ‘in’ but not ‘of’

but such a term I do not really love,

loving as I do this place where I live,

and asking what more I can truly give.

















WHEN LIFE WAS STILL FULL OF PROMISE


When life was still full of promise,

I’d make use of a moon like this,

go out and check my tombstone-shadow,

how it elongates in the night,

make a little writing adventure,

to write illuminated by the moon,

which tonight I see is almost full

like my heart for a day long gone.


When life was full of readymade adventure,

I was a daring and adventurous sort,

getting in scrapes, scraps, scrapheaps,

which only reminds of the poems I lost,

the ones I had to let get away,

which amounted to thousands,

like the time and effort it takes to say “boo”

was all it took to produce another.


When life was full of great expeditions,

missions were embarked upon,

even at night when the garden

was full of a million evil eyes,

and all of it ended up here, middle-aged,

fat, unemployed, skint, mentally ill,

single, carless, medicated, living

with my mother in the sticks.


When life was still full of great potential,

I’d be eager, keen to be seen

perched on the edge of a dream,

but teeming possibilities have closed

down around me, like an aperture shut,

and I fix my parameters, think of death

and how the perceptual kingdom of

the individual enters overdrive.
















WAKING AT MIDNIGHT


It’s not nice waking at midnight when you’re me:

dead to the world on Western medication,

you look the Night in the eye and find

the world might’ve quietly passed you by.


There might be a snake on the patio too.

Then again it could be your imagination

grown over-wrought, inspecting shadows.

Still it’s safer to stay in than go out.


The moon is a drunkard above the yew tree.

You see this from the kitchen window.

Telly through the wall leaks in from another room:

it’s where the lion from the heart of Poem


Records originates, when you’re a child,

listening in to telly through the wall, in

the inner city, hearing its whiskers dipped in News.

But childhood is gone, as seems the city -


here we have a pretty place of artistic retreat.

The loneliness rots in the whole, human heart.

At least in reading the voices go away.

I’m on The Basic Writings of Bertrand Russell.



























CAN’T GET RID OF ‘FIR’


We’re doing it because we can’t get rid of ‘fir,’

that Celtic property akin to truth, however

much we wish to wash it away with beer,

whatever we said not feeling too clever…


and speaking of beer, now could be the right time,

to open and sup one, refreshing and cold

and topped off with a nice modicum of lime,

although it’ll fatten my gut as I am told.


The can is opened, the liquid is poured,

I engorge my mouth on the cup’s lip,

tip beer down my throat, not because I am bored,

nor do I necessarily want to give you the slip…


I’m just sating my desire for adulthood,

in a known, rock n roll way, not expecting

any new truth, for example about the wood,

to come from the drinking, in need of perfecting.


What a day we’ve had today too, the sun

beating down, almost punitive in aspect,

and knowing I am never going to find the One,

I might rightfully celebrate if not get wrecked.


No, the fir that is planted it will stay,

and online where the alphabet dances alone,

even if it comes from a long bygone day,

and seems to be ossified now like bone…






















WHILE I MAKE TEA


A parcel brought by a van belongs to someone.


It is an oblong shape, a small, cardboard box.


It is a battery for a chainsaw.


The person it belongs to hasn’t got

any chain oil for the chainsaw so

bought a second battery online

in order to charge it while the other

is being used, so short is its battery span.


I shall take the parcel to the person.


Or else I shall not on second thoughts

because the contents live in the present room.


Which means I can drink my tea.


Further boxes are resting on the table.


One is a blue Kleenex tissue box.


Another is empty, also an Amazon delivery.


I look outside and deem waiting the way.


Traffic is passing, both up and down

the valley road, the A595.


The moment could somehow

be further clenched, I imagine.


I do not wish to take things

to the nth degree as usual,

but that’s for the bats of opacity.


The cherry blossom is in bloom out the back -

I imagine if it were a sound

it could be a kind of tintinnabulation.


Tintinnabulation can be shimmering,

can be silvery and blissful too.


Sometimes I lay back adrift in

canorous chimes and don’t write anything.


It’s like the new style is proleptic, then.


It’s like it is about co-imagination.


But that’s that and this is this.


I am not A. I. as a pronominal act

of Romantic, first person lyricism.


I am drifting with the E of Everything .


The magical dawn has passed and noon

and now it is bog-standard afternoon and soon

on third thoughts I will surprise the person

to whom the cardboard box belongs with it.


It could be about Random Access Memory.


It could be about you making me breakfast.





















I deliver the box to its rightful owner.


Whom it would seem does not wish for me

to make him eggs and bacon now.


Nor to be in it, at least in name.


Lattice works, imbrocation, it is forming

across great distance through the net,

and through writing at computers too.


Both writing and the net close distance.


But what that’s got to do with cows I don’t know.


I still don’t think you should’ve put it the board.


Soon we’ll be going for a run in the sky;

or travel by predictive text, fountain pen,

bullet atop a telegraph pole, xylophone,

but this little freewheeling isn’t about phones.


It’s about a philosophical soundness.


It’s about this thing sticking to you.


It’s about how white a while is.


It’s about how now a lone car whooshes

past, driving faster than I would say is fast,

and another, and another, and another,

even in Eden where flies have no name.


It’s about being fluent in newness

when even tense can lie in suspense.


It’s about seeing with the eye of the eagle.


It’s about it being too evil to say

or not say either way, this transient day.





























CELLULOID HISTORY


Watching Live Aid with my mother,

telly footage from 40 years on,

she tells me what she can remember,

how there was a buzz about town.


They put their tellies in the garden,

as did the neighbour, in the heat wave,

and watched and gave the bands a listen,

hoped their young ‘uns would behave.


And what a line up, all the best,

Bowie, Queen, and more and many more.

She was feeding Bob by breast

throughout the show that would not bore.


Feeding kids was indeed the theme,

the famine-struck Ethiopian families,

and so we united over the dream,

and over the show on our 80’s tellies.


I was three but don’t recollect

anything much from that famous day.

Mum says the weather got so hot

they went back in, packed the telly away.


She was only in her twenties, young,

Finnish and already our mother.

If truth is tasted on the tongue

then I’d just say love is the answer.


Dad was older, an original hippy,

who hitched twice across the States

back in the days when trips were trippy,

with his gf and his travelling mates.


I tell my mother that I miss London,

but she says the older she grows

the further away she gets from Camden

the better, and I suppose she knows.


Anyhow, by now the show is over,

and I’m up late in the Ancient Night,

without a girl to call my lover,

but things might still work out alright.







DREAMWORK POEM


The thing about Jonny Wilkinson

is that after the World Cup

victory he still exists.


The thing about grammar

is that there is no Chinese K.


The thing about walking

to the top of a very tall staircase

in a dream is that it might be flames.


The thing about talking

like this is that it might be James.


The thing about the woods

is that the bird was made

to look like a hoax but

still exist in meaning.


The thing about waking

is taking medication before

you submit your mind to the written word.


The thing about dreamwork

is smuggling language

out of the unconscious.


The thing about language

is that words are best just before

you find them even when

you get them dead on.




















POEM FOR PAUL NO # 357


O brother poet Paul, once and for all,

falling is an art that’s hard to master,

and now here at the foot of the oldest fell

my mind is blank without the Nirvana,

and I hear the rabble of angry voices call,

quick to succeed like they’re simulacra...


imagine simultaneous orgasm of Man

trained to a switch in the heat of summer….

ah, my attention span is Peter Pan,

whom it seems is at least a dreamer.

Oopsy daisy I spill another one

of these machines that help you remember


your medication when the wind is high,

and no-one understands your endeavour.

It is not Professor Paul Farley, no

but you who could have been a lover,

you who made the fallen angels sigh,

once upon a time in sad September.


Now, the midnight sun is a musical orgasm,

plunged, sublimated, all the way under,

the bedroom an anagram of boredom,

here where nothingness is torn asunder,

the poem grown into an anti-poem

where every disconnection’s a blunder…


you were my bestie in the modern parlance

you find on FB, and many a number

we would enchant the other with, a stance

before life maybe, to be a poet and player

of music, and now to a backward glance

it is captured, or lost, that time, water.


Enough of this puppetry! Enough tea!

For I am the poet, that translator

of feelings, back from a break to philosophy,

thinking of Ginsberg, Hofmann, Schuyler,

and all the others. This present poet, he

also likes to think of himself as another.


And no we cannot live in the past,

recollecting games and glorious weather,

for now and here and real and feeling at last

is the way to Eternity, to live forever,

and life can pass us by too fast

unless we are mindful, like the Buddha…


I thank you for the time we shared,

and move on, now we’re less than together,

and hope that feelings can be spared,

and that black jackets can still be leather,

and know that life can seem so weird

especially when you’re not feeling too clever…


I think there is a difference between sheer

cleverness alone and moral compass, whenever

I come to books, to dream of free beer

as the New Beat language or whatever,

the language at first hand, that is here

for Excellent News and holding the mirror.


Mere freak language-use only alienates

the reader, who might be my mother,

or any of her old colleagues and mates,

now that I’ve made it out from under

the boulder, so we must analyse what grates

and recognise that here love is the answer.


A choice of words as WH Auden said,

it existed between us like you were my brother;

and if now that large language love is dead

you and I will have to find another,

and read Wittgenstein on the colour red,

for he seems to be a genius philosopher.


The concerns of the Perfect Judge within

are grammatical, they are to do with grammar,

when you look deep into the brain,

the acid-casualty terrain no more a bummer,

and the stain we gained remains a stain,

and now I don’t feel like going any further.


Did you know I was not cursed but hypnotised?

It’s why I don’t want to go on any longer.

It happened before I got organised,

got sorted out, with a role as a writer.

That summer, when the band split up, it was disguised

as a healing ritual, by a dangerous nutter.


Now even the gyps seem to be on my side,

and I’ve passed through Hell, Hell inside a

mental hospital, and I’ve nearly died,

and all this has nearly been all over,

and now I bounce back from attempted suicide,

a fool to trust the unwelcome stranger.






WOKEN EARLY ON A MONDAY MORNING


I’ve woken from a shocking dream.

I went back to Harecroft Hall -

the school I attended when small -

and looked in the woods for a game.


