TRYING TO BE FREE OF STATE SCIENCE

I am not sure I am allowed to have a penis, at least when I write. It’s complicated. When I was 7 I wrote a little book designed to store the idea of the internet in the attic in writing to give it a chance to grow all the way round the world. It encrypted a scientific node to do with Gravity, had the vision of the net, attempted an experiment into the maths of the new colour and separated the object ‘pollen’ from its name.

The scientific node was that if the Gravity between earth and moon is instant and therefore enough to break lightspeed, a clock is still only as fast as a cheetah. That’s why they, whomsoever they are, got me to start with a book called

2

JOHN TUCKER

ENGLISH

E

and to continue with a book called

ENGLISH

JOHN TUCKER

HARECROFT

1.

The split was not even but asymmetrical like one part was an ‘on’ and one part an ‘off’ function. And after we had dealt with Einstein’s E, and after I had had the vision of what I called “the ire ii net,” a plus sign was then put in for the ‘f’ of scarf in the line

“I have a scar+ that is red and black.”

Then I took us to a piece called ‘Good And Evil’ where “I woke up at 1 o. clock” in other words where the first person pronoun and the time 1 o’ clock were being contrasted. I think the splitting of the two books as earlier mentioned was the entry for number 2. As for the entry for number 3, we find a 3-line poem in my maths book in chronological sequence with the rest of the writing going

“Colour circles red. How many circles?

Colour triangles blue. How many squares?

Colour oblongs orange. How many triangles?”

The number 4 is a bike crash in Sweden. I count up further and further. To read it all you’d only need to get a copy of The Sunset Child. People have said the best one in it is called ‘My Dad.’

So you see the maths that invented or helped invent the net was indebted to Einstein, and already became an experiment into the maths of the new colour as a cellular mark before anyone even had the net in their homes. You see that the F that came after the E was in key and in keeping with the maths that stored the idea of the net because it was about giving the net room to grow.

The complication is that when I got to the age of 11 I was visibly marked by the maths I had written at 7, took a long thin stripe up the underside, redefining the meaning of the words “I’m fine.” So we get that it isn’t easy for me to be free of State science. How can I write of my own body without incurring the problem of State science owning it? As a writer, I would like to tell you the narrative of how I came to attempt the maths of the new colour as a cellular mark, but whenever I do I need to precede it with science that is not mine own, and that is as stated indebted to Einstein, so is unlikely to have come from me as a seven year old. If the State meanwhile don’t even think I should be free to photograph the Plough on my Smartphone I shouldn’t be dallying with them, but should try and forge a demarcation. I’d like to do something without the government, and have several papers ready on my blog already, but there’s always a tendency to “do the one about the maths of the new colour” and if I don’t, I don’t even feel like I have bodily participation in my own work, and if I do, I am a slave to the State. Even breaking free from the State I feel insecure and helpless, as if I have sinned in their eyes, and am up against all that power.