When the government drove me away

at the end the monster I’d seen

in that dream-kingdom of green

and clear as the light of day


had been understood the result

of nuclear testing nearby.

It left its death on the eye.

I felt the shame of the insult.


When I woke it was but the bird,

that monster, nothing more,

and still against the Hollow Claw

in spirit or was it in word.


That’s why I’d gone back to check,

to hunt for my discovery,

in dreams, where we’re free

as the running of the beck


but in dreams the bird became

that monster, in the wood,

and doing what they thought they should,

the government silenced my name.


The last thing before I woke,

I was driven off in their van.

For I’d seen upon my return

the monster they couldn’t shake.


They didn’t want it leaking out,

that there’d been a nuclear leak,

of which we could not speak,

with either sadness or doubt.


That’s why the monster came

in dreams but not the bird

in wake and I shall have it heard

the witness was not to blame.







THE ALPHABET DANCING


At 11 PM we have to dance,

at 11PM on the dot.

Not before, not just after.

We have to dance upon the spot!


The alphabet dances in a cage

(in a cage a visionary can still be free).

Rather it dances on a page

but that’s not right for you and me.


We must unpack our moves

in the kitchen. If there’s no sound

it will not matter, for it proves

we jiggle to the broken ground.


Joy is the name of the game.

Blessed is the joy in things.

I knew a woman of that name.

She ascended to heaven on her wings.


It must be done though, this dance,

before the Night’s enclosure

separates us from the seer’s trance

and cuts us off from forever.



























LIVING IN THE LAKES


Living in the Lakes I am often struck

by the sensation that life

is going on within the pages

of The Lords And The New Creatures.


It could be just a slant of light

that gives the game away,

the remnant evanescence behind the fell

when the sun has set and the fell darkened.


It’s either that or Nirvana

Unplugged In New York.

For that I think of rivers,

such as the River Esk to the north.


In the summertime, we like to go

outdoor swimming in the Esk.

Today the weather has cooled

so it is not a good time to go.


So I could speak of a “storied” world,

a mythographic universe intact,

an infradiegetic existence

saturated with inter-textuality,


or I could talk of sheep and cows,

the way the rain falls at a slant,

the green-ness of the grass,

and all of Nature’s abundance.


It is a pretty place to live,

which Jim Morrison himself

intended to visit on one of his trips,

but never got round to in the end.


The fell overlooks with its bald,

blank forehead. Driving from town

it appears a great, slumbering

diplodocus come to fat and die


by the Irish Sea; but nearer

the foot you see it could be Buddha,

Buddha levitating. Walking

up could be Western meditation...


but if you mention the slow

ascent up flat, gradual paths,

I think more of a bullet to the top

of a telegraph pole, or even the kettle


that rises to its silent scream,

its steam Ariel returning on Caliban’s

chain. No, I have not been up

the fell for a long time now; so


it’s like I am growing into one

of the locals! But to the fleeting,

evanescent backdrop of dying light

behind the darkened fell at perfumed sunset


I often turn, stare until life grows

detached, naked, until I remember

how weird everything is, how

mysterious and magical the universe.







































PANTOUM OF UNCERTAINTY


Should I play the local open mic Night?

A beetle scurries across the floor!

I might not be feeling up to it.

I haven’t got a semi-acoustic guitar


but a beetle scurries across the floor!

It always appears when I think of the band!

I haven’t got a semi-acoustic guitar

but I’ve got an elaborate Dreaming Gland.


It always appears when I think of the band!

Through music we penetrate the Unknown.

I’ve got an elaborate Dreaming Gland.

It might be alright if I’m not alone.


Through music we penetrate the Unknown.

I might not be feeling up to it.

It might be alright if I’m not alone,

should I play the local open mic Night.
































SPYING A WILD DEER IN THE COMBE FIELD


I looked a wild deer in the eye and held

its gaze while both of us remained motionless.

I saw it run like mine own desire, unfold

its leap and bounce and springiness.


I’d only gone into the garden to smoke

and saw it grazing, in its own world,

up by the babbling beck in the back,

contained in the museum that’s the field.


While I paused to watch it, it grazed away,

then noticed me and both of us froze.

While I was still, the deer looked at me

cautious of danger one might presuppose -


then I made a movement and it leaped,

jumped into orbit, red, running off fast.

I watched it running all the way, rapt,

and saw it leap over a fence at the last.


Cloaked in the aura of special perception,

the encounter was almost like a visit -

to see those elegant legs in extension -

as if the deer were an extension of the poet.


Nibbling up the beck my mouth is water

and when I speak it spills on the earth.

I try not to flaunt my role in Nature.

Down to the sea I flow without death.










































































IV


THE SUNSET CHILD


















































INTRODUCTION TO THE KID


When my father passed in 2014, a little book I had begun in 1989 at seven years old surfaced – my boyhood Prep. It had been locked in the attic at the foot of the fell all these years, where it sometimes made the sound of footsteps that could be heard below. There are several pieces missing because the original was stolen before I had typed it up; but this will do. I can’t seem to tell what it is about but it mentions the net. Last time I published it, even though it wasn’t that long ago, the frame wasn’t right – so this second edition should be better. It needed the little one at the start to give it shape, order and purpose that for some reason the previous version left out. I think what it was about was storing the idea of the net in the attic in writing so that the net could exist all the way round the world. So I thank whomsoever got me to do it because it meant I was part of that process. Whether I am allowed to keep it I do not know, but would say what happened to me happened to me because I was very well hung as a child.














































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JOHN TUCKER

ENGLISH

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Ah yes now I need to find another piece… the piece that was lacking when I first brought it out. Ah yes I find it – what is it still doing here? It’s been here since Christmas!











































[NO NAME]


teacher rite elephant nite

everything lite lesson love

learn tell everyone Esso orange
















































ADVENTURE IN A CAR


On a Tuesday morning there was a big car in Form 2 and it had flashing lites all over it and then I said it's a magic car and we all got in to hide and it took off in to space and it landed on the moon then just as we were going to explore the moon a gravity force pulled us and the car under the sea and a propeller came out of the back of the car and we crashed on a ship REC and we tried the canons an they were still red hot. Then we went into the cabin and we saw a captain's chest and twenty fighting pirates and we looked out we saw a whirlpool heading straight towards us and since we were under the sea the whirlpool pulled on top of the water. then we were getting bored so we decided we wanted to go to the dinosaur age. we disappeared to a little island we saw Tyrannosaurus rex then we were all back in Form 2.










































WEDNESDAY JUNE 28TH


We made sandcastles on the beach 

I am going to meet mummy 

today we are having exams this week 

it is too dear to buy 

Sweden China 

country tail 

tender street 

share lies 

late dry 

weak poor 

small prinsesses 

countries is 

stories tables men pens manes 






































TUM TUMPTY TUM


Tum tumpty tum 

The cat is playing the drum

Four little mice

Are shaking the ground

Dancing merrily around

Tum- tumpty- tum

The cat is playing the drum

Three little mice are dancing











































[NO NAME]


In the picture of the airport

I can see... a runway,

two planes, a controwl

tower, a cloud

and the ire ii net.














































SEPTEMBER WEDNESDAY 13TH


one day me and Andrew set off on an adventure in a big jungle. We brought a tent a sleeping bag two knives a rope some matches a spear and an axe. We came in a boat we sailed a thousand miles. It took us six days when we landed on the island we were exhausted so we made camp and feel asleep. In my story there were six monkeys a wizard a tiger and an elephant and two snakes. When we awoke we went hunting we brought a spear and the rope. Just as we got out of the tent a snake fell down in front of us. We threw the spear at it he crawled away in pain. When we came back we had killed a tiger. We had seen the wizard yet but when we came back the tent was gone. Remember the wizard. We went out trying to find it AaaaaaaaHH we just feel in an animal trap we threw the rope up some body hang onto it. It was the wizard. We climbed up he invited us to his house. When we got there we saw my tent instead of the sleeping bag. There was lots and lots of chemacals. The wizard said do you like my house. I stole it from some body. It was my tent i said. Then he gave it back to us and we sailed back home and lived happily ever after.







































[NO NAME]


There is a waterfall at the back of our house.

I saw a mural in France.

I lost my blue paints.

Ten plus ten equals twenty.

Our housekeeper is called Joyce.

In our new program there is a Vetacore.

A bomp explodes.

I faded my work.











































WEDNESDAY OCTOBER 4TH


My monster is 12 feet tall and 5 foot wide. 

He weighs 13 stone he is very good and friendly he is as strong as ten tigers. 

He has got five friends and six enemies. 

6100000000 years old he is as fast as a cheetah. 

He is only a friend of alive trees. 

He talks a little bit of English but lots of alien. 

He eats hay and straw and rams horns. 

He has got 1000 hearts. 

He is very well armed he works 12 hours a day. 

he works in  houses. 

his name is Roy the robot. 

He sleeps 3 hours from 6 til 8 and he has got 300 gagats.







































THE LAZY WIND


One day the wind would not blow. 

He said he was too tired so he fell asleep. 

All the flowers died down the boats 

stayed still, the wind mills stayed still 

the trees stopped talking to each other. 

Every body grew sick and hungry.

Who is going to wake him up. 

I will said the crow. He flew up in the clouds. 

Go away said the wind I’ll sleep for weeks. 

When the crow came back the world sulked. 

I have got an idea said the cunning fox. 

Off he went running away. He told 

the wind you can stay asleep 

we have got some body to replace you. 

No I will not stay asleep and he came 

rushing towards them. It’s all right everyone 

the wind is comming they got a lot happy.


































[NO NAME]


I rely like the leaves that fall to the ground

Specele like to push them around

I like the foul moon hai up in the sky

I try to reach it but it’s much too hai

I like the fruits that are on the trees

They fall down with a little breeze.













































FRIDAY OCTOBER 13TH


I have a scar+ that is red and black. 


I have dirty feet and I'll make

footprints on the floor.


I threw a snowball and it landed

in my brothers face. 


I watched a film and a man was

in a snowstorm.


I went outside and it was snow.


Flakes were falling. On Hallowine

wiches makes spells.


My dog did a puddle on my

bedroom floor.


I made a pattern with my spirograph.  































GOOD AND EVIL


Last night at 1. oclock I was sitting up in bed and a dark creature grabbed me by my hand and then came three more. i turned the light on and fainted. They were rielly dangerous. Then four good ones came well I think they were good and I hope they were good ones. They attacked the bad ones with whips. We went off in a big vehicle to a Stone Henge where they lived. one of the bad ones pushed a big stone on top of the vehicle. There were 5 of us we all got out but one still got killed. The good ones were strong. We went and attacked them and we killed them all. 16 more of them came and started to throw rocks at us. They captured all of us and they started to fire guns at us until there was only me and one of the good ones left. Then we escaped and ran away. We made camp and went and attacked them. They killed the good one until there was only me left but 1000000000 more of them came and we killed every bad one on earth.









































GRAND-DARTH'S SHIP


People wondered why Don had chosen to become 

a deep sea diver. There were so many other things 

he could've been. Whatever had put such an idea 

into his mind? "Who suggested is?" he was 

asked. "No-one", Don always replied.














































BLEEP AND BOOSTER


One day Booster made a sonic solidifying gun Bleep thorte it was an earth mouse-trap. It is not a mouse trap said Booster it is a sonic solidifying gun. What can it do. It makes things rock hard look it is nothing and he made Bleep's asteroridade hard. Then he got in his space pod. Commander I've found him he is in deadly danger. He is on planet Gelatanus X he heard a voice help Ime sinking just then Bleep got two ray guns and a back pack. He flew down to the planet and started to shoot the monsters away the ray gun was so hot so it made the planet melt.













































WEDNESDAY NOVEMBER 1ST


One day I was walking in the woods and I saw some popple pushing a little boy around. I went up an tried to stop them. They said to him go and get that delicious apple on that spookey tree and he went and got it. Then the ground started to rumble and lots of ghosts came out and grabbed us. The apple rolled down the hill and fell in to a deep river. And the trees came alive and we got sucked underground then Jamie came along. He saw a big hole in the ground. Just then every thing disappeared and all the bad trees turned into apple trees with lots of apples on. 













































EVERY


We had a snowball fight with the Widgets.

Go and wait with Boris at Ash Rock. – 

The rocks fell from the cliff.

Amanda and Rodey built a snow shelter. 


Rockets fly with a jet of flame.

A train puffs a cloud of steam.

My dad dug an underground tunnel.

My dad was mentioning something about Christmas.


We are going to do fractions in maths.

I got on a train at the station. 

The first one is a boy’s name.

This one is a lady’s name.


This one is the name of a seaside town.

This one is a doctor’s name. 

This one is title of a man.

This one is a question mark. 
































VIKING NAMES


Vikings liked to make up nick-names for people. 

here are some I have made up


Christopher leaker. carrie two teeth.

christophere long nails les.

curly wayne.

nodey claire. 

Big mouth Tony.

No tooth wayne.

Small guy Stewart.

Give a way Tony.

Mrs parr in her wight car.

Mis gab and the Vikings.






































WHEN I WAS BRAVE


One day I pulled a radiator off the wall and I blamed it on my brother. And I was very scared and then we went to Carlisle to do some shopping. And I got lost and I was too scared to go and ask a police man. But I went and did it. And just then my dad found me. Then we went back home and it was dark upstairs and I had to go and get something. And I was too scared and I found my dad's torch and I went and got it and then the batteries went flat and I carried on and I got it and I gave it to my dad and he said it took you a long time and I laughed. Then we went to school Wayne and I climbed up a tree, and I did not want to but I did.












































ADVENTURE ON THE BEACH


One day me and Wayne went camping and we were exploring a beach. We saw two rowing boats. Three men came out with a big chest. It was nearly time to go home. I said lets go and hide and see who they are. and we did. They carried it into a cave then we went back and we went and had a look. But the cave was gone. Wayne said it is dark now lets go back home. Next day we had a look it was still not there. Then we went back.


Just then i stepped on something then we heard a noise. The cave opened we went in and there was no sign of the box. Just then the cave shut and we could not see a thing. The passage way went down a lot further. When we got to the bottom of the cave it was a lot lighter. Then we saw a big box it was two meters long and half a meter high. It was stuck to the ground. We saw a sledge hammer we smashed the box and lots of treasure poured out. We brought the sledge hammer to the other end of the cave and we smashed our way out. There were 10000 pounds all together 5000 each. We got lots and lots of money.






































[NO NAME]


Dark brown is the river

Golden is the sand

It flows along forever

With trees on either hand

Green leaves a-floating

Castles of the foam

Boats of mine a-boating

Where we’ll all come home











































CREEPING IN THE CELLARS


My mum asked me to go down in the cellars to get some washing. I found a piece of string with a stone on it. I put it round my neck. I saw that the stone could fit into a hole in the wall. I turned it and a door opened on the floor. There were some steps going down I started to unwind the ball of string I followed the steps and they lead to a maze. Just then I heard a grunting noise  and fell into a hole. It was full of dead skeletons.














































THE CREEPY HOUSE


One day I was walking along in the woods. Suddenly I came across a house. It was quite a big house but it was in ruins. I went to envestergate and I heard a howling nose I could not find what was making the nose and i was quite afraid. I went back home and Jamie had come to play. I said come over here. We looked out of the window. I caught a glimpce of the house. he said shall we go and have a look at that house. I said alright then, lets go. 


We went down in the woods and explored. Then we saw a vision of a giant spidder. Jamie saw a machine. that's what it was coming from. Then I heard my mum calling me. We went back home. my mum had made some cakes. I was delighted. Just then I tripped over and I fell in a cobweb.










































[NO NAME]


Who has seen the wind?

Neither I nor you:

But when the leaves

Hang trembling

The wind passes thru’.

Who has seen the wind?

Neither you nor I:

But when the trees

Bow down their heads

The wind is passing by.









































THURSDAY MARCH 1ST


He has spines all over him. He has got a nose like a pig. A name for Henry the Hedgehog is urchin, Mr. Prickels and Hedge pig. An adder came up and attacked Henry the Hedgehog but he curled up in a pile and the adder jumped back. Henry’s defence system was working. Eventually the adder died. Henry eats worms and leaves, he dreams of eating little chickens. All winter he hibernates in a pile of leaves and he is very warm.














































NOTE TO READER


I thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiink this is the point where, upon filling the first, red exercise book that the young poet wrote


2

John Tucker

English

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on the front of the first book, then, like making an Escherian shape, wrote on the front of the new, empty, red exercise book:


English

John Tucker

Harecroft Hall

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[NO NAME]


Colour circles red. How many circles?

Colour triangles blue. How many squares?

Colour oblongs orange. How many triangles?
















































MY BICYCLE ACCIDENT


When I was 4 I was on holiday in Sweden. My dad had just bought me a new bike. The new bike was too big for me. I was going down the hill quite fast. The breaks was to pedal backwards but I could not reach the the pedals. Suddenly the bike got faster I had a bad feeling. I did not what to do. I fell head first in a patch of nettles. My mum heard me crying she came. By the time she found me it was ten o’clock. They asked what hapened. I said it was a long story. They said never ride your bike withouta parent.













































MY NIGHT TIME ADVENTURE


One night I was lying in bed and I heard a tapping on the window. I thought it was a branch. I said to myself, it's not a windy night. I looked at my watch it was half past 1 pm. Then I decided to get drest I got a ruck-sack put a packed lunch in it a rope, a compass, a touch, a knife, and a map of our county. I went out the front door. I saw my bedroom light still on so I new which window it was. What was it that was making such a racket. I tied the rope to the knife and threw it to the top of the nearest tree to my bedroom I had another look at the window, there was nothing there perhaps it was a branch. O well I said and climbed up the rope. When I got to the top of the tree I still could not see what it was that was making such a nose. Just then i heard a halfdead mouse lying on the windowsill I jumped to the windowsill, climbed down the rope, went in the house and went to my bed.









































THE THIEF


Once a woman lost a lovely brooch. She hunted everywhere but could not find it. So she asked the police to send a detective to her house to assist her. The detective climbed the stairs to the room where the brooch had been kept. Soon he came down. I believe the brooch is in the jackdaw's nest in that tall tree," he said. He brought a ladder and climbed the tree. With the brooch safe in his pocket he descended. I knew where to look, because the bird left marks on your dressing table he explained. 













































THURSDAY MAY 24TH


At midnight I was lying in bed. I could not get to sleep. Just then I heard some body walking very quietly across the stones on are drive. At first I was scared stiff and then I plucked up some courage and crept along the floor to the light switch I turned it on carefully not to make a nose. I got dressed. Then I looked through the window I could not anything because it was too dark. I looked at my watch it was 1:32 AM . I have got lots of time I said to my self I put my shoes on and went downstairs to get some food to eat. When I got downstairs I heard the noise again. I thought to myself, theres something suspicious going on then I heard jogging footsteps coming towards the kitchen. Just then a masked murderer came in through the door with a machine gun i pulled the rug that he was standing on and he fell down on the floor. Then I sprinted up stairs to tell my dad what had happened. At first he did not believe me. Then I said come and see for your self. He got out of bed and got dressed and got the firepoker. He went down stairs with me. We got in the kitchen but he wasn't there. We heard a voice from behind us he said hands up busters turn around dead slowly i grabbed the firepoker turned rond and knocked him out with it. My dad ran to the phone and dialled 999. A minute later the police were here. They came in. We showed them what had happened they said he is very dangerous they also said that his name was called Mike the murderar. 




































THURSDAY MAY 31ST


When the stork and the fox. were sitting in the house and eating their dinner. The fox could not eat every bit of it because it was on plates. Even though the stalk could not eat it he still was polite. When they finished the stalk asked if he would come to my house for dinner. Verey well said the fox. The very next day he did as the stork said and went to his house for dinner the stork put  a very well cooked lunch into two long vases so the stork could get the food but not the fox














































WEDNESDAY MAY 30TH


I think that the picture wood be O.K. for 11 – 12 year olds to play in.


Last year they were building a new house near us. I went after school to look at it w/ my little sister. Her name is Emaly. It was very interesting. We saw four builders two were in the house, one climbing up a ladder and the last one was wheeling a wheel barrow. We allso saw lots of bricks and cement. The best thing was the scaffolding. My little sister is quite nautghy. She allso loves climbing things. The first thing she said was 'I am going to climb the scaffolding.” “You mustn't go up there!” I shouted. I am going to go up there. Just then when she got to the top she fell.


She cried “HELP”. There was an enormous thud. I ran as fast as I could home, diled 999 and asked for the Ambulance. They came in a flash and took her to hospital. 








































BEING IN A HUFF


One Saturday when I was just about to go out 

my dad came into the porch where I was 

and saw a scribbly picture on the wall 

and a black felt tip pen beside it. He said John 

why have you drawn on the wall? I said 

it wasn’t me it was Hannah. I’ll take ten pounds 

out of your pocket money towards some new 

wall paper. I ran up stairs and locked myself in my

bed room. In the end he found out it was 

Hannah and didn’t take the money away.









































[NO NAME]


Wolf to shut

Holiday to wash

Marry to fix

Glass


Child the wind-

Fox blows through


Tooth the trees

Clock the rain

Shoe falls

Against the window










































JOHN TUCKER

FORM 3

HARECROFT

ENGLISH














































MY BROTHER


He is five years old.

His hair is straight and blond.

He has small blue eyes.

He has got a plump face and a plump nose.

He is terrified of snakes.

He likes to were colourful clothes.

He is very funny some times.

Sometimes he gets into terrible tempers.

He is kind and soft.

His favourite hobby is football.

He does not like playing cricket.

His favourite food is fish and chips.

His favourite couler is Blue.

He can not swim.

He likes traveling.

He likes Jive Bunny music and Star Wars films. 

He collects butter flies and Moths.

He is a good climber.

His name is Robert.

He has got a big mouth.

He talks a lot.

He likes making people laugh.

He hates having his photograph

he has got a good imagination.



























SMELLS


Why is it that poets tell

So little of the cence of smell?

These are the odours I love well.

The smell of coffee freshly ground

Or rich plum pudding, holly crowend,

Or onions fried and deeply browend

The fragrance of a fumy pipe

The smell of applles, newly ripe

And printers ink on leaden type.

Woods by moonlite in September

Breath most sweet and I remember

Many a smoky camp fire ember

Camphor, turpentine, and tea

The balsom of a Christmas tree

These are whiffs of grammerye

A ship smells best of all to me.



































THE MONTHS OF THE YEAR 


January brings the snow;

Makes our toes and fingers glow.


February brings the rain,

Thaws the frozen ponds again.


March brings breezes loud and shrill,

Stirs the dancing daffodil.


April brings the primrose sweet,

Scatters daisies at our feet.


May brings flocks of pretty lambs,

Skipping by their fleecy dams.


June brings tullips lillies roses;

Fills the childrens hands with posies.


Hot July brings cooling showers,

Straw berries and gilly flowers.


August brings the sheaves of corn,

Then the harvest home is borne.


Warm September brings the fruit,

Sports men then begin to shoot.


Fresh October brings the Peasant,

Then to gather nuts is pleasent.


Dull November brings the blast

Then the leaves are falling fast.


Chill December brings the sleet,

Blazing fire and Christmas treat.
















MY DAD


When I see beer it reminds me of my dad when he is drunk and when I see a police man it reminds me of the time my dad lost his drivers license. When I see shoes it reminds me of my dad's smelly feet. My dad is the sort of person who tells you not to put your elbows on the table when he does it himself and my dad tells me not to ride my bike on the garden flowers when once he reversed the car on them. My dad helps me with my prep and most of the time I get it wrong. Sometimes my dad acts as he is three years old but he is really forty-one. When I say “I should play soccer for the England team” he just says “some chance.”












































[NO NAME]


If I had a lollipop tree

I'de be as happy as can be.

I' would sit by it all day long

Eating away until there nearly gone

I'de say “that's enough lollies for today

But I'll come back to morrow and eat away.  













































SIX INCHES HIGH


I was sitting on the sofa drinking lemon-ade when suddenly I felt funny and then I started shrinking and shrinking till I was six inches high. I fell down on the sofa w/ a plod. I climbed down a loose string on to the ground and then started walking across to the chess board I had left lying around. Suddenly I herd something that sounded like me beating up my brother. I looked around me but at first I couldn't see anybody but then I saw a chess pawn hanging w/ all his might on the chess board for he was just about to fall on the ground which was a long way down. He slipped and I ran and caught him, but just then a big rat came running out from under a sofa so I ran w/ the pawn as fast as I could and dived into a mouse hole which the rat couldn't fit in. We couldn't get out because the rat was guarding the hole so we sat down and talked. He said his name was “Humph”. He said he could get me back to my normal size but he would need help from more chess pieces. Humph said “When it is 7. 00, if you sit on the same sofa you shrunk on w/ all the chess pieces you will grow back to your normal size. I looked at my watch. I was 6. 30 and 56 seconds. We didn't have much time so we looked around for something to fight the rat w/. Just then Humph found the perfect thing. An old toothbrush. I got my pen-knife out of my pocket and sharpend the end of the tooth brush w/ no bristles on. Then I cut off all the bristles on the other end and started fighting the rat w/ the toothbrush. The rat was soon dead so we brought the toothbrush and went to look for the other chess pieces. We soon gatherd them all together and told them every thing. It was 6. 58 and 37 seconds so we all ran as fast as we could towards the sofa. I was the first one up followd by the white pawns then the two queens then the kings then the blakc pawns then the bishop then the rooks and last of all the knits. We counted them all. There was only 31 pieces. There was a little pawn trying to get up on the sofa so I jumped down and lifted him up. I grew back to my normal size but there was no chess pices. I put the rest of the lemonade I had been drinking before in the bin and went to sleep. When I woke up I thought I had been dreaming but then I found the toothbrush and went back to sleep. 



























APRIL


In April it is the beginning of Spring. 

The daffodils are waving their yellow heads in the wind. 

In the gardens and in the woods Catkins, 

that look like lambs tails are dangling 

from the branches on bushes in the hedges. 

The days are gradually getting longer. 

We have many showers. 

It is my birthday in April. 

The first of April is called “April Fools day. 

We play tricks on people that day. 

The buds on trees are swelling and oppening. 

The birds are coming back from the hot countries. 







































THE BIGGEST LIAR IN THE WORLD


A long time ago in Japan, I saw a funny looking man walk out of a big bubbling volcano. He had three eyes but that was the only difference between him and us. He wore a mask that was made from white metal, his sweat-shirt was white, his trousers were white, his high leather boots were black. He had black gloves with spikes sticking out about seven inches but the most peculiar thing about him was that around his shoulder was a big gun. It had all sorts of gizmoes that shoot lasers, fire, water, poison, spoof, bullets, you name it. So I went up to him and asked him “What's your name?” He said “Wotsit”. I asked “where do you come from?” He said “Fingermebobdownthevolcano!” I said “what's the gun for?” He said “first let me tell you a secret.” He said he's the biggest liar in his country. He said once that thousands of little aliens attacked his country, he said that he blew them all away with three blasts of his gun. He also said he was God's messenger and had helped God to make the world and had stayed alive ever since. The real truth is I am the biggest liar...this whole story's codswallop. 







































[NO NAME]


Pod: God morning


Fat Guy: No it isn't


Pod: Why not?


Fat Guy: Because I said not 


Pod: But why did you say not. 


Fat Guy: I didn't say not, I said no it isn't. so what

I've got something to tell you. Guess what?


Fat Guy: what


Pod: Your...erm, er....a

 clot and I'm not. 


































[NO NAME]


MY DOG HAS GOT NO BRAIN,

MY DOG IS A TOTAL PAIN,

HE'S GOT THREE EYES

AND A BIG FAT NOSE

AND GETS HIMSELF TANGLED

WITH THE GARDEN HOSE,

HE ONCE TOOK A PILL

THAT MADE HIM ILL

AND EVER SINCE THEN

HE'S BEEN STANDING VERY STILL














































Book 4 of the boyhood proof















































THE HORRIBLE HUNTER”


The hunter, a horrible old man,

Is hunting in the forest, every moment he can.

Searching for foxes, with his hunting dogs,

Charging through the dark, dark forest,

Through rivers and through bogs.

Only his prey can see his eyes,

He never looks up to the sky.

He's a finger missing with a scar on his face,

He lives his life in awful disgrace.

His dead prey is hooked onto his jacket,

When he kills it makes an awful racket.

He puts out his snapping snares,

hoping to catch foxes and hares.

He lives in a small, tobacco smelling hut,

Deep in the forest it is put

He's got a small patch of hair,

And a horrible hypnotizing stare.

As a bullet is pulled from his belt,

You're bound to hear an animal's yelp.
































A DEADLY CHARM


I am a padlock: who locks up your thoughts,

I am pollution: that blackens yourheart,

I am electricity: fast, furious and frightening,

I am a machine gun: looking for a kill,

I am a politician: dizzy, dazzled and dazed,

I am a radio: that speaks of death,

I am the concrete: that stiffens your body,

I am the computer: that controls the world,

I am dynamite: who always gets his way,

I am a micro-chip: small but clever,

I am a missile: roaring through the air,

I am a rocket: somewhere up there,

I am a drink machine: wasting your money,

I am a digital watch: who but I, is telling

you the time as the hours go by?




































[NO NAME]


My cage walls are nearly pressing in at my sides.


There are multi-coloured giants stroking me and treating melike a baby.


There is a deaffening sound of birds humming in a corner.


It turns dark emmediately, by a touch of a button.


All the captured animals around me probably have the same, agonizing feeling as I do.


I feel like running away when people take me out of my cage and cuddle me.


I feel likeI've been imprisoned in a jail for no reason.


I always feel like staring at the masive, multi-coloured men, mechanically moving.




































THE BADGER [draft 2]


As soon as I was imprisoned, inside my cage,

A happy feeling vanished from my mind,

It was a feeling of roaming, round the countryside,

Catching my own prey, chasing mice and digging in burrows.

But now I feel like I've been jailed for no reason.

I suppose all the other animals here

have the same agonising feeling that I have.

It seems quite weird, the massive, multi-coloured men,

Making it turn night by a touch of a little white button on a wall.

When all the humans have gone at night,

And the birds have stopped twittering,

I try to escape but I don't think a mouse

Could squeeze through the gaps in the bars.

But one day someone took me away.

He tried to tame me. I didn't want him to

but I gradually became tamer and tamer.

It was a lot better than in the pet shop,

But not as good as the forest.

I doubt anything is as good as the forest.   
































THE INTERVIEW ON MY MUM


J. What is the most important event that's happened in your life?


    M Giving birth to four healthy children.


J. Why is that so important to you?


    M I myself came from a family of four children and there was always something going on, so when I came to have children myself, I thought it would be nice to have four.


J. What sort of things went on?


    M One thing is that when there are four of you, you always have someone to talk to or play with. I was the oldest and my sister and brother who were very close in age, used to get up to some terrible things like once they made porridge on the floor and once they put crispbread under the rug and walked on it just to hear it go crunch. My grandmother called them 'the termites'.


J. Are your children like your siblings?


M. A little bit. I think if you put four young children together one of them will think of something dreadful to do. My son once tried to teach the cat how to swim in a bucket of water.































THE TYGER


What kind of creature is the Tyger? I think God made the Tyger and ment him to be a normal tiger but the devil caught him and hypnotised him against God. I think the Devil puts him in everyone's dreams. I think he is just an image ment to come at the right time to take control of there brains I think he is a ghost of a normal tiger but the Devil turned him evil. I think the Tyger is an angel of Hell. He is not tangible because it says “what dread grasp? Dare its deadly tendon clasp?” I think it came from Hell by wings because it says, “In what distant deeps or skies burnt the fire of thine eyes,” and “On what wings dare he aspire.” I think the Devil stole the minds of all the criminals and made the Tyger from them. I think the Tyger is immortal and turns your dreams to nightmares.











































From ‘PAGE 11’


1. Area of whole shape = 80 CM squared

Area of unshaded part = 4 CM squared

Area of shaded part = 76 CM squared


2. Area of whole shape = 72 CM squared

Area of unshaded part = 8 CM squared

Area of shaded part = 64 CM squared












































EQUATIONS


(1) 3 a + 4 = 2 a + 8

(2) 4 b + 4 = 1 b + 7

(3) 5 a + 3 = 2 a + 12

(4) 5 b + 1 = 3 b + 11

(5) 7 c + 3 = 3 c + 31

(6) 7 y + 1 = 3 y + 25

(7) 11 c + 9 = 8 c + 24

(8) 7 b + 12 = 1 b + 24

(9) 3 t + 5 = 2 t + 12

(10) 5 b + 10 = 2 b + 19









































SYSTEMS 11TH MAY


1. 211

2112 ATTRACTOR

2122

1132

211213

312213

212223

114213

31121314

41122314

31221324

__________

21322314

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WHINNIE'S CHOICE


I'm awake very early but it is light, and very hot outside. I'm seventeen todayand I've been thinking about it all night but decided not to drink the water. I would lose a lot of my friends and relatives and would feel alien. I could jumpoff the Empire State Building for billions of pounds but friends are better than money. Anyway, my grandmother believes in gnomes so she could advise me somehow. I asked her, “Grandma, if there was a spring in the wood with everlasting water in it would you drink it?”


Whatever made you ask that question?”


But would you?”


Well probably and probably not. There are lots of disadvantages and only a few advantages.”


After that I went into my room to think about it. If I did drink it, now would be the best time to do it because I'm at the prime of my life and I have Jesse. I might as well take Tuck's advice because he's drunk the water and experienced it so I don't think I'll drink the water. Anyway I'll go out there and I might change my mind. The spring looked so lovely but something was different. Then I noticed that there was a stone missing from the top. The water looked so delicious and fresh that I walked up to it, took another stone off the top, was just about to drink it when a traveller came.


Hello,” he said. “Could you please direct me to Treegap?”


It's just down this road,” I said.


When he had gone I took another stone and again I would have drunk it if it weren't for the toad. He was sitting in the spring bathing. So I thought it over again.it was like a war in my head between Jesse and Tuck, with me not knowing which side to take. Then I thought that God might've tried to stop me and that God had told the traveller and the toad to disturb me when I was going to drink the water. So I've made up my mind. I won't drink the water.






















THE BEAST


The Beast was quick as lightning,

Strong as an ox and very frightening,

Cunning as a fox, tough as leather,

Hungry as a hunter and not very clever.


He is as large as life, as swift as a hare,

Keen as mustard, he'll give you a scare,

Don't go near it at half past three,

Because that's the time it will have you for tea.










































NIGHT (BEDTIME)


Mum said, “It's time to go to bed,”

I said “C'mon not yet.”

She said “It's half past eleven, dear,

And tomorrow's school don't forget.”


Underneath my pillow was food for a midnight feast,

I can hear an owl hooting and the shuffling of feet,

Making shadows on the wall,

Which is the spookiest of them all.


Dogs barking and dad is snoring,

Lying in bed is very boring,

Thinking of chocolate and soda crème,

Nothing to do except to dream.





































MY WORLD


My world would be a chocolate factory in the clouds. It would be completely made of chocolate and if you ate a wall it would just grow back. It is invisible to any other people and only certain people can get there. The weather is always what you want it to be and if you want it to rain, snow or shine it will happen. There is a chocolate fun world as well and it is called Choc World. You can walk all over the clouds and look down at any place in the world and if you want to go there you can just take the Choc-mobile down to earth.













































RELIGION


Dear Family,


I hope you are all feeling well. I have got some very bad news to tell you. I may never see you again. I'm very sorry but I've got to go into hiding somewhere where no-one will find me. All of Jesus' followers that are in danger are coming because we could be killed by Saul. I don't want to go, but I have to and I'm not allowedto tell you where so that you're not in danger as well. We have to get together and all go disguised at night time. I have two messengers that I can trust to bring us food and news safely. Just to make you more secure, I'll tell you that I have enough food and a good warm shelter.


Lots of love,

John.







































PRIVATE


Squawk squawk gaggle gaggle,

squawk squawk gaggle gaggle,

squawk squawk gaggle gaggle,

squawk squawk gaggle gaggle,


bongles has still got the stones,

bongles has still got the stones,

bongles has still got the stones,

bongles has still got the stones.


Squawk squawk gaggle gaggle,

squawk squawk gaggle gaggle,

squawk squawk gaggle gaggle,

squawk squawk gaggle gaggle,


bongles has still got the stones,

bongles has still got the stones,

bongles has still got the stones,

bongles has still got the stones.
































FRAGMENTS FROM THE ROAD TO HEAVEN BY NOJ AND THE MOB


L to the pregnant snorkel + Ossie the dog,

he should be sleeping like a log,

goes round and round chasing his own tail,

only goes upstairs for a trail,

of Maltesers nice round and pale,

we’re on the road to Heaven,

happiness awaits us there, flutter

in the sideways, flutter in the sideways,

bring your brief fling with the politics of flight.

Sullen silken sulks, we drink the same

rain, spit is clean and so is dirt.

Normal is boring. Do it later.

God made speed to save us,

God made hash to help us.

Fuck the system. Even a dick

gets big erections. The sun hanged

himself from a length of daisy chain.

Clocktick clock being clocked off by clocktick.

Clocktick clock not being clocked off by Time.

The Universal Mind’s moon meat man might.

The Universal Mind’s moon meat man meant.

The Universal Mind’s moon meat man met.

Break, bird with the skin of snake.

God rushed into the cold cod quick.















































































V


CHOCOLATE DOG


















































CHOCOLATE DOG


I


MY DOG HAS GOT NO BRAIN,

MY DOG IS A TOTAL PAIN,

HE'S GOT THREE EYES

AND A BIG FAT NOSE

AND GETS HIMSELF TANGLED

WITH THE GARDEN HOSE,

HE ONCE TOOK A PILL

THAT MADE HIM ILL

AND EVER SINCE THEN

HE'S BEEN STANDING VERY STILL.







































II


MY DOG HAS LOST SOME WEIGHT,

MY DOG IS MY ONLY MATE, 

HE’S GOT FIVE HANDS 

AND A FURRY BUM 

AND HE DREAMS OF BI-

SEXUAL CHEWING-GUM,

HE ONCE HAD A CUP 

OF SWEET TEA TO SUP 

AND EVER SINCE THEN 

HE’S NOT DONE THE WASHING UP…









































III


MY DOG GETS IN MY BED,

MY DOG GETS IN MY HEAD,

IT’S LIKE HE REQUIRES

LONG GUIDED TOURS 

IN A COLD MUSEUM 

FULL OF DINOSAURS, 

WHEN I FEED HIM TEA

HE BECOMES HAPPY 

AND THEN FOR A WHOLE, WHITE WHILE 

HE DOESN’T THINK OF ME. 









































IV


MY DOG HAS BEEN LET OUT,

MY DOG DOESN’T MESS ABOUT,

HE LIFTS HIS BACK LEG

BY THE CUT DOWN TREE

AND STANDS AROUND 

HAVING A NICE LONG WEE, 

THEN COMES BACK IN

LIKE THERE IS NO SIN 

AND LOOKS FOR TASTY TREATS 

IN THE HEAVING KITCHEN BIN. 









































V


MY DOG LIES ON THE FLOOR,

MY DOG IS LICKING HIS PAW, 

I’M SURE HE’D LOVE 

SOME MORE FOOD TO EAT, 

AND I’M SURE HE’D PREFER

A NICE MEATY TREAT 

TO THE PASTA DISH 

THAT’S MY MOTHER’S WISH 

AND HE ALSO HAS A TASTE 

FOR DELICIOUS BUTTERED FISH. 









































VI


MY DOG IS VERY DEAR, 

MY DOG IS ALWAYS NEAR, 

HE FOLLOWS ME AROUND

WHEREVER I MAY GO

IN FACT YOU COULD SAY

HE’S MY NEW SHADOW,

HE ONCE GOT ABUSED

AND IS NOW CONFUSED 

AND EVER SINCE THEN 

HIS CRIMES HAVE BEEN EXCUSED. 









































VII


MY DOG LIES ON HIS SIDE, 

MY DOG IS A PLACE TO HIDE, 

NOW HE BARKS AT ME

FOR SOME MORE SWEET TEA 

AND I MIGHT OBLIGE 

QUITE IMMINENTLY

BUT BEFORE I DO

I SHOULD IMPART TO YOU 

THAT IT ALWAYS MAKES HIM NEED

TO MAKE THE CARPET A LOO. 









































VIII


MY DOG IS HIGHLY BRIGHT, 

MY DOG LIKES TO TRAVEL LIGHT, 

NOW HE LICKS HIS LIPS 

FOR HE’S HAD HIS TEA, 

AND FOR HIM IT WOULD SEEM 

THAT THE WATER’S FREE, 

HE LOVES ME TRUE 

WHICH IS MORE THAN YOU 

IN CRUFTS AS IT IS IN THE BLACK 

ANGEL’S DEATH SONG TOO. 









































IX


MY DOG IS SPOILED AS HELL, 

MY DOG IS ALLOWED TO SMELL, 

AND HE BARKS AND BARKS

WHEN HE WANTS MORE TEA

AND HE ALWAYS GETS

WHAT HE WANTS FROM ME, 

HE’S GOT A TEA BOWL, 

IN THE LITTLE HOLE 

OF OUR BEDROOM HERE

WHERE I INTERROGATE MY SOUL. 









































X


MY DOG HAS SEVENTY WORDS,

MY DOG IS AS CLEVER AS THE BIRDS,

HE CAN HEAL THE SOUL 

WITH UNCOMPLICATED LOVE

WHEN YOU’RE CRASHING DOWN 

FROM A PERMANENT DOVE,

AND THE BOOK WITH SMELL

IS HIS WORD AS WELL 

THOUGH IT SMELLS OF HER 

LIKE A FLOWER STRAIGHT FROM HELL.









































XI


MY DOG WANTS A BOWL OF TEA,

MY DOG COMES NAGGING ME,

BUT WHAT HE DOESN’T KNOW

IS THE SUGAR’S RUN OUT,

AND HE’S NOT EXACTLY

GOING TO LIKE IT WITHOUT,

THIS COULD BE A CHANCE 

IN THE MIDDLE OF A TRANCE

TO RENOUNCE THE BAD HABIT 

AND MAKE THIS INTO A STANCE. 









































XII


MY DOG IS RATHER WEIRD,

MY DOG HAS A TEA-STAINED BEARD, 

HE GOES OFF PADDING 

TO THE ROOM NEXT DOOR 

TO HUNT FOR MUM’S FOOD

AND MORE AND MANY MORE 

AND HE GOBBLES HER PUD

AND IT TASTES QUITE GOOD

IT’S STRAWBERRIES AND ICE CREAM 

BECAUSE HE THINKS HE SHOULD.









































XIII


MY DOG EMITS A LITTLE MOAN, 

MY DOG EMITS A LITTLE GROAN, 

AND HE FOLLOWS ME OUT 

WHEN I GO FOR A SMOKE 

BECAUSE HE WANTS SOME TEA 

FROM THE GENEROUS BLOKE

BUT I MUST BE STRONG 

AND WRITE ANOTHER SONG 

WITHOUT CAVING IN TO HIM 

BECAUSE THAT WOULD BE WRONG.  









































XIV


MY DOG WILL NAG TONIGHT,

HE’LL WANT TO FEEL ALRIGHT,

TO SUP SWEET TEA 

FROM THE BEDROOM BOWL

AS I SIT AND WRITE FAST 

AND TEND TO MY SOUL, 

BUT I’LL TRY AND REFRAIN 

THOUGH IT MIGHT MEAN PAIN 

FOR MY POOR OLD DOG, 

RECEIVED UP IN HIS BRAIN. 









































XV


MY DOG HAS GOT WET FEET, 

MY DOG ISN’T BEING DISCRETE,

HE COMES PADDING IN 

FROM THE GARDEN WHERE 

HE SUPS ON DELICIOUS 

AND SENTIENT AIR 

AND IT RAINS AND RAINS

SO HE LEAVES BLACK STAINS

AND HE’LL NEVER PLUG 

HIS SENSES IN THE MAINS. 









































XVI


MY DOG KEEPS LOOKING AT ME,

MY DOG IS NOW SUPPING TEA, 

THERE’S ALWAYS A CUP 

IN MY DOING HAND 

EVER SINCE I LEFT 

MY LAST ROCK N ROLL BAND, 

IN MONOPOLY JAIL 

WHERE TIME IS A SNAIL

THERE’S NOTHING ELSE TO DO,

TO STOP LOVE GOING STALE. 









































XVII


MY DOG DOESN’T THANK ME AT ALL,

MY DOG THINKS I’M LANKY AND TALL,

HE’S A DESPERATE DOG

WITH A VERY SWEET TOOTH

AND PREFERS CANDY-COATING 

TO THE NAKED TRUTH, 

HE’LL BE DREAMING SOON, 

UNDER NEATH THE MOON, 

OF A FOUNTAIN OF SWEET TEA

SPRUNG INSIDE THE NOON. 









































XVIII


MY DOG HAS A COLLAR ON, 

MY DOG IS NOT CALLED JOHN, 

BUT APART FROM THAT 

MY DOG IS TRULY FREE

AND TO BE FAIR TO HIM 

HE’S ALWAYS THERE FOR ME, 

HE’S A REALLY CLASS ACT

AND AS A MATTER OF FACT 

HE CIRCUMNAVIGATES MY ILLNESS

WITH IMPECCABLE EXTANT TACT. 









































XIX


MY DOG BELONGS TO JAMES,

MY DOG SHOULDN’T COME TO NAMES,

NOW QUENCHED AND SATED

HE LIES ON THE FLOOR 

AND PRAYS IN HIS STOMACH 

FOR A LITTLE BIT MORE, 

JAMES COMES IN TO SAY 

TO ME “ARE YOU OKAY?”

AND OF COURSE I RESPOND 

I’M FEELING ALRIGHT TODAY. 









































XX


MY DOG IS LEFT BEHIND,

MY DOG IS NEARLY BLIND, 

QUITE SOON HE WILL DIE, 

LIE DOWN IN GREEN GRASS

AND WATCH AS THE POWERS 

THAT BE COME TO PASS, 

AND SMILE AND DREAM

AND THEN IT WILL SEEM

MY DOG HAS ALREADY HAD

HIS FINAL BOWL OF CREAM. 









































XXI


MY DOG DRINKS FROM THE BOG,

MY DOG IS A VERY STRANGE DOG,

HE DRIPS AND DRIPS

ON THE TOILET FLOOR, 

AND MAKES IT WET

BECAUSE OF HIS FUR, 

I THINK HE’D RATHER SEE

A CUP OF SWEET TEA

BUT HE’S NOT DUE ONE OF THOSE 

UNTIL HE HAS ANOTHER WEE. 









































XXII


MY DOG HAS JUST WOKEN ME UP,

MY DOG WANTS TEA TO SUP,

HE BARKS AND BARKS 

UNTIL HE GETS HIS WAY 

AND TO BE FAIR I SHOULDN’T SLEEP 

THROUGH THE TRANSIENT DAY, 

AND JUST BEFORE I AWOKE, 

AND THIS IS NO JOKE

I WAS DREAMING OF HIM, 

AND NOW I CAN GO FOR A SMOKE. 









































XXIII


MY DOG HAS QUIETENED DOWN,

MY DOG THINKS DEATH A CLOWN, 

HE’S GOT WHAT HE WANTS

FOR BUT HALF AN HOUR, 

TO HIM IT’S LIKE THE MAIDEN 

TRAPPED IN THE TOWER, 

WHEN I FEED HIM TEA, 

HE BARKS FULL OF GLEE, 

AND THEN WE CAN ALL LIVE SO

MERRILY MERRILY MERRILY. 









































XXIV


MY DOG LIES ON THE FLOOR,

MY DOG CRIES OUT FOR MORE, 

SO I FEED HIM SOME TEA

IN HIS FAVOURITE BOWL

BUT THE SUGAR IS ROTTING 

MY TEETH AND MY SOUL, 

AND I WANT TO GIVE UP,

AND LIFT THE F.A. CUP 

FULL OF SWEET CHAMPAGNE 

AND HAVE A PROPER SUP. 









































XXV


MY DOG IS TRYING TO BE SICK,

MY DOG IS NOT A GARDEN BRICK,

HE LIES ON THE FLOOR

STRETCHING OUT AS HE PLEASES,

AND MY MOTHER IN ANOTHER 

ROOM, WELL, SHE SNEEZES,

AND MY DOG IS RENEWED 

AND I AM BUT THE DUDE 

AND I WOULDN’T BE SURPRISED 

IF MY LIFE’S WORK IS ESCHEWED. 









































XXVI


MY DOG HAS ALL SHUT UP,

MY DOG ISN’T NAGGING FOR A CUP 

HE WILL WET THE BED 

IF I FEED HIM SOME TEA 

SO IT’S NOT A GOOD IDEA 

IF IT’S DOWN TO ME 

TO TAKE HIM OUTSIDE 

WHEN HE LIES BY MY SIDE 

AND SO BY THE NEW HOUSE RULES

HE’S GOING TO HAVE TO ABIDE.









































XXVII


MY DOG HAS GONE TO SLEEP,

MY DOG HAS SUNK TO THE DEEP,

WHAT HE’S DREAMING OF 

I JUST DON’T KNOW 

INJECTING SMACK IN THE 

UNIVERSAL MIND WITH SNOW

HE’S A VERY GOOD BOY 

AND HE’S NOT A TOY 

AND HE FILLS THE HEART 

WITH A PLEASING BIT OF JOY. 









































XXVIII


MY DOG LIES ON MY BED,

MY DOG IS NOT ALCHEMICAL LEAD,

BUT HE SEEMS TO BE SLEEPING 

LIKE LENNON’S LOG 

AND A DOG IS A DOG 

IS A DOG IS A DOG,

AND I’VE WEANED HIM OFF TEA,

AND THE TERRIBLE GLEE 

THAT HE FEELS ABOUT THAT 

SO I SEEM TO HAVE SET HIM FREE.









































XXIX


MY DOG WAKES IN THE NIGHT,

MY DOG BLINKS IN THE LIGHT,

AND HE PADS OUT THE DOOR 

TO THE LANDING WHERE 

THERE’S A PILE OF TOWELS 

AT THE TOP OF THE STAIR 

AND HE STARTS TO BARK 

IN THIS HOUR OF DARK 

OUTSIDE MY MATE’S ROOM 

PREFIGURING THE SONG OF THE LARK.









































XXX


MY DOG NEEDS TO EAT SOMETHING,

MY DOG IS THE OPPOSITE OF BLING,

SO HE LEADS ME DOWNSTAIRS 

TO THE CUPBOARD WITH THE SNACKS

AND I FEED HIM SOME TREATS

AND WE’VE STILL GOT STACKS,

NOW WE’RE BACK IN MY ROOM,

AT THE FOOT OF BLACK COMBE,

WHERE THE DAY HAS LARGELY BEEN 

A DAY OF MONASTIC GLOOM.









































XXXI


MY DOG IS WHINGING FOR MORE,

MY DOG KNOWS I’M WEAK TO THE CORE,

FOR HOWEVER MANY TIMES 

I RESOLVE TO NOT FEED 

THE DOG SWEET TEA 

I SUCCUMB TO HIS GREED, 

AS I HAVE DONE TONIGHT,

WHILE I SIT HERE AND WRITE, 

AND TRY TO MAKE IT SEEM 

FOREVER TRUE AND QUITE. 









































XXXII


MY DOG LIVES IN DOG TIME,

MY DOG’S NOT THE GODFATHER OF GRIME,

HE NEVER SAID A CLOCK 

IS ONLY AS FAST AS A CHEETAH,

NOR EVER GOT DRUNK 

ON COLD WIFEBEATER, 

BUT HE’S LEARNING TRUST,

WHICH SEEMS A MUST, 

IN THIS FAR-OUT GALAXY 

OF SEEMINGLY ENDLESS DUST.









































XXXIII


MY DOG IS WHITE AND GREY,

MY DOG IS HERE TO STAY, 

AND IF I. T MIGHT STAND 

FOR INSTANT TRAVEL TOO

IT COULD BE THE WAY 

I USED TO TRY AND BREAK THROUGH,

BUT MY DOG JUST LIES DOWN,

THREE MILES FROM TOWN, 

AT THE FOOT OF THE OLDEST FELL 

WHERE THE BRACKEN IS STILL BROWN. 









































XXXIV


MY DOG IS USED TO TREATS,

MY DOG HAS A WORLD WITH NO STREETS,

AND THE GARDEN IS HIS 

ECO-TOILET OUT THERE, 

IT’S GONDWANALAND-GREEN, 

FULL OF FRESH, COUNTRY AIR,

SOME ONE MILE FROM THE SEA

WITHOUT A TRACE OF ENNUI 

WHICH SEEMS TO ONE AND ALL 

A PRIVILEGED PLACE TO BE. 









































XXXV


MY DOG HAS CURLED UP AGAIN, 

MY DOG MIGHT LEAVE THE MATTRESS A STAIN,

BUT IT’S THE PRICE YOU PAY,

FOR ALLOWING HIM NICE THINGS,

LIKE POOR FLORA WOULD REQUIRE 

A NEST AND DIAMOND RINGS,

WHICH I CANNOT PROVIDE, 

AND I STILL HAVE TO HIDE 

WHAT MY CONSCIENCE REALLY MAKES 

OF THE IDEAL COSMIC BRIDE. 









































XXXVI


MY DOG HAS GRANTED ME PEACE,

MY DOG IS A MIDNIGHT RELEASE, 

IF YOU DON’T KNOW WHETHER LUCY 

IN THE SOUL WITH DEMONS 

EVEN HAPPENS TO BE 

AN ACTUAL SUBSTANCE, 

THEN MY DOG CAN HEAL, 

IN THE HEART OF THE REAL, 

WHEN NOTHING MAKES SENSE 

AND YOU’VE GROWN TOO NUMB TO FEEL. 









































XXXVII


MY DOG IS LYING QUITE STILL, 

MY DOG’S NOT GONE UNDER THE HILL, 

IF HE’S A SYMBOL OF SOMETHING 

IT COULD BE GRAVITY,

HUMOUR OR KATABASIS, 

BUT HE SEEMS REAL TO ME, 

WHEN THEY SHAVE HIS FUR

LIKE MY OLD DRUG-SLUR

HE LOOKS LIKE A CARTOON 

AND MY BROTHER WOULD CONCUR. 









































XXXVIII


MY DOG HAS HAD TO GRAPPLE,

MY DOG IS LIKE CEZANNE’S APPLE,

HE DOESN’T FLOAT ON 

THE ARTIFICE OF ORGANIC 

EMOTIONS THROUGH 

SOUNDS THAT ARE SYNTHETIC 

BUT THE MUSIC I PLAY 

SOMETIMES TAKES HIM AWAY 

FROM THE SITTING ROOM TO

A FURTHER, BRIGHTER DAY. 









































XXXIX


MY DOG IS A BEAUTIFUL MOOD, 

MY DOG HELPS HIMSELF TO THE FOOD,

HE STARTED LIFE WHEN I 

WAS BUT SEVEN AND FOUND 

AN OBJECT BROWN AND 

PERFUMED AND ROUND 

AND COULD NOT TELL 

AT THE FOOT OF THE FELL 

WHAT ON EARTH IT WAS  

AND WROTE OF IT AS WELL. 









































XL


MY DOG SEEMS ALL I NEED,

MY DOG HAS NOT YET WEED, 

HE’S IN A PLACID MOOD

AND HE COULD BE A WAY 

OF GETTING CLOSER TO NATURE 

AS THEY USED TO SAY 

OF TED HUGHES TOO

AND WHEN I’M FEELING BLUE 

WRITING ABOUT MY DOG 

IS ALL I REALLY NEED TO DO. 









































XLI 


MY DOG WON’T TRY TOO HARD, 

MY DOG GETS NO VALENTINE CARD, 

BUT HE SEEMS TO BE FREE 

EVEN WHEN I MANOEUVRE 

OVER TIMES THAT ARE HARD

AND TURN ON THE HOOVER, 

HE’S ASLEEP RIGHT NOW 

UNDERNEATH THE PLOUGH 

WHERE THIS ANAGRAM OF BOREDOM 

KEEPS ME AWAKE SOMEHOW. 









































XLII


MY DOG DREAMS OF A BONE,

MY DOG MEANS I AM NOT ALONE,

I CAN’T BEAR TO THINK 

OF WHAT LIFE WILL BE LIKE 

WHEN HE LIVES NO MORE 

FOR YOU CAN’T WALK A BIKE, 

AND I’M TRAVELLING BY TEXT,

AND I AM FEELING VEXED, 

AND I AM WONDERING WHAT 

ON EARTH WILL HAPPEN NEXT. 









































XLIII


MY DOG HE LIKES TO PANT,

MY DOG’S NOT A HIEROPHANT, 

THOUGH I HEARD THE WORD ‘DOG’ 

COMES FROM A FAR-FETCHED STAR, 

AND HE WON’T BE UNDERSTOOD 

UNTIL THE SELF-DRIVING CAR, 

STILL THE CITY WON’T SLEEP 

IN THE HOURS WE KEEP 

UNTIL THE NEW DAY DAWNS 

AND THE MOBILE STARTS TO BLEEP.









































XLIV 


MY DOG CAN MAKE ME LAUGH,

MY DOG HAS NO AUTOGRAPH,

I COULD SOON FALSIFY 

THE NIRVANA BARCODE, 

BUT I’D PREFER TO WRITE

A RATHER CANINE ODE,

IT MIGHT SPELL SUCCESS, 

IN A ROOM THAT’S A MESS, 

OUT HERE IN CUMBRIA 

WHICH IS SEMI-WILDERNESS. 









































XLV


MY DOG IS LICKING HIS FUR,

MY DOG IS NOT LIKELY TO PURR, 

AND WE’RE STUCK IN A ROOM 

WITH A NEW KIND OF VIEW,

LEFT TO DO WHATEVER 

WE ARE LEFT HERE TO DO, 

IT’S DEFINITELY TIME FOR BED 

AS MY MOTHER HAS SAID 

AND I STILL BELIEVE MONOPOLY MONEY 

SHOULD WORK ON WINE AND BREAD.









































XLVI 


MY DOG IS WHINGING AGAIN,

MY DOG IS ALMOST ARCANE,

BEFORE THE RUBBISH WENT CANCEROUS 

I CUT MY DOG LOOSE, 

TO SIMPLIFY AND BE FAIR, 

AND WRITE SOMETHING OF USE,

AND STRETCH MY BOYHOOD THING,

AND MAKE TO FREELY SING 

IN THE MODE OF THE BARDIC CHILD 

WHO STILL KNOWS A THING.









































XLVII


MY DOG HAS A WET, BLACK NOSE,

MY DOG DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO METAMORPHOSE,

SO HE’S MASTERED FORM, 

BUT HE MIGHT MOVE ON,

TO CHAOS WHEN ALL 

THE FORMALITY IS DONE, 

FOR HE’S SEEN THE LIGHT, 

AND IT’S EVER SO BRIGHT, 

ESPECIALLY WHEN IT’S HELD 

WITHIN THE DARKEST NIGHT. 









































XLVIII


MY DOG BARKS AT THE VOICES,

MY DOG GIVES THE DOCTORS FEW CHOICES,

WHEN HE LIES ON HIS BACK 

HE IS SURRENDERING IN TRUST, 

AND HE THINKS HE’S THE MASCOT 

OF THE FOOD-CHAIN UPPER CRUST, 

WE’VE RESCUED HIM HERE,

AT THE HOME OF THE SEER, 

WHERE SOUL-FOOD REALLY DOES 

AMOUNT TO LOCAL BEER. 









































XLIX


MY DOG IS ASLEEP ONCE MORE,

MY DOG IS NOT AGAINST THE LAW, 

HE LIES ON THE BED 

IN A COMFORTABLE POSITION,

AND CHALLENGES ME WITH 

ALL MY LONG ERUDITION,

THERE’S A GLOW IN THE EAST,

AND I’LL GO TO THE FEAST 

KNOWING THAT LIKE HIM 

I AM BUT ANOTHER BEAST. 









































L


MY DOG GOES BOUNCING AROUND, 

MY DOG KNOWS SPRING WILL ABOUND,

AND RENEW THE EARTH 

WITH HER GILLY FLOWERS, 

LIKE THE USELESS PROOF 

OF A THOUSAND HOURS, 

IT’S A NEW DAY HERE, 

AND IT BRINGS ME CHEER, 

TO HAVE MY DOG BY MY SIDE 

ALWAYS AND EVER NEAR. 









































LI


MY DOG TURNED OUT A NUTTER,

MY DOG WON’T EAT BREAD AND BUTTER, 

WITH WHAT HE EATS 

HE’S GETTING FAT

AND DREAMS OF CHASING 

THE NEIGHBOUR’S CAT, 

IN HIS BASKET HE LIES 

NOT WEARING A DISGUISE 

AND STARES THE DAY AHEAD 

DIRECTLY IN THE EYES. 









































LII 


MY DOG HAS A VITAL SPARK,

MY DOG ALWAYS STARTS TO BARK,

WHEN I’M HEADING UPSTAIRS 

WITH A CUP OF HOT TEA, 

FULL OF WILD, EXCITABLE, 

AND LAWLESS ENERGY, 

HE LOVES ME SO MUCH,

AND MY LITTLE CRUTCH 

SO TOGETHER WE GROW OLD 

AND NOT QUITE OUT OF TOUCH.









































LIII


MY DOG LOVES SOLID GROUND, 

MY DOG RUNS ROUND AND ROUND,

HE DRIFTS LIKE A SPLIFF 

ALL THE WAY OUT TO SEA

WHEN HE LIES AND DREAMS 

OF A CUP OF SWEET TEA, 

HE’S A JUMP, HE’S A LEAP,

HE’S FALLING ASLEEP 

AND HE’LL NEVER MAKE

THE ANGELS COME TO WEEP. 









































LIV


MY DOG IS TRAINED TO SIT, 

MY DOG IS GOOD AT IT,

WHEN HE WANTS A SNACK

I MAKE HIM SIT DOWN, 

BECAUSE I AM THE BOSS 

OF THIS NERVOUS UNDERTOWN, 

I THINK HE HAD IT HARD 

IN SOMEONE ELSE’S YARD

AND IT’S STILL HIS INSTINCT NOW 

TO PUT UP A DEFENSIVE GUARD. 









































LV


MY DOG HAS A BRILLIANT NOSE,

MY DOG HAS WORDS LIKE THE CROWS, 

HE EXPLORES THE WORLD 

THROUGH HIS OPEN MOUTH, 

AND HEARS VERY KEENLY 

E-MAILS FROM THE SOUTH, 

HE’S FOND OF THIS SPOT, 

AND LIKES WHAT HE’S GOT,

AND HAS RESIGNED HIMSELF 

TO WHATEVER SEEMS HIS LOT. 









































LVI


MY DOG DOESN’T WEAR ANY PANTS,

MY DOG IS DEVELOPING A STANCE, 

HE BELIEVES THAT <BEE>

MIGHT COME AFTER @

IN THE INTERNATIONAL

LANGUAGE ALPHABET,

THEN A SQUIGGLY LINE

AND TO MAKE THINGS SHINE 

INFINITY SYMBOL IS NEXT 

AS WE DREAM OF FREEDOM’S WINE. 









































LVII


MY DOG’S NOT GAY BUT STRAIGHT,

MY DOG PISSES ON THE GATE,

IN ANY FUTURE STATE 

THERE SHOULD BE ROOM 

FOR THE NATURAL WORLD 

LIKE AT THE FOOT OF BLACK COMBE, 

SO MY DOG CAN WALK 

WHILE THE TWO OF US TALK 

ABOUT THE TIME WE BOTH GOT HIGH 

OFF A NEUTRAL GREEN STALK. 









































LVIII


MY DOG HAS BECOME A PROOF, 

MY DOG HASN’T BEEN ON THE ROOF,

HE’S A SYMBOL OF WHEN 

WE FLIPPED THE PARADIGM, 

AND LEFT THE NEW WORLD 

IN A DIFFERENT TIME,

AND WE’VE BOLTED THE DOOR,

BECAUSE OF THE LAW, 

AND WE DON’T WANT TO INDUCE 

THE BOASTING OF THE BORE. 









































LIX


MY DOG GETS FED BY JAMES,

MY DOG LIKES PLAYING GAMES,

BUT HE GETS NOTHING SWEET 

FROM MY BROTHER ONLY 

TREATS THAT HE NEEDS 

TO STOP FEELING LONELY,

LIKE MEAT-BASED FOOD, 

WHICH IS SOMETIMES SPEWED

ON THE CARPET IN A PATCH 

OF VOMIT ACIDIC AND CRUDE. 









































LX


MY DOG RAN OFF TO THE FARM, 

MY DOG NEVER WISHED ANYONE ANY HARM, 

AND THE NEIGHBOUR OUT WALKING 

FOUND HIM SNIFFING ABOUT 

AND BROUGHT HIM BACK HERE,

WHERE OUR LOVE IS DEVOUT,

AND OUT HERE IT’S NO LIE,

BENEATH AN INFINITE SKY

YOU ALWAYS ACKNOWLEDGE THE STRANGER 

WHOM YOU ARE PASSING BY.









































LXI


MY DOG WEED ON THE KITCHEN FLOOR,

MY DOG SAID FLORA WAS A WHORE,

SO HE GOT LOCKED OUT 

IN THE GARDEN UNTIL 

HE CHANGED HIS MIND,

AND HE’D BE OUT THERE STILL 

IF HE HADN’T APOLOGISED,

FOR I HAVE SURMISED 

FLORA’S THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMAN

OVER WHOM I HAVE AGONISED. 









































LXII


MY DOG SHOULD ABJURE SWEET THINGS,

MY DOG DOESN’T KNOW OF MY WINGS,

IF A FLOWER PRESS ENDING 

ON HOMEGROWN CANNABIS 

COULD STILL SEEM TO = 

SOME KIND OF DIALYSIS 

A LOVE POEM HOPING TO 

IMPRESS FLORA, WHO 

IS THE MATING QUEEN IN THE FLESH 

COULD = MORE A MOTOR TOO. 









































LXIII


MY DOG GOES ROUND THE SUN,

MY DOG MAKES MY WRITING FUN,

HE’S A DOOR-STOPPER TOME 

THAT’S WAITING TO HAPPEN,

AND WOULDN’T IT BE POLLEN 

IF BARNES HAS SCORED A CHICKEN, 

FULL OF PEACOCK FEATHER, 

FULL OF VELVET FLARE,

FULL OF MASCARA BRUISE

AND BUTTERFLY WING DEBONAIR?









































LXIV


MY DOG IS LICKING HIS LEG,

MY DOG WAS JUST ABOUT TO BEG,

HE WAS LOOKING AT ME 

WITH THOSE WATERY EYES, 

AS I DREAMED OF A MAST 

UNDER NEW BLUE SKIES, 

BUT I PAID NO ATTENTION 

TO HIS BRIEF INTERVENTION 

SO HE TURNED BACK TO HIS BASKET 

WHICH MEANS HE’S NO INVENTION.









































LXV


MY DOG HEARS FILM MUSIC TOO, 

MY DOG HEARS IT COMING THROUGH

FROM MY BROTHER’S ROOM 

ALL TRIUMPHANT AND GRAND, 

WAY BETTER THAN ANY 

PAST ROCK N ROLL BAND, 

IT REMINDS OF THE PRESENT, 

IT SOUNDS QUITE PLEASANT, 

AND IT PENETRATES IS-NESS 

WHILE MY DOG DREAMS OF A PHEASANT. 









































LXVI


MY DOG CAN SEEM QUITE FUNNY,

MY DOG CAN’T WRITE ON MONEY,

BUT HE’D MAKE IT TO THE TOILET 

IF I FED HIM NO TEA, 

FOR HE KNOWS THE GARDEN 

IS THE PLACE TO PEE,

SO HE IS NOT WRONG, 

JUST SINGING ALONG, 

TO THE TUNE I PLAY FOR HIM, 

WHICH THEY CALL THE MAD DOG SONG.  









































LXVII


MY DOG’S BEEN FED AGAIN,

MY DOG DOESN’T NEED TO LICK RAIN,

SO I SHOULDN’T HAVE LET 

THE CAT OUT THE BAG 

AND PUT MY WOUNDS 

UP ON A BRIGHT FLAG, 

FOR LOOKING BACK I SEE 

THAT IN ORDER TO BE FREE 

I SHOULD’VE BURIED MY SECRETS

NOT DONE OPEN HEART SURGERY. 









































LXVIII 


MY DOG’S ONCE MORE UPSTAIRS, 

MY DOG’S NOT GOT MANY CARES,

AND THE HOUSE IS FILLED 

WITH ADULTS CRYING, 

LOVERS TORN IN TWO,

ACCUSATIONS OF LYING, 

AND I MUST CONFESS 

THOUGH I STILL LIKE JESS,

WHEN SINGLE IS MY JINGLE, 

I MIGHT’VE FOUND HAPPINESS. 









































LXIX


MY DOG HAD MEANING WHEN 

MY DOG STARTED LIFE, BACK THEN, 

AND TO SEPARATE THE POLLEN 

I FOUND FROM ITS NAME 

MIGHT NOT JUST BE 

A SEVEN YEAR OLD’S GAME,

BUT THINGS HAVE BEEN WEIRD 

SINCE WHEN IT APPEARED 

THAT MY EARLY LINGO FLOWED 

IN WAYS MOST UNAFEAR’D.









































LXX


MY DOG DAWNS ON ME AGAIN,

MY DOG WITH SUGAR ON HIS BRAIN, 

HE’S A LOVELY DOG

AND THE SWITCH IS THROWN,

AND THE MAGIC RAFT

WENT OFF ALL ALONE, 

TO THE STORY SEAS

WHERE WE GATHER AS WE PLEASE 

UPON OUR MOTHER’S BED

AS SHE READS US MORE STORIES.









































LXXI


MY DOG JUST CAN’T CONFUTE HER,

MY DOG IS MY DIRT-COMPUTER, 

AND SOME VOICES ARE SADISTS

BUT OTHERS ARE FRIENDS, 

AND WE STILL DON’T KNOW 

HOW THE STORY ENDS, 

BUT I’LL TAKE IT SLOW 

AND GO WITH THE FLOW 

BECAUSE I HAVE COME DOWN 

TO THE PATCHWORK QUILT BELOW.